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KittySib — Loathing
Published: 2014-03-22 20:49:05 +0000 UTC; Views: 504; Favourites: 17; Downloads: 0
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I am so angry with you!Why do you fall apart so easily?
Always crying,
Always alone.
Who cares if you are nothing?
I hate you more than I can say.
You are far too weak.
Too weak to truly live,
And too weak to even die.
I hate this.
Being helpless against onslaughts of emotion,
And not possessing the knowledge to make it stop.
This is stupid.
I want out!
I’m trapped in this horrible place.
A place that will destroy me.
Let me go!
No, don’t touch me!
Can’t you see I’m tainted?
Shut UP!
I don’t want to listen anymore!
Go away!!!!
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Comments: 20
Kitty this speaks too my heart. I often feel this way, heck probably more often than it is healthy for me to feel. This helped a lot, reading what you feel in some one else's words.Makes yyou feel you are not alone.All the best for your author journey. I hope one day my bookshelf will include a book written by you.
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Thanks for writing this poem, you speaks a language that sounds so familiar to me !
But you've found the way to escape, believe in writing and wanting to be an author
that's a noble ambition !
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I have an idea that could help you. Go online and learn how to meditate. Meditation exercises involve clearing the mind and bringing peace. I have a first level exercise for you simply close your eyes and imagine your flying. You will feel the illusion of weightlessness and that your really flying.
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Meditation is dangerous for me, cuz that's when I hear voices...
Am watching Psych on netflix instead
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Well then let's not try that then. You know I envy you so much I haven't cried in so long. You know I watched an entire play through of titanic the other night and nothing came out but air no tears no crying just gasps of air. I ENVY you friend.
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I'm not someone you should envy...
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I know I shouldn't but I do. You have a job a home a cat I wish for all those things you probably even have a driver's license. I haven't Gooten those things because... well I'm afraid to go out in the world I feel embarrassed when I ask people for a job
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Technically I don't have a job, and I don't have a drivers license. Driving would be bad with my poor memory, anxiety and medications. As for a home, I'm living in an apartment off the back of a hotel. When my Sib moves in 2-3 years, I'll have to find somewhere else.
As for jobs, it's hard to get them. Don't think asking for one makes you look like you're asking for a hand out. Instead think of it this way: You are Jacob, The Awesome, Skilled and Reliable. You bring good work ethic and a willingness to learn to a job interview. Yes you want the job, but you are so Awesome, they want you to work for them. So in a way it's like you are trading favors...
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I want to be a published author. 0.0
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Oh what genre of stories do you wanna write is there something specific¿ I could definitely help with ideas
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fantasy, and thanks for the offer, but I'm good on story ideas
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Well how is your story right now
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archived in my old computer
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Yeah? Do you have any new stories you've been thinking of
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not right now. Too many shadowy things in my head
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I'm trying to distract you try doing five real pushups that's a better substitute than what your thinking. Just exercise till you drop just as I run till i can't breathe.
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