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I wasn't planning to upload another drawing this year but my recent experience at the company christmas party was bothering me so much I decided to create this as a 'vent'.

I don't like to talk about myself all that much (at least not to the general audience) but I'm sure some of you already know I've got social anxiety issues and sometimes they cause me big problems especially in public situations.

Well I decided to attend my company christmas party this year (the first one they've ever had while I've worked there) and I figured I'd get along fairly well there, I mean I'm pretty comfortable with most of my co-workers and I like to think I've improved my social skills a lot in the last 5 years... Evidently not... I got there and 3/4 of the people were people I didn't recognize (mostly made of people from our other stores along with their +1's) and the room was pretty packed and loud and I guess I just couldn't handle it.

I spent most of the party wandering around aimlessly, going outside, sitting by myself twiddling with my phone (not actually doing anything with it, just messing with it) and hiding out in the bathroom... It wasn't pretty. IDK why I'm like this and it frustrates me to no end. I really wanted to have a good time but my anxiety demon decided to pay a visit and say NOPE! So I hung around long enough for the raffle to be over which OF COURSE I was probably one of 10 people who went home empty handed and then I bolted... I'm really not looking forward to work tomorrow assuming anyone even payed attention to what I was doing. I don't want to answer the question of "why didn't you come sit with us" or anything along those lines...

I'm so freaking frustrated with myself over this. I know parties aren't my thing AT ALL but Come On Man I couldn't even fake it.

New Life WebComic
Deviant Art
Fur Affinity
Weasyl

So yeah this image is basically how I felt throughout. I felt like everyone was staring at me (even though they weren't), I felt like there was this dark aura all around me and I really just wanted to leave.

Description

I wasn't planning to upload another drawing this year but my recent experience at the company christmas party was bothering me so much I decided to create this as a 'vent'.

I don't like to talk about myself all that much (at least not to the general audience) but I'm sure some of you already know I've got social anxiety issues and sometimes they cause me big problems especially in public situations.

Well I decided to attend my company christmas party this year (the first one they've ever had while I've worked there) and I figured I'd get along fairly well there, I mean I'm pretty comfortable with most of my co-workers and I like to think I've improved my social skills a lot in the last 5 years... Evidently not... I got there and 3/4 of the people were people I didn't recognize (mostly made of people from our other stores along with their +1's) and the room was pretty packed and loud and I guess I just couldn't handle it.

I spent most of the party wandering around aimlessly, going outside, sitting by myself twiddling with my phone (not actually doing anything with it, just messing with it) and hiding out in the bathroom... It wasn't pretty. IDK why I'm like this and it frustrates me to no end. I really wanted to have a good time but my anxiety demon decided to pay a visit and say NOPE! So I hung around long enough for the raffle to be over which OF COURSE I was probably one of 10 people who went home empty handed and then I bolted... I'm really not looking forward to work tomorrow assuming anyone even payed attention to what I was doing. I don't want to answer the question of "why didn't you come sit with us" or anything along those lines...

I'm so freaking frustrated with myself over this. I know parties aren't my thing AT ALL but Come On Man I couldn't even fake it.

New Life WebComic
Deviant Art
Fur Affinity
Weasyl

So yeah this image is basically how I felt throughout. I felt like everyone was staring at me (even though they weren't), I felt like there was this dark aura all around me and I really just wanted to leave.