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I fear it. You fear it. We all do. To lose someone beloved to us.

I guess it's natural. When you have something, you do not want to give it up. Circumstances, Mistakes and Feelings are mostly the Reasons. It's sad. It's sad that we can't be together forever with the People we love. It's probably the worst for People like me that are shy. I always have Problems meeting People at all, but then, when I actually find somebody, be it a Friend or a Lover, I don't want to let go.

Sometimes though, letting go is the best thing you can do. I can't tell you when it is the right choice, each and every one of us has to decide that for themselves. Of course you should leave an abusive Boyfriend or a cheating Girlfriend. People say that for your own good. The intention to actually do so however has to come from yourself, you have to feel good about your decision or you won't stick to it anyway. Atleast be sure that you know yourself, that with Time, things will be better that way.

I'd like to tell you, the Reader but especially the Person this is dedicated to, 2 Stories.

When I was 15, I met a Girl. It didn't take long for me to fall in Love with her. We began a Relationship, a rather long one keeping our Age in Mind, especially since she was only 14. After over 2 Years, I was 17, she was 16, we were both still attending School, she started to do something that I found strange. She started to show me Cataloges with Furnature. She started looking for Apartments. At first, I didn't really think much of it. I thought to myself ''Hey, we've been together for awhile now, I guess it's ok to think about these things, that doesn't mean we have to do them as soon as were out of School.

Then there came a point, a point that brought on the end of our Relationship. She started to speak of Marriage. To explain myself and my actions. I plan to Marry someday, to have Children and never leave my Partner. I long for these things, however, I also know that it's not easy, it's nothing you should take lightly. So, I spoke with her, told her that I loved these ideas but that it was too early. I wasn't ready for this Step. She however had already built up her Picturebook vision of our Future in her Mind. She said she would stop, and she did. However, in the Weeks to come, she started to act a bit strange. We were a sexuall active Couple, always using the Anti-Baby Pill and Condoms. Well, eventually she started to try to talking me into sleeping with her without a Condom. If she hadn't done it constantly I probably would have done it. I became suspious. I told her that I would do it, but only if she showed me when she took her Pill. She blamed me of not trusting her, truth is, after her acting so strange and the things before, I really had lost much trust. Things went down hill and I broke up with her. It hurt me, I didn't want to let her go, but I felt she was trying to do something I didn't want yet. 2 Months later, in the Hope that I would take her back, she admitted that she wanted to get Pregnant. After I knew I was right, I knew I wouldn't ever be able to trust her again. As much as I longed to continue the Relationship, I couldn't, I let her go.

Today she is Married and has a Child. It seems to me that perhaps it wasn't important for her to have these things with me, but to just have them. Maybe I'm wrong, I don't know.

Another Ocassion.

I never really got much Attention from Girls earlier. What can I say, I was kind of Fat and I really am a very quite Person, I never was the Person you notice in a Crowd. But this Girl, she actually showed interest in me, I didn't know why, I felt she was way out of my League, but I felt that with every Girl I've dated. Eventually she told me she had brooken up with her Boyfriend because of me. I was filled with Joy, I had long built feelings for her. We were a Pair and I did the things I saw as completly normal. I helped her with School Work, I gave her Money and I gave her all the Affection I had to offer.

One Day I started to hear these Rumors that she was still with her ''Ex''. At first I didn't think much of it, I didn't believe these things or perhaps I just didn't want to believe them. With Time though I heard it more and more. Nobody really had a reason to lie to me. So I asked her about it. She just laughed, not at what I accused, but that I was stupid enough to believe she had any feelings for me. She had just used me to get my Money. Her Boyfriend even knew about it. I think thats the most an other Person has hurt me before. I was so ashamed.

nabey, I can't really explain why I am writing this. I guess it's because you featured me, even though I did nothing but tell you about a Experience. I don't really know anything about you, I don't know why you broke up with your Boyfriend but I'm sure you had your reasons. I am just trying to say that we all have these kind of Problems, I just want to show you with this, that Life does go on. At the Time I have a beautiful Girlfriend and truth told, I have never loved a Person the way I love her before. Sometimes she really gets on my nerves but I love her more then Life itself and I know she loves me too. Sometimes the People we love hurt us more then anybody else ever could.

What I do know about you, is that you have a Gift. You are a brilliant Artist, your Drawings look Photo-Realistic. You can be very proud of them. It's the People here like you that inspire me not to give up. I know that I'm far from being a well known Writer, sometimes I'm not even sure if I really have Talent. But to see, that someone like you has to deal with everyday Problems, just like I do, I don't know, it just kind of shows me that your just a Person too. It shows me that I can make it too.

This is just my way of showing my graditude, hoping that somehow I may have written something that comforts you. Thank you for featuring me, especially since I did nothing to earn it. Keep your Head up, good things come to good People. I wish you the best in Life.

Description
I fear it. You fear it. We all do. To lose someone beloved to us.

I guess it's natural. When you have something, you do not want to give it up. Circumstances, Mistakes and Feelings are mostly the Reasons. It's sad. It's sad that we can't be together forever with the People we love. It's probably the worst for People like me that are shy. I always have Problems meeting People at all, but then, when I actually find somebody, be it a Friend or a Lover, I don't want to let go.

Sometimes though, letting go is the best thing you can do. I can't tell you when it is the right choice, each and every one of us has to decide that for themselves. Of course you should leave an abusive Boyfriend or a cheating Girlfriend. People say that for your own good. The intention to actually do so however has to come from yourself, you have to feel good about your decision or you won't stick to it anyway. Atleast be sure that you know yourself, that with Time, things will be better that way.

I'd like to tell you, the Reader but especially the Person this is dedicated to, 2 Stories.

When I was 15, I met a Girl. It didn't take long for me to fall in Love with her. We began a Relationship, a rather long one keeping our Age in Mind, especially since she was only 14. After over 2 Years, I was 17, she was 16, we were both still attending School, she started to do something that I found strange. She started to show me Cataloges with Furnature. She started looking for Apartments. At first, I didn't really think much of it. I thought to myself ''Hey, we've been together for awhile now, I guess it's ok to think about these things, that doesn't mean we have to do them as soon as were out of School.

Then there came a point, a point that brought on the end of our Relationship. She started to speak of Marriage. To explain myself and my actions. I plan to Marry someday, to have Children and never leave my Partner. I long for these things, however, I also know that it's not easy, it's nothing you should take lightly. So, I spoke with her, told her that I loved these ideas but that it was too early. I wasn't ready for this Step. She however had already built up her Picturebook vision of our Future in her Mind. She said she would stop, and she did. However, in the Weeks to come, she started to act a bit strange. We were a sexuall active Couple, always using the Anti-Baby Pill and Condoms. Well, eventually she started to try to talking me into sleeping with her without a Condom. If she hadn't done it constantly I probably would have done it. I became suspious. I told her that I would do it, but only if she showed me when she took her Pill. She blamed me of not trusting her, truth is, after her acting so strange and the things before, I really had lost much trust. Things went down hill and I broke up with her. It hurt me, I didn't want to let her go, but I felt she was trying to do something I didn't want yet. 2 Months later, in the Hope that I would take her back, she admitted that she wanted to get Pregnant. After I knew I was right, I knew I wouldn't ever be able to trust her again. As much as I longed to continue the Relationship, I couldn't, I let her go.

Today she is Married and has a Child. It seems to me that perhaps it wasn't important for her to have these things with me, but to just have them. Maybe I'm wrong, I don't know.

Another Ocassion.

I never really got much Attention from Girls earlier. What can I say, I was kind of Fat and I really am a very quite Person, I never was the Person you notice in a Crowd. But this Girl, she actually showed interest in me, I didn't know why, I felt she was way out of my League, but I felt that with every Girl I've dated. Eventually she told me she had brooken up with her Boyfriend because of me. I was filled with Joy, I had long built feelings for her. We were a Pair and I did the things I saw as completly normal. I helped her with School Work, I gave her Money and I gave her all the Affection I had to offer.

One Day I started to hear these Rumors that she was still with her ''Ex''. At first I didn't think much of it, I didn't believe these things or perhaps I just didn't want to believe them. With Time though I heard it more and more. Nobody really had a reason to lie to me. So I asked her about it. She just laughed, not at what I accused, but that I was stupid enough to believe she had any feelings for me. She had just used me to get my Money. Her Boyfriend even knew about it. I think thats the most an other Person has hurt me before. I was so ashamed.

nabey, I can't really explain why I am writing this. I guess it's because you featured me, even though I did nothing but tell you about a Experience. I don't really know anything about you, I don't know why you broke up with your Boyfriend but I'm sure you had your reasons. I am just trying to say that we all have these kind of Problems, I just want to show you with this, that Life does go on. At the Time I have a beautiful Girlfriend and truth told, I have never loved a Person the way I love her before. Sometimes she really gets on my nerves but I love her more then Life itself and I know she loves me too. Sometimes the People we love hurt us more then anybody else ever could.

What I do know about you, is that you have a Gift. You are a brilliant Artist, your Drawings look Photo-Realistic. You can be very proud of them. It's the People here like you that inspire me not to give up. I know that I'm far from being a well known Writer, sometimes I'm not even sure if I really have Talent. But to see, that someone like you has to deal with everyday Problems, just like I do, I don't know, it just kind of shows me that your just a Person too. It shows me that I can make it too.

This is just my way of showing my graditude, hoping that somehow I may have written something that comforts you. Thank you for featuring me, especially since I did nothing to earn it. Keep your Head up, good things come to good People. I wish you the best in Life.