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so yeah
this is a vent
and this has some pretty dark/bad topics
so please click away if you cant handle them
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ok so first off
I'm worried for my own safety
I don't know whether I am safe or not
I'm in the same place as rapists and very violent people
all I did was be depressed and sad
did I really deserve this?
I don't know anymore
I'm getting more broken
more corrupted
I'm unstable now
I'm unstable with my own feelings
because I'm worried
about my safety
and I'm not sure
what is safe
and what isn't anymore.
things
really bad things
could happen to me
in the current placement I'm in.
I'm scared to hell.
I don't have a moment in the cottage of peace
where I feel safe
where I'm not constantly looking around
to see if anyone's there
because I'm so scared
so so scared
for my own safety
please someone
remove me from this
I'm not even depressed anymore
ive gone through a little treatment
and some medication changes
and I feel a lot better
but seriously
I'm worried
that i'll get attacked
that i'll die
I cant sleep at night anymore
I'm crying out as I try to sleep
help me...

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