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Published: 2015-11-01 20:00:06 +0000 UTC; Views: 175; Favourites: 20; Downloads: 0
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...aka false death because Soren can't actually die.. maybe unless under very specific circumstances-I have a very strong love-hate relationship with Soren
so I like to torture him (and pretty much all my other OCs //laughsss)
but really I just draw gore/blood/whatever this is when I'm upset...and Soren's my main punching bag hahahaha--
I woke up at 2AM just to lineart this wtf am I doing with my life
Sleep means nothing to me, to be honest //laffs
And I sometimes even wonder how I'm still alive & functional .-. oh wait, I'm not HAHAHAA
His arm is very messed up
I know
I hate how his hair is shaded- if you even call that shading
I also hate how I can't make his age look consistent???
I just ..
hate everything
like always
I'm so stressed
And you know how I deal with stress?
I stress myself out even more. :^)
nice going.
A++ strategy for dealing with stress gold star wow
I get headaches so often now
and you know what-
I stopped caring :^)
I don't know if this needs a mature filter... it's not that bloody, really..
Sorry for the lack of replies;; I'm just not feeling it anymore.. >.>
I'll get to them...one day
Also a lil snippet of what goes on in my mind if anyone even cares;; don't read this if you don't want to-- I just need to get it out somewhere don't mind me;; I'm sorry in advance.
I will never feel like I'm good enough in anything I do. Never. I'm just not wired that way. I will never be proud of myself, no matter what I do, no matter how "well" I do things. It really just doesn't work that way for me. I have to push myself to be better, infinitely better, and yet I still feel like I'm not enough. Sure, maybe people can change, but me? Pfft. I'm cynical af and I really can't believe that about myself. I was probably wrong to think that things would get better;; for me, they just don't. My thoughts will just go back to they way they were originally, no matter what. When will I be able to be comfortable with things I do, to actually enjoy doing things again?-- I'm tired of waiting. Honestly I don't know what to think anymore. I don't even know who I am anymore. What else is even there to hold on to? I don't know I don't know I just don't fucking know
things are getting worse again
why do I even bother--Soren belongs to me.
Brushes (c) So-ghislaine , redheadstock , & mercurycode .
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Comments: 2
Oooh you are working on your anatomy though ;w;
your arm and hand are definitely better than previously
and you colouring is getting better and you are experimenting with putting more things ;w;
it is difficult now, but everyone had to go through these hardships too ;w;
you're already improving so much but do push yourself to take breaks also ;w;
sorry I haven't been on skype lately; too many things are going on but I do hope the colouring book helps you ;u;
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