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feliuskatus [2014-02-02 17:48:51 +0000 UTC]

Do be honest I constantlyfeel this way. Emotions just pile up for me due to my own depression, and I've been unable to do much about it. I'm very scared of the choices I make and I constantly feel unsure when I do them, making people question and pressure me into doing things I really didn't want to do only because I'm so scared of making the wrong choice.

Dealing with emotions is kind of an individual thing, mostly because you have to learn how to help yourself first rather than have other people around to keep you happy. This I've learned but I have yet to understand how to really put it into motion. The only thing I find myself doing is putting on a face and trying to push through my emotions, which is what most of us do anyways. But there should always be time to find yourself a little bit of peace and get yourself happy, or finding something that will let you vent out your emotions, like talking to someone you know you can trust or going out to a river or lake and screaming your troubles and letting them echo over the water. 

I hope that you can manage to deal with the emotions just like I hope for myself to do the same. You seem to be a very intelligent and talented person, and I hope you can break all this down and come out strong.

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Strabius [2014-02-02 09:57:49 +0000 UTC]

I have to be honest, I have been the kind of person in the past who gave up helping someone who probably needed me more than I realized, but over time I had come to an understanding that it's awful to give up on someone you're close to. Rather, you should do you're part to help them in ways that you can. I found that if I try and try but can't help them anymore, I still mustn't give up and try helping them around what keeps interfering. And, dear, I know all too well about fear. Fear use to run me down to my lowest points. And some days, mostly late at night before I fall asleep, the fear rises up and torments me. I become scared of the "if", and I can remember a time where it actually got in the way of my relationship with friends. I also have an older sister where she deals with similar emotional fluctuations. I'll admit, she does take medication to help with that, but over the past 20 years she's learned to control her emotions better to the point where she even graduated from college and is now a counselor in high school. She is helping teenagers who also have worse symptoms and personal issues than her, but she came from the same boat those teenagers are currently in. My sister has overcome a point in her emotional struggles (not saying they're still not there, but she is better at not letting them control her) in order to help those like her. Indeed, she still takes medication to help with it, but only because she knows it will help her, and with that she is helping herself. So Maybe I, alone, am not the best role model in regards to both helping and suffering, but my sister teaches me that it is possible to fix both yourself and others. And I know I may not be reassuring, heck maybe I'm not even persuasive, but I'm really hoping and praying that you'll continue to help yourself and wake up to a brighter future.

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