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Every Night when I go to Sleep, I wonder what the next Day will bring for me, how I should solve the Problems that seem to Surround me. I lay in my Bed, grab the Pillow beneath my Head, relax, close my Eyes and try to find the beginning of a Dream. I don't realise it, it just kind of starts, like in the middle or some other specific part, I'm confussed but at the same Time I seem to understand whats going on, what I'm doing in this place, whatever it was I planned.

When I wake and think about what happend in the Dream, it all seems so strange, in the Dream it was clear, what I want, what I seek, what I still seem to fear but the moment I'm awake it tends to change, to blur, I'm not sure what really happend. Then again their are those Dreams that seem so real, you can feel it. Pain and Happiness are so close to each other there. Sometimes I even Dream things I don't want at all, the Death of my Family and Friends or myself as I fall, shot, dead, not to ever move again, I watch my End from the sidelines and feel calm about it.

Then sometimes I just Dream about what I want, what I hope will happen, but still don't see coming, like having success, my own little Family or being with someone I Love, in these moments of bliss it is that I see who I truely am. I'm the guy that would die for the people that are important for him, I would do simply anything for them even if it means losing everything thats makes me Happy.

I'm not in Control of my Soul, Heart and Thoughts, they seem to taunt me in the Wake World, telling me a thousand different thing's at the same Time, so I try to make sense of it, but I can't, so I pray that in sleep, in a Dream I may find Clarity.

What others Dream still seems to make sense, I doubt they understand themselves, just like the way it is with me. But if a Friend dreams of helping me out of Problems and see's me hold a my first child, he's say's it's gonna be a Daughter, as I stand next to a Girl I like to talk about alot, he say's She's the Mother. He tells how we had opened a Bar, at the start things went great, but then problems started piling, no Money, no renovation, lost our Guests, the Hole we were in just kept getting bigger and at the start, this is the worst part, the Girl was in her 8th Month pregnat. But in the Dream, the conclusion, everything was ok, we got rid of the problems, she gave birth in a Hosipital and on the Day we came back, we had a Huge Party. So what it seems to me is all that this Friend thought about was helping me come to good things.

Or a Dream of the Girl I like to talk about. She told me she dreamt I was visiting her, we were talking alot, seemed to be good between us, then all of a sudden I say to her ''Ya know I really like you, but you have a big Butt''. I had to laugh when she told me about that, but I guess that could mean more then it seems, maybe she thinks I would let her down, she'd get her Hopes up and I'd shatter them without a bit of remorse. An other Time she dreamt I was visiting her, everything was ok, but then she told me to leave and in regret she walked the Streets for Hours crying about what she had did. I think that a Dream shows what you really think, what you don't want admit, what you want, what you don't, what secretly seek.

Dreams are Bliss.

Description
Every Night when I go to Sleep, I wonder what the next Day will bring for me, how I should solve the Problems that seem to Surround me. I lay in my Bed, grab the Pillow beneath my Head, relax, close my Eyes and try to find the beginning of a Dream. I don't realise it, it just kind of starts, like in the middle or some other specific part, I'm confussed but at the same Time I seem to understand whats going on, what I'm doing in this place, whatever it was I planned.

When I wake and think about what happend in the Dream, it all seems so strange, in the Dream it was clear, what I want, what I seek, what I still seem to fear but the moment I'm awake it tends to change, to blur, I'm not sure what really happend. Then again their are those Dreams that seem so real, you can feel it. Pain and Happiness are so close to each other there. Sometimes I even Dream things I don't want at all, the Death of my Family and Friends or myself as I fall, shot, dead, not to ever move again, I watch my End from the sidelines and feel calm about it.

Then sometimes I just Dream about what I want, what I hope will happen, but still don't see coming, like having success, my own little Family or being with someone I Love, in these moments of bliss it is that I see who I truely am. I'm the guy that would die for the people that are important for him, I would do simply anything for them even if it means losing everything thats makes me Happy.

I'm not in Control of my Soul, Heart and Thoughts, they seem to taunt me in the Wake World, telling me a thousand different thing's at the same Time, so I try to make sense of it, but I can't, so I pray that in sleep, in a Dream I may find Clarity.

What others Dream still seems to make sense, I doubt they understand themselves, just like the way it is with me. But if a Friend dreams of helping me out of Problems and see's me hold a my first child, he's say's it's gonna be a Daughter, as I stand next to a Girl I like to talk about alot, he say's She's the Mother. He tells how we had opened a Bar, at the start things went great, but then problems started piling, no Money, no renovation, lost our Guests, the Hole we were in just kept getting bigger and at the start, this is the worst part, the Girl was in her 8th Month pregnat. But in the Dream, the conclusion, everything was ok, we got rid of the problems, she gave birth in a Hosipital and on the Day we came back, we had a Huge Party. So what it seems to me is all that this Friend thought about was helping me come to good things.

Or a Dream of the Girl I like to talk about. She told me she dreamt I was visiting her, we were talking alot, seemed to be good between us, then all of a sudden I say to her ''Ya know I really like you, but you have a big Butt''. I had to laugh when she told me about that, but I guess that could mean more then it seems, maybe she thinks I would let her down, she'd get her Hopes up and I'd shatter them without a bit of remorse. An other Time she dreamt I was visiting her, everything was ok, but then she told me to leave and in regret she walked the Streets for Hours crying about what she had did. I think that a Dream shows what you really think, what you don't want admit, what you want, what you don't, what secretly seek.

Dreams are Bliss.