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for two years of my life,
i learned to trust.
i learned to live,
to dream,
to risk everything
for love.

"love."
now it seems
that i don't understand the meaning
of that word.
isn't love
supposed to be forever?
isn't love meant
to be a sacred bond,
never broken?

isn't love
supposed to be beautiful?
supposed to be sweet
and unique?
fearless and bold
and strong?

will i never learn
that this "love"
between two teenagers -
still practically children -
could never last?
that we had a bond
but it wasn't forever.

you were my closest friend.
the one i could go to
for anything.
the only person - real person, anyway -
that knew each and every one
of my secrets.
the only person i trusted
with everything i have,
everything i am
or ever will be.

now you won't even speak to me
and i don't know what went wrong.
we were happy once, you know.
it wasn't just some illusion,
some infatuation or lie.

but whatever we had is gone,
buried beneath piles
of shame,
guilt,
greed,
lust.

now everything i thought i knew
has shattered into a thousand pieces,
spread out all over the floor.
and, like glass,
they cut into my bare feet
with each
and every
step.

and i stumble in pain
and fall onto the floor,
memories and thoughts of you
digging into my skin,
cutting deeper
than any blade.

i'm lost in this maze,
danger lurking around every bend.
without your hand to hold,
your arms around me,
i don't know where to go
or how to continue.

but since you've left me here,
i've learned the hard way
that i cannot trust others
or even myself.
and the easiest way out -
and maybe the most painless -
is on my own.

Description
for two years of my life,
i learned to trust.
i learned to live,
to dream,
to risk everything
for love.

"love."
now it seems
that i don't understand the meaning
of that word.
isn't love
supposed to be forever?
isn't love meant
to be a sacred bond,
never broken?

isn't love
supposed to be beautiful?
supposed to be sweet
and unique?
fearless and bold
and strong?

will i never learn
that this "love"
between two teenagers -
still practically children -
could never last?
that we had a bond
but it wasn't forever.

you were my closest friend.
the one i could go to
for anything.
the only person - real person, anyway -
that knew each and every one
of my secrets.
the only person i trusted
with everything i have,
everything i am
or ever will be.

now you won't even speak to me
and i don't know what went wrong.
we were happy once, you know.
it wasn't just some illusion,
some infatuation or lie.

but whatever we had is gone,
buried beneath piles
of shame,
guilt,
greed,
lust.

now everything i thought i knew
has shattered into a thousand pieces,
spread out all over the floor.
and, like glass,
they cut into my bare feet
with each
and every
step.

and i stumble in pain
and fall onto the floor,
memories and thoughts of you
digging into my skin,
cutting deeper
than any blade.

i'm lost in this maze,
danger lurking around every bend.
without your hand to hold,
your arms around me,
i don't know where to go
or how to continue.

but since you've left me here,
i've learned the hard way
that i cannot trust others
or even myself.
and the easiest way out -
and maybe the most painless -
is on my own.