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our fingers intertwined looked mighty fine like the colors of chocolate and white wine
laced together in the back of a van going down a hill
the color of her shirt and the beat of my heart i remember still
we were two puzzle pieces that didnt fit together
we didnt have all the right parts, they said we were too similair, but it was nice to have a lover that was familiar
so we took a safety pin and poked it through our skin and latched ourselves together
yeah it hurt but we made it work and the blood that dripped found little seeds that sipped
that burst through rotted ground and we created melodies out of those flowers that made the most beautiful sound
we would play these melodies of creativity and sex like a strategist moves his piece across the board and plays chess

i dont know will i burn it hell for being myself?
can i help it if my tears are not what you expect?
i cant help it if what comes out of my eyes is gasoline and shame
i dont mean for them to drip from my chin and fuel the flame
am i really destroying normality? i know im not what you want me to be
but God i swear she had the most beautiful hands
and a kiss that captured my heart in a dance
and nobody had ever moved me to dance before and she wasn't the one who left my lip bleeding and sore
i became a flame she would sing to spark and we didn't care about the things that would eventually tear us apart
and when they did, they didnt bother to undo the pin they just dragged it through our skin telling us to repent for our sins
now its just me, and i feel the hole of where what was keeping us together used to be
youve been praying for God to open my eyes and make me see
but i loved her, dont try and tell me that wasnt real, how the fuck can you know how i feel?

she wrote to me and said, "the wound of i thy warrior continue to bleed from the ache of your disapearnce and
i yearn for your love again but i thy warrior knows thy lover will just give up on her."
dont you understand, not once but twice i had to send her away because i couldnt bear the shame you gave me
the weight of the guilt of disappointing you was breaking my legs
i heard the bones beginning to crack and i think the last time i heard her voice was when they really snapped
"i need to wake up," she had said and then she was gone, gone to wake up
all i heard from then on was the unbearable pain in her voice
she couldnt understand that i had had no choice
then i really was left alone again and i asked why the fuck can a heart be broken more than once

so i went away for four months trying to find God because i heard that He had answers and could heal anything even cancer
and one day i was praying and i had all these people around me, pleading for my deliverance
and i was crying too, wishing i knew what was true
when all the sudden i felt a sensation in the pit of my stomach and like someone lifted, yes shifted my soul
and they hallelujahed and said i was free from homosexuality
but that very same night, even though my soul had taken flight
the longing and the love i had for her reverberated within all my body
and i knew there was no escaping this so i cut open a slit and i went inside my mind
and in there, i jumped off a cliff and decided to hide that which ill always miss.

Description
our fingers intertwined looked mighty fine like the colors of chocolate and white wine
laced together in the back of a van going down a hill
the color of her shirt and the beat of my heart i remember still
we were two puzzle pieces that didnt fit together
we didnt have all the right parts, they said we were too similair, but it was nice to have a lover that was familiar
so we took a safety pin and poked it through our skin and latched ourselves together
yeah it hurt but we made it work and the blood that dripped found little seeds that sipped
that burst through rotted ground and we created melodies out of those flowers that made the most beautiful sound
we would play these melodies of creativity and sex like a strategist moves his piece across the board and plays chess

i dont know will i burn it hell for being myself?
can i help it if my tears are not what you expect?
i cant help it if what comes out of my eyes is gasoline and shame
i dont mean for them to drip from my chin and fuel the flame
am i really destroying normality? i know im not what you want me to be
but God i swear she had the most beautiful hands
and a kiss that captured my heart in a dance
and nobody had ever moved me to dance before and she wasn't the one who left my lip bleeding and sore
i became a flame she would sing to spark and we didn't care about the things that would eventually tear us apart
and when they did, they didnt bother to undo the pin they just dragged it through our skin telling us to repent for our sins
now its just me, and i feel the hole of where what was keeping us together used to be
youve been praying for God to open my eyes and make me see
but i loved her, dont try and tell me that wasnt real, how the fuck can you know how i feel?

she wrote to me and said, "the wound of i thy warrior continue to bleed from the ache of your disapearnce and
i yearn for your love again but i thy warrior knows thy lover will just give up on her."
dont you understand, not once but twice i had to send her away because i couldnt bear the shame you gave me
the weight of the guilt of disappointing you was breaking my legs
i heard the bones beginning to crack and i think the last time i heard her voice was when they really snapped
"i need to wake up," she had said and then she was gone, gone to wake up
all i heard from then on was the unbearable pain in her voice
she couldnt understand that i had had no choice
then i really was left alone again and i asked why the fuck can a heart be broken more than once

so i went away for four months trying to find God because i heard that He had answers and could heal anything even cancer
and one day i was praying and i had all these people around me, pleading for my deliverance
and i was crying too, wishing i knew what was true
when all the sudden i felt a sensation in the pit of my stomach and like someone lifted, yes shifted my soul
and they hallelujahed and said i was free from homosexuality
but that very same night, even though my soul had taken flight
the longing and the love i had for her reverberated within all my body
and i knew there was no escaping this so i cut open a slit and i went inside my mind
and in there, i jumped off a cliff and decided to hide that which ill always miss.