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Published: 2011-01-02 12:00:43 +0000 UTC; Views: 729; Favourites: 28; Downloads: 0
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Description This took a long time, but was rather therapeutic. Yes. Both of those are me. At the same time, one is not. That's how I feel. Split apart; Separate... Not what I SHOULD be. One side being what I am, the other what I should have been.. what I wish I was. I've come to terms with what I am.. that doesn't mean I don't still long to be that other self.

I feel like I'm moving forward, although at the same time, falling back and falling apart. 2010 was a time of becoming braver; stronger. I admitted faults, I lessened shyness and admitted love. I've had my heart thrown around, I've shed tears.. I've also laughed. Laughed honestly, and I also pretended to laugh as I felt my insides shredding apart.
I learned that even though I'm in pain.. I can go on. It's hard, and I will fight for those who I love and those who love me. I want you all to know you mean much to me as friends, and I do care about all of you. I certainly hope I succeed in making you feel special; because you all are.

Drawn to these songs:
I Don't Care - Apocalyptica
The Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamin
*Time of Dying - Three Day's grace
Somewhere I belong - Linkin Park
*break - Three Days Grace

* means It inspired an upcoming work as well.
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Comments: 31

MasterVincentV [2011-02-27 03:29:39 +0000 UTC]

this is beautiful. very well done. love the color contrast. :]

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KaygeMonster In reply to MasterVincentV [2011-02-27 03:36:07 +0000 UTC]

thank you very very much. :3 it was fun to do. ^_^

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MasterVincentV In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-02-27 03:55:35 +0000 UTC]

how long did it take? i cant color for shit like if i color something i die cus it takes so long and ends up sucking anyway. your art style is very unique.

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KaygeMonster In reply to MasterVincentV [2011-02-27 04:16:02 +0000 UTC]

Hmm... an hour about. I used to HATE coloring too.. but I'm getting better :3
THanks so much!

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RougeTek [2011-01-02 20:35:26 +0000 UTC]

Nice pic! I hope the 2011 will be good to you!

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KaygeMonster In reply to RougeTek [2011-01-02 23:23:54 +0000 UTC]

I hope it's good to you too! <3

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RougeTek In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-03 07:14:19 +0000 UTC]

^^ *Hugs*

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KaygeMonster In reply to RougeTek [2011-01-03 11:00:31 +0000 UTC]

yay!

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RougeTek In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-04 06:45:00 +0000 UTC]

^^ *Glomps*

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KaygeMonster In reply to RougeTek [2011-01-04 07:23:33 +0000 UTC]

YAY GLOMP!

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RougeTek In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-10 07:19:26 +0000 UTC]

*Glomp*

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KaygeMonster In reply to RougeTek [2011-01-14 06:39:49 +0000 UTC]

<3

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RougeTek In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-28 05:46:08 +0000 UTC]

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FortheLoveofKei [2011-01-02 19:34:35 +0000 UTC]

This is beautiful :3 I love the shading and everything!! And these are your cheap pencils too, aren't they!

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KaygeMonster In reply to FortheLoveofKei [2011-01-02 23:21:03 +0000 UTC]

thank you so soo much! And this is affter the scanner made it look aweful.
And yes, the cheapos. X.x

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FortheLoveofKei In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-03 02:53:36 +0000 UTC]

i'm amazed it's the cheapos!!

I bet it looks even more awesome in person :3

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KaygeMonster In reply to FortheLoveofKei [2011-01-03 11:02:55 +0000 UTC]

yeah. x.x; I tell yah, layering SUCKS.

Doesnt everything? Scanners kill EVERY COLORRRR..

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FortheLoveofKei In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-03 19:34:40 +0000 UTC]

I know @_@; My latest piece was all done in marker. It looks so much better in person than it does online!!

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KaygeMonster In reply to FortheLoveofKei [2011-01-03 23:17:04 +0000 UTC]

yeah.. scanners KILLLL!

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FortheLoveofKei In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-08 05:59:14 +0000 UTC]

Yus, yus they do

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KaygeMonster In reply to FortheLoveofKei [2011-01-08 06:17:56 +0000 UTC]

8D they DOOOOO.

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Ensheli [2011-01-02 15:35:12 +0000 UTC]

Good playlist and it's a great picture, too. I hope you feel better and have a good new year. ^^

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KaygeMonster In reply to Ensheli [2011-01-02 23:04:42 +0000 UTC]

hehe thanks. :3
remember to note me refs for your commissh, btw.

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Ensheli In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-02 23:35:33 +0000 UTC]

No problem ^^
Ah, yes... thanks for reminding me, I was going to upload them earlier but I forgot xDD

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KaygeMonster In reply to Ensheli [2011-01-05 23:36:38 +0000 UTC]

of course.

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Ensheli In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-05 23:43:21 +0000 UTC]

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sonicblulover18 [2011-01-02 12:06:24 +0000 UTC]


looks very lovely ,and to some point i agree on how you feel >-> i've had those thoughts come at me awhile but they've actually seemed to stop
but i do hope everything turns out great for you <:3

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KaygeMonster In reply to sonicblulover18 [2011-01-02 12:09:44 +0000 UTC]

thanks so much. <3
I hope everything goes allright as well. Hope your new year is pleasant. <3

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sonicblulover18 In reply to KaygeMonster [2011-01-02 12:42:06 +0000 UTC]


oh you're welcome, ^U^ and thank you <3!

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KaygeMonster In reply to sonicblulover18 [2011-01-02 12:42:46 +0000 UTC]


Of course.

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