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Leeanix — The Monster That I Have Become

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Published: 2016-03-15 23:38:01 +0000 UTC; Views: 4163; Favourites: 41; Downloads: 0
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Description Ok I have had this idea for a few days now and been wanting to draw it. Fear can't actually do this. He can't show both halves at once.  But after getting a gift art like this I couldn't stop thinking about it just to see what it would look like.  So we have Scary Fear as a half sider with Normal Fear on his right side.  I drew Normal Fear with a sinister look too because even in normal mode he's still scary and in control of his powers.  He also loves what he has become.  The monster that he has become. He is not ashamed, regretful or anything stupid like that. He is vastly improved and he knows it.  Who wouldn't be happy with nearly unlimited powers? The title is a verse from the song Monster In Me by Mors Principium Est.  youtu.be/pJO3pkZCpEo
Unfortunately only one line applies.  The singer in that song is one of those regretful monsters like a werewolf turned human in daylight and crying about all the people he ate. Please.  So lyrically the song is NOT about Fear. How I could love to rewrite the lyrics though. But I love the song anyway as the music makes you over look the lyrics as it sounds so powerful and up beat despite the lyrics. Kind of like Spanish music with sad themes but you'd never know it because it sounds like  a party.  Since it's death metal vocals I kind of hear my own lyrics over it anyway.
Here is a half sider budgie that was also an inspiration.
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So I'm rather happy with how this turned out. Tried some new shading with  a different light source. Wanted to do over head light as I thought that would make him look creepy.  And messed with some new highlight techniques too.  Over all I like it. So nice to do an easy drawing for a change. Done in one sitting.

If you are new to who Scary Fear is you can read this info on him and check out his comic Fear Before the Fall.

A little info on Scary Fear
Scary Fear is the lead emotion of the author and of the host Charlie from the comic Fear Before the Fall.
Personality Type: INTP (The Architect)
Height: 5' 10" relatively
Alternate Names: Nightmare, Terror, Horror, Fright, Dread
Scary Fear is a dark character with evil tendencies.  But that does not make him angry or spiteful.  Fear is also based in logic and intuition.  So he thinks before he acts. Angry villains...hell even angry good guys (like Donald Duck) lose control at the drop of a hat. They don't think they react. Scary Fear is not reactionary at all.  He will observe first and asses a situation. He is not stupid enough to attack an unknown opponent on sight. He would watch them, size them up and not rush in in case it is something that he might be getting in over his head. This is acting through logic not anger.
Scary Fear is a happy emotion.  He's not full of hate.  I've had some people think he

Choose your Fear.

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Eh tenido esta idea para dias ya y por fin la dibuje. Miedo no puede hacer esto. No puede enseñar sus dos mitades a la misma vez.  Pero depuez de que alguien me hizo un relgalo no pude dejar de pensar en esto y lo tuve que intentar.  Asi que tenemos a Miedo Aterrardor a mitad con Miedo normal a su derecha. Dibuje a Miedo normal con una expresion sinistro porque aun asi todavia es Miedo Aterrador y es muy poderoso y peligroso. El le encanta a lo que se ha convertido. El monstro que se ha convertido. No le da peni o lamento o nada estupido asi.  Ah mejorado much y lo sabe. Quien no estaria feliz con poderes casi sin limites?  El titulo es de la cancion por Mors Principium Est llamada Monster In Me.  Solo una frase le da.  El restro de las letras son de un monstro lamentando el mal que ha hecho. Asi que no es una cancion ara Miedo. Pero me gusta porque tiene un sentido my feliz y poderos. Yo me imagino mis propias letras.
Esto tambien fue inspirado por los raros periquitos Half Siders. Vean el Link arriba.

Estoy feliz como me salio.  Queria que la luz venga de arriba para que se vea mas espantoso.

Escoja tu miedo. No confies en ninguno.



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Comments: 91

Evanh123 [2019-05-25 22:26:15 +0000 UTC]

Great job.

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lbartsBTBP [2016-03-23 19:39:03 +0000 UTC]

Wow,this si very nice and good idea. -it looks very interesing and good.I like that i  and other people can see how Fear looks before and now and how he looks differently  now as before.I think that you done very  good work with lights, it looks very good with them. 

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Leeanix In reply to lbartsBTBP [2016-03-23 20:45:42 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.  I wanted to show both sides of him though both are the same just that he has more powers as Scary Fear. Thanks. I thought he'd look good under a blue spot light.

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lbartsBTBP In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-24 12:11:31 +0000 UTC]

You´re welcome. Yeah,he looks very good under a blue spot light.

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foadii [2016-03-23 07:50:05 +0000 UTC]

Lovely

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Leeanix In reply to foadii [2016-03-23 12:03:25 +0000 UTC]

Thank you. What did you like about him?

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silverskreell [2016-03-22 17:02:35 +0000 UTC]

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Leeanix In reply to silverskreell [2016-03-22 17:08:50 +0000 UTC]

Ugh, pop love song. No.  Stick to what I posted instead. Scary Fear's all about true metal.

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silverskreell In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-22 17:21:36 +0000 UTC]

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Leeanix In reply to silverskreell [2016-03-22 17:26:47 +0000 UTC]

That's a good idea.

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silverskreell In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-22 17:29:38 +0000 UTC]

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Leeanix In reply to silverskreell [2016-03-22 17:53:05 +0000 UTC]

Ah glad you like it.  I could introduce you to some amazing stuff.  Well just check out some of the ones on his soundtrack.


Or the ones I have linked to on my other posts.

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Gamma-Wings [2016-03-21 21:09:26 +0000 UTC]

This looks very cool and professional, I just love how absolutely sinister he looks. There is something ultimately eerie about this, which just makes me love it even more. 
I do like that you made the two sides represent different forms, despite the fact he can't actually do that. It is an interesting concept, and seems like it was fun to illustrate. I really love the colouring and shading. The spotlight effect works perfectly here, since it really does put him in focus and helps give it that evil mastermind vibe. Or at least, that's the vibe I get from this... especially with his wicked smile and how he's holding his hands. I also love how confident he looks, and indeed he has reason to be... as he is a very powerful monster and is better for it. Certainly preferable over being a cowardly wimp, and he knows it. The turquoise light is lovely, and I love the bright highlights on Fear. Definitely helps complete the picture. It really worked out great with the dendrite, the fact that it's iridescent makes it utterly beautiful. The song seems pretty cool, but yea I agree it's a shame the lyrics didn't match up. Regretful monsters can get pretty annoying, especially if they're better for it but don't realize it. 

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Leeanix In reply to Gamma-Wings [2016-03-21 21:32:31 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.  My boy is definitely sinister.
Yes I had to draw this. A bit of an experiment as I wanted to see what it would look like since I know Scary Fear and Normal Fear match up well. Their anatomy doesn't really change so I was right.  Yes I wanted the focus to be just on him.  Oh yes definitely a mastermind in his own right. And he has reason to be confident and he knows very well what he has gained. The highlights were fun and I'm glad they worked so well for this.  I love his dendrite. It used to bother me I couldn't paint it as separate floating balls like in the movie. But now I've gotten used to my style and like it as it is more of a hair that way.  Besides a real neuron's dendrites aren't disjuncture like in the movie. It wouldn't be able to transfer information if that was the case.  It's one of his coolest features.  I LOVE the song but yes it does not match Fear. I think I will have to do a side by side re-write of the lyrics or at least the chorus. But when I was drawing this I must have played that song all day. It still rocks. Yeah not into regretful monsters.

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Sl-lITl-l0T [2016-03-21 05:17:37 +0000 UTC]

Wow!!! ...this reminds me of the Grinch's purple brother (if he had one)
Great Drawing !!!  

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Leeanix In reply to Sl-lITl-l0T [2016-03-21 12:23:14 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.  And thanks for taking the time to comment.  I love drawing Scary Fear.  He's a lot of fun.

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SpunkyBrushes [2016-03-21 03:39:11 +0000 UTC]

Lovely use of colors.

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Leeanix In reply to SpunkyBrushes [2016-03-21 12:23:39 +0000 UTC]

Thank you. I appreciate the comment.  This character is always fun to work with and shade.

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SpunkyBrushes In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-21 22:10:33 +0000 UTC]

Yes it is!
see ya! 

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Sorath-Rising [2016-03-21 02:20:22 +0000 UTC]

Good guys going bad are always good.

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Gamma-Wings In reply to Sorath-Rising [2016-03-21 21:11:04 +0000 UTC]

I agree with that.
Certainly far better than bad guys becoming good; a shame the latter is much more common. 

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Sorath-Rising In reply to Gamma-Wings [2016-03-21 22:16:30 +0000 UTC]

Your reply totally confused me.  Hee hee. I thought I was still logged into my other account and it was strange seeing this linked to a Scary fear drawing. I forgot I commented on this. You know why I did it.   But yes much better having good guys go bad. Technically that's what happened to Gord.

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Shychick [2016-03-20 01:26:56 +0000 UTC]

This is a very unique drawing! I love the concept! As always, the shading and lighting is eerily beautiful- you really use both to great effect, emphasizing an equal balance of eeriness and terror, respectively... which is how I always perceive each side of him. They are two sides of the same coin, neither complete without the other.  I daresay this combination is almost more frightening than Scary-mode.

I notice how his "Scary" side's eyebrow is raised slightly more. It's an interesting touch, given that side of him is the one you REALLY want to be afraid of. And on that same side, there is a nice touch of purple lightning circling his eye if one looks carefully, which I think is also neat.

All in all, this work celebrates the total sum of Fear by illustrating both his amazing forms. An excellent tribute!

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Leeanix In reply to Shychick [2016-03-20 01:53:31 +0000 UTC]

It's different but not more scary than his full on 100% scary mode. I mean it can't compete with this.


This was an experiment for me.  Remember Scary Fear IS the final complete form. What he was truly meant to become.

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Leeanix In reply to Shychick [2016-03-20 01:34:23 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.  I used to have such a hard time with shading and lighting when I was starting out.  And for years. I concentrated on that being my primary effects and now I am finally comfortable with it and don't think too much about what to do with it.  Hehe, yes those are his two sides for sure.

Yeah, it's slightly more crazy so I raised that eyebrow higher on him. His scary half is also the only one that has glowing purple eyes all the time.  If you look at my icon you'll see glow goes away when he closes them and comes back when he opens. It is a light source.  So yes that glow is always there for his scary half.

I'm very glad you like this.

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siborg626 [2016-03-18 06:28:03 +0000 UTC]

Kinda like 2-face

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Leeanix In reply to siborg626 [2016-03-18 11:33:20 +0000 UTC]

It goes without say.

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siborg626 In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-18 18:00:57 +0000 UTC]

I ment the villain 2-face from the Batman series, but I understand, my bad

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Shychick In reply to siborg626 [2016-03-20 00:52:46 +0000 UTC]

Obviously you don't get it, otherwise you wouldn't see the need to clarify who you were talking about. That's irrelevant; she wasn't asking what character you were referring to. She doesn't accept comparisons of her original work to ANY fictional property. Get it now? Besides, you didn't even comment on the actual art.

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Imagi77 [2016-03-16 19:21:44 +0000 UTC]

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Leeanix In reply to Imagi77 [2016-03-17 01:19:49 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.  He's definitely sinister.  I love his creepy all white eyes.  If you look closely you can see the whitest parts that stand in for iris/pupils.  It's very subtle but creepy once you realize where exactly he is looking.  Two sides of the same personality.

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Imagi77 In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-17 01:34:54 +0000 UTC]

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Leeanix In reply to Imagi77 [2016-03-17 01:49:07 +0000 UTC]

It's obvious on my icon too which is from the drawing Fear's Conspiracy.  And in this one it's frightening how he's looking at Gord as he has his victim where he wants him.

  Looking in the face of Fear is one of the main points of that draw and he looks back.

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mvendredi13 [2016-03-16 17:00:17 +0000 UTC]

I love how you made him be half-half, but not like two different photos, rather like two different body parts. Ingenious, man!

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Leeanix In reply to mvendredi13 [2016-03-17 01:18:16 +0000 UTC]

Thank you. Yes his two forms but one personality. He does love what he has become.

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AudeS [2016-03-16 14:43:00 +0000 UTC]

Almost like Hel, only with two sides that are not so nice to look at.*chuckles* It kind of works if the only differences between each sides is how much of the monster shows through. It is also quite unnerving how his left eye is empty, while the other still shows pupil and iris. Seriously, he is pretty creppy that way, similar to how other characters or entities with a two-halves-face syndrome can be.

And yes, you barely have those cases where someone turns into a monster and is okay about that. Especially with terianthropy, it is always going by the following schematics. 1.) Get infected or cursed through the bite of a werewolf, 2.) Lose consciousness on a fullmoon, 3.) Eat some fellas, 4.) Wake up naked in the woods, 5.) Whatever the law says about public nudity, 6.) Read the news and feel guilty about eating people, then repeat steps 2 to 6 until the curse is lifted or you die from a silver weapon or fire. And yet, I think if you consider simple neurobiology it would only require something to counteract the serotonin and grehlin output and you get yourself a calm werewolf.

Though, ultimately I might say that SilverstarColorclan does put it best, who cares if you are a monster, if that means unlimited power. As long as you can use it, that is.

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Leeanix In reply to AudeS [2016-03-17 01:17:42 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, his personality does not change with the two sides. Only his appearance and how much power he has.  Both evil.  If you look closely at his left eye you'll see the brightest light stands in for a white iris and pupil. It's subtle and something you have to look for to notice.  but yes otherwise it looks like a blind eye. It's obvious in my icon too that he's looking won his own nose.  Once you realize these it's even more unnerving. 

That formula has been done so much. So yes I'm glad that Fear took to his new self so easily.  Instant acceptance. Same for Leeanix.

Yes you have to look at the big picture. What you look like doesn't matter. Gaining this power is the real gift though he is Fear so looking frightening just helps him in his job.

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MovingOnOUT [2016-03-16 14:36:51 +0000 UTC]

Dude, this is seriously really cool. I love the coloring in here and the effects in Fear's eye really bring a sinister tone. Well, as if his sharp teeth didn't already do that. If this is the fear that goes through your head, I'm so jealous because all my fear can do is go insane from pressure from schoolwork.

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Leeanix In reply to MovingOnOUT [2016-03-17 01:11:55 +0000 UTC]

Thank you. It's odd seeing him with only one glowing eye when his two are creepy enough.  Hehe, yeah I love all the sinister parts of him that changed actually. All works to make a frighteningly beautiful whole. 
Ah yes this is my Fear that resides within me.  I love him very much and he's been helpful for the most part.  Ah, intense pressure from school. He broke that down into his four subsections and I sure learned how to cope with stress.

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MovingOnOUT In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-21 21:48:19 +0000 UTC]

That's really cool. I wish you the best of luck on your next page.

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Leeanix In reply to MovingOnOUT [2016-03-22 01:15:16 +0000 UTC]

Thanks. I'll need it. I started inking the next page so it's in the works.

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Perfumedoll [2016-03-16 13:57:53 +0000 UTC]

I love the half faced fears.
It's nice to see both sides of him and the way how you have shown how his eyes, hands and teeth change so dramatically.

I love the dark room and the way how the shading and lighting make him look more dramatic and refined. The turquoise is such a pretty addition. Such a lovely colour.

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Leeanix In reply to Perfumedoll [2016-03-16 23:20:31 +0000 UTC]

Thanks. I'm so happy with this and really surprised how a fast simple drawing was such a hit with everyone. 
Yes his eyes, teeth and hands are the major changes he has had.

You know I love turquoise and use it whenever I can. Well most of his stuff would be turquoise so this could be his room. He definitely knows how to use his environment to put you on edge.

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Perfumedoll In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-17 18:58:06 +0000 UTC]

For a 'simple' picture, it's very detailed and more like a masterpiece haha 😂

Turquoise is such a serene, calming colour and im glad you use it a lot.
Yeah it could be.

Yes definitely, scary Fear is a genius.

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Leeanix In reply to Perfumedoll [2016-03-18 00:36:48 +0000 UTC]

Aw thanks. Well I'm glad you think so.

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Perfumedoll In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-18 13:38:59 +0000 UTC]

No problem 🌸

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IllusionsMaster64 [2016-03-16 13:28:07 +0000 UTC]

Everything about this is amazing :'D This reminds me of Two-face except cooler, both sides are evilly awesome and successful in his goals. *thumbs up*

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Leeanix In reply to IllusionsMaster64 [2016-03-16 23:18:24 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.   Yes appearance wise this is like Two Face. I can see that.  But unlike him his personality remains the same. Yes both are evil and of one mind.

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IllusionsMaster64 In reply to Leeanix [2016-03-17 00:57:59 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome :3 And both a force to be reckoned with.

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Leeanix In reply to IllusionsMaster64 [2016-03-17 11:26:23 +0000 UTC]

Yes. Even in his normal mode he takes advantage of those that think he's weak.

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