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Kaiiluvu — 20 letters from you, chapter 2
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The 4th letterI’ve been bed ridden for a more than a week now; 8 days to be exact. I haven’t been so relaxed in a long time yet at the same time I feel uncomfortable. I do get the occasional maid coming in now and again to give me my meal and help me to places I need to go, but apart from that I’m left alone.
Oh and don’t worry about Nunally; Gino has taken my place. I trust him; well I hope you do as well.
The bright spring sun shone its rays onto Zero’s bed; creating a little warmth in this unusually cold room.
Placing his hand on his bandaged wound he looked outside to that blue sky; watching it stretch onto eternity.
He smiled softly to himself.
Is the sky blue there? Or is it grey? Or maybe white? Here it’s blue; it’s a nice blue. I like the blue sky, it makes me think for once that maybe the world is a beautiful place. A beautiful, beautiful place.
He stopped and slowly placed the pen and paper down;
“I’m bored…”
“Don’t get out of bed!”
He hung his head, remembering her majesty’s words but decided just this once to not listen to them.
Sighing, he slowly manoeuvred his legs off the bed to the side; wincing at the sharp stabbing pains he was experiencing. His feet touched the cold marble floor which caused him to shiver slightly. Hanging his head he stared at the ground momentarily.
Maybe he should not have let Gino take care of Nunnally… He knew Lelouch wouldn’t have wanted it and would be furious with him now about it. The thing about Lelouch was, well he had a hard time trusting people…which made Suzaku feel all the more honoured to be even allowed into his secluded world.
Lelouch Vi Britannia trusted him, a Japanese. Don’t see that everyday…
“…let’s go for a walk…”
Something which he was not suppose to do, even after her highness nagged and nagged again, well Suzaku was a stubborn one.
“Gomen, Your highness…”
He didn’t want to have to wear his Zero helmet this time so instead he reached for his hat, sunglasses and scarf.
“This’ll be able to hide my face…”
Reaching for his walking stick he sighed at the very thought of needing one;
“I ain’t that old am I?”
Of course not you’re only 22.
Going onto 23…
You’ve been shot…
But still I don’t need a walking stick…
He stopped and laughed to himself; he could really imagine Lelouch saying that to him with that ‘don’t be stupid’ face he always pulled when speaking to the Japanese boy.
“Ne, did you always think I was stupid?”
Maybe…
He laughed again and shook his head at the illusion. He stood up gradually the wound constantly reminding him to lie back down; however Suzaku wasn’t the type of person to just do what anything or anyone says. He laughed again as he reached for his favourite blue coat; one he hadn’t worn since that date with
…Shirley…
“She didn’t deserve to die…”
Of course she didn’t. All she ever tried to do was win Lelouch’s affection and to try and enter that world which Suzaku was only a part of. In the end after all of her efforts, they all seemed futile.
However, although he says that, everyone does die eventually. Either naturally or by an illness or even murder, we were born to die…right?
“Ne, Lelouch is it strange to think this…”
Think what…?
“That with this gift called life we’re given, we should strive forward as much as we can…towards the things we treasure and love the most…because maybe that’s what we were born to do…”
Ah… that’s a nice way at looking at Suzaku… but still…
“We all die…I know…”
The voice suddenly disappeared and he was succumbed into the silence. That over-familiar silence he was so use to; after living with it for 5 years.
He swiftly put his jacket on and picked up his walking stick again.
“Ittekimasu…”
I’m off…
He gradually began making his way to his door and paused listening out for a familiar, itterashai, the one he heard so often as a child going to training. A voice, that always made him feel like that there were people out there who would wait for him, and would want him to return.
But as usual there was nothing. Smiling sadly to himself he opened the door, and as it opened a slightly cooler breeze flew through him.
“Itterashai…”
His own voice was no match for the child with violet eyes, he felt nothing, nothing at all.
Making his way through the corridors he noticed how cold it was compared to the warmth he experience with the Spring Sun.
That was what spring was about, right? Total opposites placed side by side; the warm sun placed with the cold breeze…right?
Suzaku, the warm spring loving Lelouch the harsh winter …
Limping down the hallway he looked around carefully not wanting to be seen; he wasn’t suppose to be even out of bed and also he didn’t have his helmet on…
I’m being a bit adventurous…
He suddenly heard footsteps and in a rush of panic he leaped into the first door he head seen, he fell to the floor and slammed the door shut.
The footsteps became louder; but gradually faded into the distance. Zero sighed but then began to curse at the pain,
Maybe too adventurous…
He sat up slowly and his eyes scanned the room; “The library?”
He hadn’t been in there in a while; it still looked intact and pristine. The sun rays illuminated this place; gold began to shimmer from the aging books, full of dust, untouched for many years and Zero slowly took off his sunglasses. His wizened eyes gazed at the illuminated room and with the light, memories slowly came into view.
“Ne, Am I doing it right?”
“How am I suppose to know?”
“You’re Japanese that’s why.”
“Shut up Britannian Prince.”
“You mean ‘emperor’.”
“…”
Sadly smiling he walked over to the rounded, oak table and slowly let his fingers slide along the polished surface.
“I never understood Japanese chess… I would like to learn it…”
Yes, he wanted to learn it but who would play it with him? No one in the castle particularly liked to play chess or even knew how to play Japanese chess.
“I guess I can just imagine what it would have been like…right Lelouch?”
Looking out the window the warm light embraced his cold body, embracing him through that shell he had put up for so long.
…there are people out there that care…Like I do…
“Really, is there such thing…?”
Reaching for his scarf and sunglasses a sharp ping of sadness penetrated his heart, did Lelouch really care? If so, then why on earth did he not say anything; why didn’t he tell him that he was fine and alive and not really dead. Where was he? What has he been doing the past five years? Didn’t he realise how much guilt and disdain he felt all this time?
“You’re so unfair…”
Clenching his fist, he grabbed his scarf and sunglasses and began walking away from that warm light, from that warm embrace, back to the cold harshness of his reality.
I’m sorry…
The royal garden was still as beautiful as ever, rose bushes nearly filled every inch of it, the aging trees still gracefully swayed with the wind and the sun lit up the lake causing it to glisten. Just like a dream, a fleeting dream.
He limped carefully down the long stairs and began to curse the architect who designed this building. Who decided on having a half a mile of stairs? Not good for the crippled…
Crippled? ...crippled…
He hung his head; “I…I’m a crippled old man…”
“That’s no good Suzaku…”
A strikingly familiar voice blew gently into his ear and he looked up suddenly and saw a silhouette of a woman, wearing a feather like dress. His eyes widened, his heart stopped, his mouth went dry…was this the women who made an ever lasting mark on his heart?
“E-Euph…”
“Shh…Nya!”
“Nya?”
He looked closer at what she was holding and he gasped; “Arthur!?”
She winked and lifted one of his paws, making it do a waving motion.
“Say goodbye Arthur, Nya.”
Suzaku watched sadly and smiled, “Take care of yourself…”
“Haha, of course, but I should be saying that about you,”
“Eh?”
With those words she disappeared into the glowing light of the garden, leaving Suzaku alone smiling a true yet poignant smile.
He suddenly realised how alone he actually was, everything was taken away from him, his dad, Euphie, his name and life… even Lelouch was taken away from him.
“And I was given Zero…”
Yes, he was given Zero. A prisoner, who would forever, be relied upon. All the world’s problems and conflicts were all thrown on him. In other words his life was taken away, he couldn’t live for himself anymore, he lived for others and…
“I hate you Lelouch…”
No you don’t…
“Who are you?”
He froze and looked up;
“C-C-C-Cornelia-sama!?”
The stern, yet graceful princess stood before him, her arms crossed, her violet eyes staring, glaring into his own through his sunglasses.
“Answer my question, who are you and why are you here?”
Crap, Crap, Crap, what do I say!?
“A-Ano…I was visiting her highness…she invited me around…because I was one of Lelouch’s friends…”
God I suck at lying…
“Oh, a friend of Lelouch?”
She doesn’t buy it…
“Oh…well, I’m sorry her highness isn’t in at the moment…”
EH!? She fell for it!? God with age she’s lost her sharpness…
“Oi.”
Shit, did she hear my thoughts!?
“…would you like me to take you to Zero? He’s injured at the moment…so he wasn’t able to go with her highness…wait…that walking stick…”
“N-N-N-No, that’s fine…I’ll just go…”
“Wait.”
Lemme go, please!
“Would you like to go for a stroll?”
“I’M SORRY I SHOULDN’T HAVE… Excuse me?”
Soon afterwards the disguised Zero found himself walking next to the sister of Euphie.
“Lelouch…was really troubled…wasn’t he…?”
Troubled?
Looking away, he slowly whispered; “Yeah…he was…”
He heard a soft, yet sad laugh coming from the older princess and he remained silent waiting for her reply.
He was wasn’t he? Sadly I was too blind in rage to notice…the sadness, the pain… You said to me, that you were the bad friend…however I…I…
“I…”
“I blame myself, I should have known why Lelouch was doing all of this…I am his sister after all…”
Blame yourself?
“Don’t be silly…”
Cornelia looked at the young man surprised at his choice of words; however Suzaku refused to look at her.
It wasn’t anyone’s fault, Lelouch and Lelouch alone decided to do this, he wanted to do it, he felt it was something he needed to do, therefore there wouldn’t have been anything we could have done about it.
Cornelia softly laughed again, “I understand…”
“Understand?”
“Heh…I understand from the tone your of voice.”
My voice?
This time Suzaku looked up at her somewhat confused at her words. Did his voice really tell her how he was feeling? Maybe she’s just guessing; and he still couldn’t believe that she didn’t realise who it was by now…
“You really cared about him, Lelouch that is…”
Wha…
Pang, there it was again that feeling, that feeling of agonizing sadness.
Maybe…
“I…I guess so…”
They both stood still, taking in the surroundings. The soft wind whispering in his ear soft, comforting words in a language unknown to him, the warm sunlight was embracing his cold, lonely crippled body and the lake’s waves softly bumped into one another, as if they were playing around innocently... just like they use to…at least there was still something innocent out there…
“I wonder how he and Kururugi-San are doing.”
Suzaku’s eyes widened and he choked on the amount of breath he inhaled from gasping.
“Eh, what’s wrong? Are you okay?”
“Y-Yes…y-y…your majesty.”
Cornelia softly smiled and patted his back; Suzaku in return tilted his hat showing his appreciation.
“Oh yeah, what did you say your name was?”
M-My name?!
“Didn’t I already tell you?”
“No you didn’t.”
Oh great…
“E-Erm…”
“Erm?”
And everything was going so well! I should have listened to everyone and stayed in bed, why am I so stubborn?
His phone suddenly began vibrating and he sighed in relief; “Erm can you excuse me…”
With that he turned around and took out his phone; Nunnally?
“Your Maj…I mean Yes?”
He flinched seeing Cornelia eye him suspiciously.
“Ne, where are you?”
“Erm…in bed…”
“…”
“Anyway what’s happened?”
“Guess what I’ve found out!”
“…what?”
“Milly and Rivalz had a baby 3 months ago!”
“Ah, really?”
“And that’s not all…they’re twins!”
“EH!?”
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Suzaku,
I’m glad to hear you’re getting better, not sure about Gino taking care of Nunnally though…
But I can’t complain, at least you’re getting better.
The sky?
It’s white, a pure white. It has just stopped snowing here, I love the snow. Did I ever tell you my favourite colour? It’s white.
White is the most pure out of all the colours. The least deceiving and dark, cruel, corrupted colour. I wish I was able to see a white sky with you…
Hopefully when I come the sky will be white,
And then we can watch it together.
Just the two of us.
Until then,
Lelouch
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Comments: 15
HA!HA!HA! Cornelia couldn't recooginze his voice! i so want read ch.3 now! you got yourself a fangirl now!
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kawaii no desu u catch the real essecne of code geass i love it thank you
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hah thanks!!! and thanks for reading
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To be honestly, I have little idea about the anime, but after some research and accidentally stumbling upon the final episodes and first episodes, I decided to look for some fanfics on Code Geass and found yours and...it got me to tears...I just love this story!!!!! The first chapter got me going "Awwwww!" -cries- Just a little though ahahah! I can't wait to read more! Seriously! This is really good...kind of reminds me of "PS I love you," which was a good movie too! Imma stop rambling now, so see you! Can't wait for ch. 3!
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I'll upload it today if ya like
xxx
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Whoa, no way!!! Of course I would! <3!!!
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LOL okki i'll upload it in just a sec
just for yaaa
xxxx
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Wow Cornelia is in the scene. I can't wait till Lelouch shows up. I truly love this chapter. I can't wait till the next chapter!
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Ah...how I love it. Suzaku - feeling lonely and old is just ... adorable. Can't wait for Lelouchs appeareance, if he's really alive.
I know you're busy but please don't stop writing, I'm your biggest fan *hehe*.
“And that’s not all…they’re twins!” -> that's love <3
Ah I need to stalk you >o<
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aha xD I thought it'd be cuute 
aawwww YAY I have a fan
I can upload the next chapter by next week
LOL My first stalker 
xx
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