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everyone thinks im seeking attention
i im often always ignored
i try to help others
pretty much everyone
and i get just a few people
who care to listen
in return
thank you
to these people
for being amazing

AngieYaz
galaxydroplet
Korseni

these 3 have always listened to me
and im proud to know them
i love you all
but if you could give these three
some special love
that would be amazing
i know i dont think highly of myself
hell, i think im still trash
that shouldnt even be cared about.
but please
dont go at people
dont start drama
if you need to talk with someone
about some situation
that might cause drama
can we just be civilized
24/7 all that blares in my ear
whether im at home
or at my cottage
is "DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA"
people need to stfu with the drama
i dont want to be in it
its just a headache causer
i'm questioning
whether i want to cut off
some of my relationships
because although they are
with good people
they have drama surrounding them
and i cant handle it
i feel like a fragile piece of glass
in fact
that's probably what i am
that's probably why i tried to kms 16 times
because i cant handle shit
and what do i do
pour my energy into helping others.
its a vicious cycle of depression for me.
and im trying to end it
but i need the people who constantly
talk about drama
to stfu
i want to help
but i need to balance out
the amount im helping
with the amount im taking care of myself.
which isn't often, to be honest
i often refuse a lot of nice things for myself
because i dont think i deserve them
so it will be tough for me.
but i hope you guys can help me through it
not to mention
how im scared to shit at the cottage
had a panic attack in the middle of class
its always nice
when you bawl out your tears
in the middle of class.
but im trying
trying hard
to climb up that rope
that rope i was slipping down
into depression
for galaxydroplet , my one and only love
for AngieYaz , my bff
for all of you.
i love everyone
but myself.

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