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Lacryel In reply to VelvetBatBites [2013-08-25 13:13:17 +0000 UTC]

Yes, it is indeed one of the things that fall under the "Gender Queer" encompassing. uwu
normally when I identify as a guy (which is shockingly most of the time), I used to think I was just feeling "boyish", but it really did feel like I was trapped in something that wasn't me. But it -was- me. It felt almost like my mind was battling with itself for the longest time, and it was just a really odd feeling. I didn't know what to think of it at the time. 
I'm still afraid to claim "bigender", however, because my logic is brushing it off as a mood swing thing, even though I know it's definitely not the case due to the sentiment stated above. I also have no idea how to get it past my parents. My mom is normally welcoming, my dad is normally silently skeptical but makes peace with things, but my step-dad is an all around hard ass. He didn't talk to me, didn't even look at me when I told him that I was bi curious -- not even bisexual -- for a good two weeks, and was really dodgy even after that. Today we can have normal conversation so long as I don't remind him, so I don't know how I'll explain "hey guys sometimes i'm a guy is that okay".

wastes your time with a somewhat sentimental textwall

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VelvetBatBites In reply to Lacryel [2013-08-25 13:28:13 +0000 UTC]

its not a waste<33
i understand exactly what you mean, im bi-curious, im not bisexual due to the fact i've not had sexual intercourse with either gender /yet/ but im very pansexual. im fine with what my partner wants to be as long as they are happy, and only hope they feel the same being i'm very gender queer myself. dont get me wrong, i love my boobs but the idea of me wearing make-up and being all girly frufru makes me want to puke. my parents have even said i act like a son rather than a daughter my whole life, so it kinda stuck i guess? I dont think i'll tell them until im moved out or in college, just in case cause i dont really know how they'll react. I've gone to the point where i cosplay mostly males, liking the mindset more, and i cut my hair short u v u i could cosplay dave strider perfectly without a wig~#shortblondie. I feel as long as i can see myself as a male, and keep that mindset, im perfectly fine with my female body u v u im actually very anti-gender too i suppose, if you look at it from a certain viewpoint u v u since my name is madison i've always adored the name mason, its the same name, with a few letters missing  uv u

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Lacryel In reply to VelvetBatBites [2013-08-28 08:43:06 +0000 UTC]

I'm curious now, what are your prefered pronouns, then? I don't want to say "her" when you'd rather be called a "him", or vise versa. uwu;;

Being the bigender part of the gender queer label can be very confusing, I must say, when you're part of the classification wherein your mind decides to switch what it wants to identify as every now and then. I thought I was just extraordinarily confused, both in identity and sexuality, because I didn't know that being bigender was actually a thing. It's almost like being bipolar, but you KNOW it's you and you remember everything. You have the same interests, same sense of humor, same everything; just with very minor differences. Such as, I feel more confident when I'm identifying as a male.
The only issue is that, on the note of the sexuality comment, I'm very heterosexual in both identities, which is very confusing and very frustrating. I won't lie and say that I won't lust after another if they try hard enough, but I never act on it ( of course ). But it almost ruined my relationship with my boyfriend because for about a month, I identified as male, and I LIVE with him. He was able to tell that I didn't hold an interest in him during that time, but he doesn't know I'm bigender, not even now. Mainly because I'm kind of afraid to tell him. But it's frustrating because I -know- I love him dearly, but when I identify as a male, I can't feel it, and thus it feels wrong to act on it.

I plan to discuss it with him so that we can figure out how to make it work, but it's still terrifying. unu;

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VelvetBatBites In reply to Lacryel [2013-08-28 17:24:51 +0000 UTC]

I dont really mind whats used, i respond to either, even they/them alot, u v u i go by mason or maddy, to if it helps :>
i cannot say i've been in your quite predicament, but thats because im an awkward person with relationships and am probably going to die alone with 3 dogs 72 cats and 6 parakeets U m U" but thats not what we're discussing. Maybe if during those times, after you told him and all, he could try identifying as a female if that helps/isn't too far out of his comfort zone, to see if the attraction stays perhaps? and if that doesnt work i'd hafta think about it a little more to try and help you i v i  

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Lacryel In reply to VelvetBatBites [2013-08-25 00:15:54 +0000 UTC]

El makes me think of L, which is adorable yes, but I don't deathnote so i have very mixed feels. ;u;
no you auuugh *flushes*
Thank yooou! I'm glad to be back! *dances!*

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VelvetBatBites In reply to Lacryel [2013-08-25 00:45:16 +0000 UTC]

ah  uv u <33 i wont call you that unless you approve<333
*huggle<3*
Q u Q

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Lacryel In reply to VelvetBatBites [2013-08-25 13:04:15 +0000 UTC]

we can compromise
and call me "Ells"
As in like multiple "El" because there's two, but doesn't make me instantly think death note. 
Or something
...THAT POOR GUY

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VelvetBatBites In reply to Lacryel [2013-08-25 13:07:55 +0000 UTC]

xD okay  uv u <33 Ells u v u <3

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Lacryel In reply to psychofoxpickle [2013-08-24 08:38:55 +0000 UTC]

Not only am I dead but I'm part penis. \o/
And thanks! >u<

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psychofoxpickle In reply to Lacryel [2013-08-24 21:25:10 +0000 UTC]

lol YAY PENIS

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Lacryel In reply to Sushi [2013-08-24 08:38:26 +0000 UTC]

I LOVE YOU MORE. I LOVE YOU THI{_________________________________________________________}IS MUCH *glomp*

Waaah thank you <33

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