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Published: 2006-09-13 13:32:51 +0000 UTC; Views: 14934; Favourites: 476; Downloads: 96
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somethimes i'm soo alone...!!!!!!! i hate when i'm alone...!!! but i cant do anithing...Related content
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I feel alone everyday and it's horrible. I can't do anything about it. Like yesterday I went to the cinemas by myself yet there were couples and families going to see the same movie as me and I just sat in the corner. I even had a panic attack because I was so nervous and stressful. And I cried while I was shaking and no one knew. And then afterwards, my mum wanted to pick me up but she didn't say where so I then had another panic attack but it wasn't as bad as the one before. I then just started to walk home. My mum called me and she had a go at me for walking home by myself and so I cried while going to where she told me to.
Even now I feel lonely and fucked up. Because yesterday after dinner I went into my room and for some reason I just thought about killing my whole family and how I would do it and what would I do next. I then cried again because I knew I would never be able to kill them because they're my family. But then I started to doubt that thought. No one actually really cares about me, if they did they would of asked why I was really quite after coming home from the cinema, but no one did. I even imagined myself doing it. And afterwards I would just sit there on the floor with a knife in my hands with blood everywhere. And I would be smiling. See how fucked up I am? No wonder I'm alone. My mum's even making me go to councilling because I've self harmed and I have depression. She thinks I'm only like it because my nan died and my dad left. That isn't half theΒ reason. My brothers sexually abused me when I was really young about 3 times maybe. She doesn't know. They've probably forgotten. But I will always remember and then cry about it afterwards and then want to kill myself for it. And I would want to kill them too. My friends are bitches to me. They only want me to listen to them. They don't really care. It annoys me so much because I don't have a choice with who I be friends with. It's either them or me being alone for the rest of my time at school. Everyone else has already used me and made me hate them. I hate it so much.
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I hate that I can so Deeply relate. To put so much here for all to see...you are both Brave, and Strong. Of that. ..I envy You. I'm always Alone, always. I wish I had your Strength.
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Me too, I hope you don't feel so alone anymore, it is a terrible feeling to have.
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good job.....the feeling in that one I relate a lot
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I'm totally alone as well.Β Sometimes it just hurts so much I sometimes feel like doing this, sitting in a corner in the dark.Β
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If you could see these scars on my arms you'd see not a rebellious teen or an attention deprived soul. All my past relationships have been revalations, truths without meaning.
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I'd rather be dead. Fuck life, who says I choose to be here anyway?
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The blood that flows moves on sorrows whim. The heart that pumps it is out of reach, in disrepair. I don't want family. I don't want a fucking hug. The feelings here are more than cock blasting some whore two weeks from the third. That gets old you know?
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Is it me, or just the vibe I give off I guess. Is it the shyness or what? Who knows what it is for this perfect friend who is cast aside when the newest bitch is introduced. The aftermath is really square one.
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I don't understand. I cant't do this all on my own. I've got this feeling in my stomach. They say its when you meet your match but I'm gonna take a shot in the dark and say that there is no check for this mate.
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Oops. Didn't work. Here's the [link] again.
^_^
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Heya! I love your pose, it's awesome.
Also Listen, hence, I kind of based a person in my calligraphy piece with this picture, I didn't copy your pic completely but I thought you might want to see it.
Here's the [link]
Thanks!
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for the fact that you FEEL alone, you're not alone on that (:
everyone feels alone at one point or another D:
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oh wow i like it the feeling it gives off.
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Hey i used your picture in some photoshop stuff i@ve been working on heres the link if you'd like to check it out?
[link]
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I lov this piece, it is very expressive, can i use it for a presentation i want to give to my school about self injury and depression awareness?
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hi there, i'm Alie, and i drew your photo here -->[link]
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Alone and in the darkness is not a place you would want to be
Trust me Iβve been there.
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Your work has been featured here .
Merry Christmas!
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c'mon... this is not your work... delete it please or i'll tell the admin...thanks for the attention
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listen... her english is not the best but i told her to write that she didnt do it... i also put it in my journal, because i was sure that she wouldnt be able to write it
kk ?
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okay.. i understand..
at least we need to see the real photographer name written in the description..
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do you know it ? i didnt find it on dA. i searched a lil bit yesterday... and i dont think she knows... but thank you for understanding
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omg it hell freakd me coz it like hell reminded me of my little suicidle emo buddy. its really good and does give the impression well!!
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