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The tides...in and out, the feelings of sadness moving back and forth often growing and shrinking but ever present. I diminish, I discount, I ignore and finally I deny. Truth?..I know pain, I know the fear, it consumes and controls...don't show it, don't acknowledge.. Smile and carry in..tiny pricks, salt in my wounds, LET ME BE!!

Is nothing real anymore? All the lies, your half truths, consumed in hatred of myself. A machine you made, operating in perfection...your calculated accuracy, you knew how to destroy my will and did so with unknown prejudice.

Will to fight, will to hope, will I ever regain myself. Who would I be regaining, that is the lasting unknown. I lost myself in years of lucid dreams made nightmares by your omissions of deceit...come to me now, oh lover of my soul, reveal yourself in truth. By name I call, by reason I doubt. Make me believe again..regain my consciousness, lift up my chin and brush my brow....forever in a moment, find me..