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In the Morning when I wake up I can't do anything without losing a thought on you, I get out of Bed, brush my Teeth, your still in my Head. I can't eat, don't bother trying, anything else in my Head makes me feel like I'm lying. I turn on my Computer, first thing I do is see if there's anything new, it's all empty, nothing is Important, I get a wierd feeling in my Stomach. Is that what they call Butterflys? I don't know, I don't know anything at all, one moment I'm Happy and the next I'm Sad, I run my Fingers through my Hair, kinda wish you were here, miss you, wanna be with you, can't wait till I can talk to you again. I have to wait, theirs no other way, makes the day seem long, looking back I can't remember what I did until now, the moment your here, a moment I wanted, somehow also one I fear.

Why is it so scary, why am I afraid to be true, why, why, why, you know it's all because of you. It's not a blame, just doesn't seem to feel the same, this was different with all the other Girls, somehow your extra special, it kinda hurts, constant fear not to be good enough, you really diserve more.

Evening comes and as it turns to darkest Night it's seems to get easier, but still it doesn't feel quite right. I take a break, outside I smoke a Cigarette, I try to find to myself but somehow it's like my Head is somewhere else, I want to think clear, I want to be true, I want to be who I am but I simply can't. I punch the Wall, the pain is sweet, it let's me think, I ponder what I could say, I wonder how long your going to stay, I ask myself these things...what does it matter anyway? My Head hurts, I'm totally confused, you turn my Head around with everything you say or do, what are you thinking right now? Are you feeling the same thing? That's what I wonder the most, the thing you'd never clearly say.

My Headache is still there, seems like it's clearing the Air, it all seems so simple now, I realise something, if I lie then your seeing someone else, if I'm not true to you I'm just fooling myself. Now it's easy, you seem to be happy, we joke around, it's really great, these are the moments I love. But then as fast as it came it also goes, you gotta get to Bed, tomarrow you've got School, it sucks, but it's late, I only want the best for you even if it means I can't be with you.

Your gone now, I feel so alone, the Clock keeps ticking away but I can't count the seconds, I just know it would take so many and everyone hurts more then the last. I have to occupy myself, I start writing something on dev, 5, 6 trys, just can't get it right, I can't find a fitting rhyme. I give it up, think of you and it seems to flow, it's not pretty but atleast it's true. I post and get up, write a Journal, haven't done that in a while, wonder why my Note wasn't answered yet, oh well.

I get up and head for my bed, roll up a blanket and lay it next to me so I can pretend it was you. Close my Eye's, make a silent pray, start to fall asleep, even in my Dreams my thoughts are on you...just a day like every other...

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In the Morning when I wake up I can't do anything without losing a thought on you, I get out of Bed, brush my Teeth, your still in my Head. I can't eat, don't bother trying, anything else in my Head makes me feel like I'm lying. I turn on my Computer, first thing I do is see if there's anything new, it's all empty, nothing is Important, I get a wierd feeling in my Stomach. Is that what they call Butterflys? I don't know, I don't know anything at all, one moment I'm Happy and the next I'm Sad, I run my Fingers through my Hair, kinda wish you were here, miss you, wanna be with you, can't wait till I can talk to you again. I have to wait, theirs no other way, makes the day seem long, looking back I can't remember what I did until now, the moment your here, a moment I wanted, somehow also one I fear.

Why is it so scary, why am I afraid to be true, why, why, why, you know it's all because of you. It's not a blame, just doesn't seem to feel the same, this was different with all the other Girls, somehow your extra special, it kinda hurts, constant fear not to be good enough, you really diserve more.

Evening comes and as it turns to darkest Night it's seems to get easier, but still it doesn't feel quite right. I take a break, outside I smoke a Cigarette, I try to find to myself but somehow it's like my Head is somewhere else, I want to think clear, I want to be true, I want to be who I am but I simply can't. I punch the Wall, the pain is sweet, it let's me think, I ponder what I could say, I wonder how long your going to stay, I ask myself these things...what does it matter anyway? My Head hurts, I'm totally confused, you turn my Head around with everything you say or do, what are you thinking right now? Are you feeling the same thing? That's what I wonder the most, the thing you'd never clearly say.

My Headache is still there, seems like it's clearing the Air, it all seems so simple now, I realise something, if I lie then your seeing someone else, if I'm not true to you I'm just fooling myself. Now it's easy, you seem to be happy, we joke around, it's really great, these are the moments I love. But then as fast as it came it also goes, you gotta get to Bed, tomarrow you've got School, it sucks, but it's late, I only want the best for you even if it means I can't be with you.

Your gone now, I feel so alone, the Clock keeps ticking away but I can't count the seconds, I just know it would take so many and everyone hurts more then the last. I have to occupy myself, I start writing something on dev, 5, 6 trys, just can't get it right, I can't find a fitting rhyme. I give it up, think of you and it seems to flow, it's not pretty but atleast it's true. I post and get up, write a Journal, haven't done that in a while, wonder why my Note wasn't answered yet, oh well.

I get up and head for my bed, roll up a blanket and lay it next to me so I can pretend it was you. Close my Eye's, make a silent pray, start to fall asleep, even in my Dreams my thoughts are on you...just a day like every other...