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I just have one of those depression days where I can´t smile and can´t even think of something else than being alone or something like that. Then I only think why do I excist , what is my reason? What is my goal ? Why do those things happen to me ?
Then I draw things like this. Yes there is a little blood and it´s not cause the reason you probrally think, It´s not cause Efil is having her period.
Sometimes I just wish I could dissappear. Then every stress will be gone .
I also know that it´s quite a bad thing because some of you are counting on me. One person who commented on my journal of ``are you a true friend yes or no and stuff´´ was not a real friend. No , I don´t mean one of these people who suggested me to be their friend , I mean someone there who said: I am your friend. It´s not true. I hate that someone told me this lie. It was not really cheering me up , it was making me only more sad.
And if you still can´t believe it , I am truly sad.
It´s more than just everything what happens around me in real life. It´s like something is on my back and getting heavier every time.
But who do understand me? Who do understand how I feel?
Nobody lives the same life , so it´s always hard to understand someone . The situations you go trough can be the same , but still someone else is seeing it different than you do.

I feel like nobody truly likes Efil lately.
However I know some people do.
A very few. I was thinking of leaving Efil , but she became me , I became a lynx.
A cold hearted lynx trying to find her way to warmth , love , friendship , being a good girl. That last is the most important thing.
I am trying also to get you guys happy , not for myself , but for yourself . I know how terribly life can be and I truly wish I could make every single person on this whole world smile. Unfortunatly I am not a god who can do this.
Only the single things I do can maybe change a bit of the world and I want to try it at least.
I do not care about being famous , I know I never will be and I don´t even feel like it , I guess.

Well.. sorry
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Little thing that was in my head

Why , WHY!
Everything is cold , nobody likes me
This pain inside , I am not me anymore , I am changed
But why , Why?!

Why can´t I be a good girl for her , for him , for them,
I wanted to save them , but I failed ,
I thought they cared about me but they showed me their hand and walked away.

I thought...
I could reach something.
But this hope , this faith , believing ..
It´s not true , tough..

I will still fight!
I can´t give up ,
but this all seems the end.
The cold , lonely end.

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DO NOT recolor , claim , steal , use , update , change or something like that!
It´s not yours and this is hard work!
Especially the description

Description
I just have one of those depression days where I can´t smile and can´t even think of something else than being alone or something like that. Then I only think why do I excist , what is my reason? What is my goal ? Why do those things happen to me ?
Then I draw things like this. Yes there is a little blood and it´s not cause the reason you probrally think, It´s not cause Efil is having her period.
Sometimes I just wish I could dissappear. Then every stress will be gone .
I also know that it´s quite a bad thing because some of you are counting on me. One person who commented on my journal of ``are you a true friend yes or no and stuff´´ was not a real friend. No , I don´t mean one of these people who suggested me to be their friend , I mean someone there who said: I am your friend. It´s not true. I hate that someone told me this lie. It was not really cheering me up , it was making me only more sad.
And if you still can´t believe it , I am truly sad.
It´s more than just everything what happens around me in real life. It´s like something is on my back and getting heavier every time.
But who do understand me? Who do understand how I feel?
Nobody lives the same life , so it´s always hard to understand someone . The situations you go trough can be the same , but still someone else is seeing it different than you do.

I feel like nobody truly likes Efil lately.
However I know some people do.
A very few. I was thinking of leaving Efil , but she became me , I became a lynx.
A cold hearted lynx trying to find her way to warmth , love , friendship , being a good girl. That last is the most important thing.
I am trying also to get you guys happy , not for myself , but for yourself . I know how terribly life can be and I truly wish I could make every single person on this whole world smile. Unfortunatly I am not a god who can do this.
Only the single things I do can maybe change a bit of the world and I want to try it at least.
I do not care about being famous , I know I never will be and I don´t even feel like it , I guess.

Well.. sorry
------------------------------------
Little thing that was in my head

Why , WHY!
Everything is cold , nobody likes me
This pain inside , I am not me anymore , I am changed
But why , Why?!

Why can´t I be a good girl for her , for him , for them,
I wanted to save them , but I failed ,
I thought they cared about me but they showed me their hand and walked away.

I thought...
I could reach something.
But this hope , this faith , believing ..
It´s not true , tough..

I will still fight!
I can´t give up ,
but this all seems the end.
The cold , lonely end.

-----------------------------------------

Art by
Character belongs to

ONLY may use!
DO NOT recolor , claim , steal , use , update , change or something like that!
It´s not yours and this is hard work!
Especially the description