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Umm idfk what to type? I decided to draw something for coming out to my extended family members (the ones my dad say will not shame me cuz apparently my grandma's LGBT-phobic? Dam, just gonna hafta deal with that unfortunately, she's quite nice aside from that unfortunate aspect about her lol) and I quite liked the pose for this one so It's going out into the public!

I guess this is also the first post with my gender identity in focus, so maybe I should say atleast something about that?

Long story short, in November during a lunch break I was like: "Idgaf about pronuns", went to Google and found out about being gender apathetic. So I thought "Hey, that's me because I have a female body and Idc about my pronouns and am not agender and super female still because that's my body!". Hahahaha if only gender were so simple. Turns out, I was attaching my biological body to my internal sense of gender, as in "I have a 'female' body and am okay with that, therefore I am female and not anything else" when in reality I now realize I was thinking "I have a body with XX chromosomes and it is very clear and I'm okay with that, but damn do I wish it wasn't associated with me as a person and how I feel". So during my confusion I would every single evening look up some tests and quizzes online to find out if I'm actually female. And I remember this one quiz where it showed me the result as "agender", where I read the description and thought "Wait... my gendered body doesn't matter in association to what I feel like, it's just how I was born! I'm gonna look into this agender identity even more because I feel like that describes me!". And so I did and I realized I truly am agender and immediately came out to my parents and nothing except my pronouns and view on biological bodies and gender have changed now. I'm still me and I get no hate, FUCK YES I'm glad I was born in this country!!!

And that's just the short version of discovering a gender identity. I cannot easily sum it up in two or three sentences, it's a whole-ass rollercoaster of thoughts and new insights. So if you happen to see this post and read my story, I hope it was interesting lol. And of course, hope you like the art. I realize I'm talking to nobody but now my story's in the public so that's cooool.

(Also I refuse to translate the Swedish lol, you got Google translate, right? Right.)

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Umm idfk what to type? I decided to draw something for coming out to my extended family members (the ones my dad say will not shame me cuz apparently my grandma's LGBT-phobic? Dam, just gonna hafta deal with that unfortunately, she's quite nice aside from that unfortunate aspect about her lol) and I quite liked the pose for this one so It's going out into the public!

I guess this is also the first post with my gender identity in focus, so maybe I should say atleast something about that?

Long story short, in November during a lunch break I was like: "Idgaf about pronuns", went to Google and found out about being gender apathetic. So I thought "Hey, that's me because I have a female body and Idc about my pronouns and am not agender and super female still because that's my body!". Hahahaha if only gender were so simple. Turns out, I was attaching my biological body to my internal sense of gender, as in "I have a 'female' body and am okay with that, therefore I am female and not anything else" when in reality I now realize I was thinking "I have a body with XX chromosomes and it is very clear and I'm okay with that, but damn do I wish it wasn't associated with me as a person and how I feel". So during my confusion I would every single evening look up some tests and quizzes online to find out if I'm actually female. And I remember this one quiz where it showed me the result as "agender", where I read the description and thought "Wait... my gendered body doesn't matter in association to what I feel like, it's just how I was born! I'm gonna look into this agender identity even more because I feel like that describes me!". And so I did and I realized I truly am agender and immediately came out to my parents and nothing except my pronouns and view on biological bodies and gender have changed now. I'm still me and I get no hate, FUCK YES I'm glad I was born in this country!!!

And that's just the short version of discovering a gender identity. I cannot easily sum it up in two or three sentences, it's a whole-ass rollercoaster of thoughts and new insights. So if you happen to see this post and read my story, I hope it was interesting lol. And of course, hope you like the art. I realize I'm talking to nobody but now my story's in the public so that's cooool.

(Also I refuse to translate the Swedish lol, you got Google translate, right? Right.)