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Published: 2007-05-15 16:55:29 +0000 UTC; Views: 1927; Favourites: 28; Downloads: 41
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Description Just a sketch but I wanted to make a surprise for
(Perhaps I'll scrap this later, especially if I manage to paint it... it's really quite rough, you still can see the lines of construction, but I had little time, and wanted to post it anyway )

Anyway, these are Poldalle, her ranger-bard elf character, and Sharez, a rogue drow I'm roleplaying on her forum We, the bards - the thread is "Dark ways, bright skies", if you're interested.
This is the scene from their first meeting: the drow wasn't exactly in a good shape, as you can easily tell.
She is helping him, but at the same time, is not so happy of being in such a close contact with the darkelf (who is, btw, compleately drenched with rain, and is clinging on her shoulder just to be able to stand on his feet).

My dedication:"Thank you Val for inviting me on your forum, I had never tried this way of roleplaying before, but I find it great and addictive, I hope to make up a lot of beautiful stories with you and the other people there. "

p.s. yep, I'm experimenting on perspective! It's fun! I build "boxes" and then put people and stuff inside them.

(p.p.s. there are anatomical mistakes scattered here and there, I see. Uff. I need more time. Like 36 hours days...)
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Comments: 45

RainyDayFun [2010-07-02 23:02:15 +0000 UTC]

I love the perspective on this one. Very well done on the figures and face. I like the elf's expression, too.

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MiseryandAzaelyn [2007-06-02 19:04:05 +0000 UTC]

This is really beautiful and a wonderful gift to give someone. It still amazes me what you consider a sketch. The perspective here is amazing and there seems to be so much warmth coming from the image by the gentle way Poldalle is helping Shar in this image. I'm uber glad you've found a new fun way to RP as well ^_^

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Lluhnij In reply to MiseryandAzaelyn [2007-06-03 05:08:03 +0000 UTC]

And you joined... I'm quite curious about the new evolution of the thread!!

Thank you!

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MiseryandAzaelyn In reply to Lluhnij [2007-06-03 16:49:56 +0000 UTC]

I can't wait to meet everyone's characters ^_^

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Lluhnij In reply to MiseryandAzaelyn [2007-06-03 18:21:02 +0000 UTC]

lol, me too, I'm curious to see how the meeting could turn out!

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Fall- [2007-05-18 03:05:44 +0000 UTC]

Oh yes, I agree - the perspective is spot on. This is such a caring image - so lovely..

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Lluhnij In reply to Fall- [2007-05-18 04:25:21 +0000 UTC]

Thank you dear!

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Marutanielle [2007-05-17 14:01:58 +0000 UTC]

nice perspective, I can't wait to see colour version!

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Lluhnij In reply to Marutanielle [2007-05-18 04:33:18 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, I'm glad you like it!

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Myar [2007-05-16 18:55:12 +0000 UTC]

You're the master of drawing feet I'd love to see this finished

PS: Sorry bout the absence during the last few days, I had problems with compy

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Lluhnij In reply to Myar [2007-05-16 19:59:52 +0000 UTC]

Eh eh :lol, too kind, kochanie.
Thank you!

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Myar In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-17 07:31:13 +0000 UTC]

Welcome, kotku!

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Lluhnij In reply to Myar [2007-05-17 07:47:11 +0000 UTC]

Kotku... like... mhhh, a little cat? ^^

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Myar In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-17 18:54:37 +0000 UTC]

Uhm, exactly^^ or sometimes Misiaczku!

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Lluhnij In reply to Myar [2007-05-18 05:52:35 +0000 UTC]

In which case? (I mean, the grammas cases, not the occasion) ^^

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Myar In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-18 08:22:28 +0000 UTC]

Um .....in Polish we call this case Wołacz
Anyway here's the first case , Mianownik: Misiaczek.

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Lluhnij In reply to Myar [2007-05-21 04:47:12 +0000 UTC]

Aww, yes. Wołacz is called Vocativo in Italian, and I guess something like Vocative in English, I studied the use of cases when I studied Latin so I see the meaning of them... the only nasty thing is that I can't always find a word on my dictionary so easily as if it's in the Nominative (Mianownik) XD

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Myar In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-21 08:15:36 +0000 UTC]

Perhaps it's because it's a diminutive form Anyway the not-so-accurate translation could be "a little teddybear"

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Lluhnij In reply to Myar [2007-05-23 04:56:10 +0000 UTC]

Nay, apart from the diminutive "k" the suffix changes and that is the matter (apart that my paper dictionary is small and many words are left out)

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Myar In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-23 10:28:32 +0000 UTC]

Perhaps that's the case

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PoldalleLovesnare [2007-05-16 05:10:31 +0000 UTC]

omg!!!! seriously one look at this and the description, especially that kind dedication, and I'm in tears! This is beautiful hun!!!! Truly!!! The perspective is amazing and adds so much drama to the pose and indeed that does look nearly to the dot how I'd picture her!!!! Incredible! And it's great to see a pic of Sharez, even if it doesn't show exactly what he looks like, and I do look forward to seeing other drawings of him I really loved this scene in the RP for the high levels of emotion it brought up and it's truly breath-taking to see it depicted!!! (btw Aluna loves it too, I showed her ) I'm so very honored by this. Truly!!!

I'm so happy that you did come and join the forum! I'm stunned at how many members it has already and how lively it seems to be...especially for something I just made. I'm positively enthralled! And I'm loving the RPs that I'm involved in there. It's so lovely to finally roleplay my namesake as well. And already I'm loving the interactions between her and Sharez. Truly this is such a lovely gift and I thank you from the core of my heart! You are far too kind and I'm over-joyed to call you a friend!

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-05-16 06:29:07 +0000 UTC]

I'm so happy you like this lil pic, I'm totally enthralled by the roleplaying, I had been missing some good rp made up of atmospheres and emotions, and not only go-kill-grab-levelup-go-kill-grab-etc... I was missing it so much and I didn't even realize it until I started playing on the forum!

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-17 03:27:00 +0000 UTC]

This truly made my day/night and then some! It's so wonderful!!! And I'm SO happy you're enjoying the RP! I LOVE storytelling and it's so good to hear that everyone's excited about it all coming together and interacting and as I said last night, I agree. The XP-GP-killing-and-thieving-craze can be fun sometimes, but if I'm just going for hack and slash I'd rather play a video game for awhile than D&D or something. I prefer characters and stories/plots with depth just how I am. And you've become a WONDERFUL addition to the forum! I'm sooooo happy you came!

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-05-18 06:47:11 +0000 UTC]


Be sure that if I had time, the pics of scenes from Escape, Longing, and DWBS, would be more than ten by now, at least.
I have many in my mind... I'll try to do some more as soon as I can dedicate myself to my pencils without being in a rush...

Thank you honey... I realize that my vocabulary is limited and I'm trying to write things in a way that is also nice to be read, instead than just intelligible, the forum rp is gorgeus and is helping me a lot in this, as I have a lot of fun writing and finding new words and new ways to build up sentences. It's a great opportunity of rping with friends *and* learning things altogether! ^__^

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-19 03:44:12 +0000 UTC]

oh my! ten!!! wow! hehehee....I LOVE to draw RP scenes and try to bring things to life that way as well! I've so many sketches that I started and will likely never finish that were meant to depict old RP scenes hehe.... I love when something can bring images to life in your mind....some of the best writing hehehhe... I'm so honored you're loving this so much! It makes me so happy....gotta mean I'm doing something right lol! heheheh

oh, well I've loved reading what you've put in so far. I really love a couple of the scenes you've written for Sharez...great detailings and very chilling how you described somethings. I've found them very creative. If you didn't tell me you didn't speak English I'd not have thought different....you do an excellent job! Don't let anyone tell ya different hehehee and aye, I love using RP as an experience to have fun and learn more. It helps develop one's writing abilities a lot, I think

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-05-23 06:50:43 +0000 UTC]

Ten just to say a number, as we go on with the story, more come into my mind! ^^
I hope to draw something soon but I must find some free time.
I really love how the storylines are developing, both for the vampires and the elves&c.

Writing in the forum is really helping me with my English, it enthrals me and is a cause of searching for new words, and ways to convey certain images. I mean, I already feel a certain difference between now and before!
I'll try to keep things interesting with my Sharez

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-24 03:27:20 +0000 UTC]

awe! already ten? wow that's good to hear, means we're writing really intriguing things if they're inspiring so many visuals asking to be drawn yes? hehehehe... lol I know what that's like. I've got so much to draw and work on writing-wise as well but finding the spare time is not easy...especially the time to sit on the computer to color or use my refs that are saved on here and not printed out. That's what I seem to never be able to find the time to do. I'm truly loving how the stories are coming along though as well and I'm happy for being uber busy running around trying to find time for things again. lol...perhaps I love being a busy bee more than I admit

I'm glad!!! It's kinda fun to be helping someone learn a new language through helping write stories together ^^ I'm always eager to see how others write, personally. I get new ideas for my own storylines and my writing style. I just love to tell stories and always enjoy sharing it with others. *chuckles* I don't doubt in your abilities to keep it interesting. I'm already attached to the lil guy hehhee *sends him snuggles*

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-05-27 05:15:37 +0000 UTC]

Ehh, don't tell me about spare time! ...what's sparetime, something to eat?
Lol, I always feel a bit guilty for doing other things instead of working, but it's sooooooo hard to keep focused on work when you're at home and you have everything around. Because of this one of my eternal tasks is to find methods to focus on projects and to avoid too many distractions!

I think that different languages have different ways of expressing concepts and this may be very interesting in exploring the opportunities of writing. This is another reason that pushes me to learn. It may sound exaggerated, but it isn't: by knowing another language (such as English for me) you get even "new concepts", you learn words which can't be translated directly, because the shades of their meaning is different from their "normal" translation.
Sometimes it happens to me to think a thing in English, and then to have to find a sentence to translate the concept in Italian. If I didn't know the concept in English, I'd probably simply get the "simple" one in Italian.

And I can't wait for when Poldalle and SHarez will be able to talk a bit by themselves^^

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-27 05:53:51 +0000 UTC]

lol sparetime is a concept that doesn't seem to truly exist much anymore lol. and aye, I feel the same...when I am home and seem to have a moment to myself to work, I get so easily distracted that I seem to put it off even further heh... I find music really helps me to focus, as well as it can be a lot of fun sitting and drawing with friends. Though, then usually the drawings are more towards something like a RP I share WITH that friend, but it can help me to focus on that alone

actually that makes a lot of sense to me. I'm always striving to find new ways to say things. I don't like to repeat words a lot, if you'll notice. Like how in one paragraph alone I might call Poldalle by her name, by her class, by her title of a Champion of Corellon, by her gender and race, or "etriel"....all because I don't like to say "Poldalle did this. Poldalle did that. Poldalle is now doing this." I can't stand it. I like to instead "spice things up" somewhat. And I'm always fussy about trying to find a way to express myself and say JUST what I'm wanting to say

neither can I! I love him and Paul already! heheehe

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-05-27 15:19:24 +0000 UTC]

Aww, lol, you should see and make a big laughter of all my plots and plans to teach myself timetables and schemes to try to do all that I want to do in a day. I generally don't manage to follow them completely, also because I give myself too many tasks for the hours I have, even without being distracted.
If this may be a consolation for when you say you're a terrible procrastinator, be sure that my tendency is the same. I just have to (metaphorically) whip myself to work, to be able to pay my bills.
I never tried drawing with others, I think. Strangely enough, my D&D friends are all males, and the don't draw. And my other friends, well we meet in other occasions, or go to places where I can't draw *shrugs* It would be nice to try that though. ^^

Anyway I don't think that drawing a scene from some rp is less worthy than anything else to make some practice, on the contrary, it's something you like and this generally helps a lot.

Yeah, I see how you keep your descriptions in "constant movement", always finding a flowing rhythm and varying the words to express things differently. I try to do the same but for instance when we play on AIM I don't want to lose too much time by searching and comparing words on a dictionary, so the prose results poor and sometimes badly organized (this is the main reason 'cause of which I asked you to let me post the last piece of story, thus I managed to change few words and correct some mistakes here and there).

I hope tomorrow we'll be able to talk IC another bit (bit?? It was another 2-posts piece today!), and also that Aluna will come around soon as I'd like to interact with her characters a little bit (even if, in complete honesty I must admit I found hers being less suitable than yours to be played with)
Aww, I'm just too curious of reading Charlie's next moves and Poldalle's too.

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-28 05:30:01 +0000 UTC]

lol we all have our funny-funky quirks to try to get ourselves organized and on-track. I seem to put things off for awhile and then suddenly jump on the tasks and accomplish a few in record time then the rest slack for awhile again yeah I tend to generally get along easier with males in general and males tend to play D&D more than females usually heh. Though I at the moment have far more close female friends then males I seem to have this desperate want to find close female friends to attach to and create a deep bond with...like sisters that I never got to have

I love drawing RP scenes for the practice as well as the chance to try to help give visuals to the written parts of the stories.

*smiles and nods* I was actually happy that you could post it since I hhad to go really quickly as well. And I understand the want to "edit and spice things up" Whenever I RP in a chat form like AIM and whatnot I tend to not get as...poetic unless it's the only thing I'm doing at the moment and thus my replies come slower...because in the forum I can sit and think for a long time on my reply and get it to sound more...eloquent, so to speak....than the responsive style that chat brings forward. if that makes any sense heh....

lol I'm having a blast with the RPs! I'm in love with Sharez and Paul already and I'm enjoying interacting with them so much hehehehhee lol Aluna makes really fun characters to play with, but sometimes it's hard to come up with ways to interact at first...especially when they tend to go off on their own wild missions and whatnot. But I love RPing with her, she comes up with cool ideas for general plots and whatnot. hopefully you'll get more of a chance to RP with her, but lol I know she's also sorta hard-pressed wanting to find a male of my characters she can manage to snag as a mate for her own too it seems lol...guess I make attractive boys

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-05-30 06:39:22 +0000 UTC]

Yep girls don't play D&D that much, and that's a pity. Most of my friends were male up to some years ago, right now I still have a higher % of male friends, but my most important buddies are girls. ^^
... I have a sister but I assure you that I don't need more than one... friends are difefrent (and it's good! )
(Well my sis can be a great person, but living in the same house can be, mhhhh, toiling, sometimes...)

I like to play these joint posts, it's really a good solution for dialogues and such, anyway it's pretty clear that you're much more expert and good than I am, for even if you're "less eloquent" you're sure muuuuch more than I can be while writing on AIM
However I hope that Aluna will be back soon, let's hope both she and her computer are well, or will be soon.
Btw, I'm curious to see how she developes her plots and charries too...

I'm so glad that you like how my two boys turned out! ^_^
Well, Paul is somehow "built to be charming" ...at least, charming for certain girls... I think that I'd drool after one like him if I could find him irl (and he's also one who knows it and ejnoys a lot being like that, so even if he's not a selfish guy with chicks, and can be very loyal and faithful with the right one, he also surely likes to have a lot of fun in 'that' sense...).

Aww, so Aluna's also trying to love-hunt your charries for hers, lol, yeah, you made some cuties, it seems!

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-05-31 04:23:37 +0000 UTC]

Aye lol....I'm actually much the same. Yet right now I think I have more female friends in general, but usually tend to have more male friends but get closer to a few female friends. Right now I only have a few male friends that I talk to regularly, compared to my female friends. But my male friends tend to be the ones that last. I don't get as deep a bond as with them as I have with a couple of female friends, but the female friends on the other hand tend to keep ending up betraying me, sadly. Not all, but quite a few heh.

lol the more you RP both on the forum and on AIM, the better you'll get a feel for it ^^ I'd never done joint-posting until going to one forum but it does seem to work nice enough. I used to be in mainly one-on-one threads though lol or play with two other members so it wasn't as big a deal waiting for dialogue interactions. But I thoroughly enjoy it, it's nice to RP on AIM again too...that's where Alex and Damien's stories were being fleshed out Hopefully Aluna's ok and will be back soon. I get worried about her

lol well both are charming, but yes, Paul seems very charming but flirtacious hehehee. He certainly seems like the type that I might develop a crush on easy enough if he were real. I LOVE the "noble dork" types lol...the ones that have a certain degree of chivalry and silliness. lol Paul is just loveable! lol

lol I guess I have I'm flattered that everybody loves em lol

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-06-03 07:00:58 +0000 UTC]

Ah, I think I know what you mean. For some reason, it looks like females can be both deeper and more superficial than males sometimes.
Maybe I can be steadier in this field being something in the middle - as about my mind! - between male and female. Who knows. I don't think I ever wronged a friend of mine... it happened that I lost contact with some, or that our lives took such different paths that we didn't share things anymore, but that's all.

Eh, I can see why AIM could be the right place for Alex and Damien's first stories... it's more private, and also faster, I guess it's much easier to carry on quick dialogues there than on the forum.

Aww... "noble dork" never thought of such a thing but hey, it fits SO well for Paul! LOL!
And yes, Charlie's the smart one, Paul's cute and sometimes really naive.
...btw, did you notice the little scar on Charlie's nose? I couldn't help myself, I don't know why, but I just had to put it there!! lol!

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-06-03 07:14:16 +0000 UTC]

I try not to wrong my friends. I live for others and their happiness. Some people I know I have no doubt let down in some ways...but many hoped I was more like them than I truly was. But I am not fake and so what you see is what you get. I only hope that I never come to harm you. I've truly come to love you and cherish you already, Elena. You're a dear friend and I look forward to getting to talk with you and to roleplay and create such wonderful storylines each night.

aye they both started as character experiments for fun as well hehe

lol yeah...I love noble dorky type guys lol and it's a helpless fact..I'm attracted to them heehhee.... lol! smart? well Charlie's certainly a smart-ASS that's for sure lol....he's not dumb but sometimes I think he can lack some common sense--like when he should hold his tongue instead of getting himself into more trouble lol. lol I did notice hehehe...it's kinda cool....might have to keep it when I finally get around to drawing him too lol...no doubt the fool's gotten himself into more than one fight in his days

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-06-03 20:22:41 +0000 UTC]

This is an interesting subject... to say it abruptly, I don't live for others, I don't think it's just, even if it may sound good.
Mind you, I do love my friends, and knowing them happy plays a big part into my own happyness, but here you are: *my* happyness is what I aim at. Happyness is a small word for what I mean... my idea is that I have only this life for sure, and I don't mean to waste even the tiniest bit of it, if I can help it.
If you believe in something above, then it's like saying "I've been given this awesome gift: life. Time to spend on this Earth, it was given to me. Everybody has his/her own time. Only I have my time here and now. What am I going to do with it?" My answer is: "I want to fulfill my time, to make it as whole as it's possible for me, to put all my efforts to have a 'successful' life - and here I don't mean fame and fortune, of course, but I mean that I want to realize all the potential of my life. I want to learn all that I can learn, to understand what I really am and to improve in being myself and in doing what I'm made to do." This is also making my dears happy, but this is the effect, neither the cause nor the goal.
If you don't believe in the "classic" God, or don't believe at all, then say that I want to do that in a form of respect towards all those who aren't as lucky as I am, like the really poor people, the ones who're badly ill, or those who died before their natural moment. They've been deprived of many things I have plenty of, so who I am to waste my gifts when others would long for them... I just have to try my best to "enjoy" them.
This is why I consider the fullfillment of my own life as my first goal. As you said in another comment, none can be a better me than myself. Nothing is truer.
I love you as you are, similar to me for many things, but also different for others, and this is exactly how it should be. And it's also the only way for me to learn things from you, to be better because you're different, and I can see in you something that I don't have/am/know, and make our friendship improve me as a person. With some arrogance, I say that I'd like to be able to be the same for you.
And yes... I want to spend my time with you and talk, write wonderful stories, or simply enjoy the fact of being friends.

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Lol, it looks like, talking about D&D stats, Paul and Charlie seem to compensate each others in the values of intelligence and wisdom!
I soooo *luv* Charlie... I tend to be fond of the funny wannabe-nasty-at-all-costs guys! (But this is just my most girlish part, the other(s) at a certain point become bored if there isn't other stuff behind that envelope)
I'm so curious to get deeper into knowing Charlie's personality.

I'm glad you like the little scar, I can't see him without!

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-06-04 05:07:43 +0000 UTC]

You've got a supreme amount of wisdom, my friend. You seem to be able to see life with such clarity and such a sure-footed idea of how to follow the path that is before you--and cut your own if need be. Everything you say there makes perfect sense. It is just hard for me to try to do the same sometimes. I'm a very submissive person, and I always want everyone else happy first and foremost. This in turn makes me happy, but I guess I just have this idea in my head that I must see to others' needs before my own. I don't hate myself...there are some things that I don't like very much about myself, but I don't hate myself. I've a low confidence in myself in a lot of what I do. Without the support of others I likely would've crumpled upon myself some time ago. I am, though, trying to be more independent and learn to stand up for myself moreso and learn to have a tempered confidence--meaning to truly credit myself for that which I am good at and realize that which I'm not good at. Instead of not believing I'm all that great at anything heh. I've lost a lot in my life and been burned many times, but everytime I get knocked down I try to get back up....and I keep trying to hope and dream and believe in the better instead of the worse. And it is not arrogant for you to wish to help me become a better person, and already you have taught me things and helped me to be better at life. *smiles warmly and hugs tightly* Everyone we meet can touch us, some more profoundly than others, but each can touch us. I always loved the saying "my friend and I aren't perfect, so we're perfect for each other".

lol they likely would... though I'm betting Paul would have the higher Charisma lol..... lol! I'm so glad you love Charlie so much. Especially since he was created on a whim lol and I wasn't sure if he was going to turn out to have much depth to him or not...he was sorta spawned as an idea in my head during a bought of anger and feelings of betrayal lol....but I'm enjoying watching how he is developing and becoming his own person. Even if he's mostly a "wannabe" lol lol I never thought of scarring his face but I could see him having scars

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-06-04 19:59:32 +0000 UTC]

I might say that all this supposed "wisdom" is almost a trick... I'm exactly like everyone else, the only difference is that I realized that doubts could keep me pinned in the same spot for years... my nature is that of a thinker (and I'm being very kind with myself by using with word ).
Have you ever thought, watching some epic movie, that there were important lessons to learn in them? Like... just to name one, Yoda saying to the young Luke Skywalker something like "to do, or not to do; to try doesn't exist".
Another idea is what the last PiratesOTC inspired me (see my last journal).

People generally think that those are great concepts, but real life is different. But why? It's us, those who make it different... we can also make it work like that, or at least, get as close as possible.

There's a very important book for me, and there it's written something like: quibble about your limits, and they'll be really yours.
So the trick is just this: don't think about how hard it's for you to do a certain thing. Just do it. The first time the result will be not too great? Just shrug about it and keep doing it. The more you do it (notice: not "the more you try", it's "the more you do"), the better the results.
You don't have a strict schedule, courses to learn how to fulfill one's life don't really exist, so you don't need to fear any judgement, or to be hard with yourself, or anything like that. You can simply love your aims and go for them. Here it is, probably love is the greatest mean to this kind of success, the only trick you're always allowed to use.
But I have to say two things about the concept of love.
The first is that to love also means to be strong, and may even mean to be appearently harsh.
The second is something implied in one of the things they say Jesus said: love the others as you love yourself. AS. Not MORE. He surely meant that you should love others a lot, but what is implied, is that you should love Yourself at least as strongly. (I'm not exactly a faithful Christian - to use an euphemism - but I won't refuse a good concept, wherever I find it)

Summing up, my rules are: love yourself, love others, think about things, take your decisions, then practice them.

When I'm in the thinking phase, I try to sort out all my doubts, but that phase must come to an end in a decent time. If I can't find an answer, even after considering all the sides of a certain things, it means that I don't have enough elements. Then I start to do something, or work on something else, until I get some more elements and I can review my thoughts and make my decisions. There's always time to re-think about things... the only important thing is not to take it as an excuse to be still and never take a step further (and this is a great temptation for me, I can assure you. I always have to remind myself my rules, to place silly notes around me to keep me focused on tasks... I must seem really weird from outside, and probably I am )
(...but I like it this way! )

Apart from all this tragically self centered soup I just wrote, you know you're definitely good at a lot of stuff! And I see (even if only partially) that life wasn't very kind with you lately, but if this can be a consolation, this makes you stronger and deeper, shows you things from a point of view that most people can't see, and can be the basis for something even better than what could happen if nothing wrong happened.
(Again, again I go with this awful lecturing tone... grrrrrr.... *grumbles* *snorts* I hate when I can't help myself with that. *Hits her fingers with a little stick* Sigh. )

Ohh well, I love you and I guess this was the only thing worthy to be said.

As about the charisma... eh, I guess so, probably... even if I find Charlie being cute, on one hand, and sexy, on the other (must be the lil smexy scarry-thing on his nose... I have sorta fetish for noses... mhhhhhhh.... yumm, now this is Ele thinking "let's put aside Paul for a moment and let me put my hands on the skinny punk and then we'll see who's the one who's going to rock the world six times etc. to the other..." >>Caution: do not ropleplay this when direct explicit sentences will make you squirm on the chair!<< Lol. Charlie would surely be able to forget all the sentimental crap for few hours...)

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-06-05 05:32:52 +0000 UTC]

Actually, aye, I understand what you mean about profound lines in movies and stories. I always have loved reading Drizzt's journals for how deep he thinks. I actually take a lot of such statements to heart and try to apply them in my life. And I'm listening to everything you tell me and truly trying to take it to heart and apply it as well. It's odd...you know, Stefy used to lecture me often enough but I always felt like she was treating me like a child...I don't feel that way with you. It feels more like you're sharing life's lessons and sharing wisdoms and beliefs and deeper thoughts. So don't feel bad for "lecturing me". Sometimes I need to be encouraged in these manners...and I'm trying to be better and to learn to love myself as much as I love others And aye I do understand that what I have gone through has made me stronger and for that I am indeed oddly blessed. And with my wish to try to look at the positive in things, it's the way I try to look at it

I love you too, Elena! And I'm so very proud of you and feel so lucky to know you!

lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow, you just boosted Charlie's ego like 5 billion times!!!!!!!!!!!! lol nice one, hun! lol....well all I can say is, hell ...maybe one night we should trade boys ey? mrowl because I'll take Paul for a night!

heehe

as far as the first-person thing...it's more like if I'm RPing like that, then I start to think more like how I'd react and get shy sometimes because sometimes it can remind me--just like real life affections--of when I was raped and I start to twitch and suddenly want more to just be held and protected instead of keep flirting....so sometimes it makes me twitch but not always

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-06-09 06:55:06 +0000 UTC]

Omg, lol, I'm scared to death of being using that awful "lecturing tone" with my friends... I think I do that sometimes, and I realize I really shouldn't, I've nothing to teach but that anyone could learn just reading books, watching movies, or simply observing reality.
This is certainly true for the "philosophical stuff". Perhaps I can give few decent suggestions about drawing, but that's all!
The fact that I like to share my "discoveries" is another thing, but I can see that people might at good reason throw stuff at me for that!
Oh well, anyway, a) I'm glad you don't feel like I'm lecturing you, and b) if I start giving that impression, just throw something in my direction, hard and heavy. I generally stop at that point.

Buuuuuuut.... turning towards even more interesting sides of the discussion.... I'd say YAY, let's trade boys for a night! Give me the lil smexy dirty pointy-fanged black-eyed punk of yours and I'll lend you the cute blonde noble dork goth vampy of mine, completely at your service for a whole night to be your personal (and free) gigolo. Do we have a deal?
-- Yummm don't make me think too much at that sexy scar on Charlie's nose... --
Lol!

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-06-11 03:59:29 +0000 UTC]

lol well I don't feel that I've got a lot to offer other people too....but then again I still try to offer whatever it is I can. Sharing experiences and "life's lessons learned" is a wonderful part of friendships....friends aren't perfect but then they can be perfect for each other truly they make our lives so much richer and offering and sharing advice is one of the main benefits of friendships, yes? heh.... I think you've got a lot of good advice to give. Perhaps it could be stuff to be learned elsewhere, but it doesn't mean it's not good advice..and that it's not important to give out that advice or mean a lot to me that you've given it to me. lol and I won't throw anything at you, but I promise if I start to feel as if you're lecturing me in an unkind way I'll mention it

LOL! sounds NIIIIIIIIIIIIIiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIIIII IIICE to me! I'd certainly take up that offer!!!!!!!! mrowl!!!!!!!

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Lluhnij In reply to PoldalleLovesnare [2007-06-11 07:31:09 +0000 UTC]

Let's say, then, that I like the idea of stirring the knowledge that's spread around the world... I collect it here and there and then scatter it around again. I'd say it fits me well, lol!
(Thank you for restraining yourself from throwing things at me, much appreciated! And that you will tell me when I'm to boring and/or annoying. Thank you!)

Uhm... looks like we're having a good time right now ^^ Love it! Lol!

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PoldalleLovesnare In reply to Lluhnij [2007-06-12 03:19:05 +0000 UTC]

lol! that sounds about right to me hehehee and, aye, it's a good idea to do with information Better to try to continue to spread it and make it well known so that it can help others' lives as well

lol! I'm not a "throw things at people" type of person..... often..... lol besides ...I have horrible aim, I tend to miss lol heheee

lol indeed!

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Opalseadragon [2007-05-15 21:33:13 +0000 UTC]

Fantastic drawing hun, the detail is so good........... I'd love to see it coloured

Blessed be
Opal

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Lluhnij In reply to Opalseadragon [2007-05-16 05:28:45 +0000 UTC]

You're too kind with me, I can already see some mistakes!
I'd love to paint it though, I have it in my mind in a coloured version, just let's see if I can make it, I'm always too short of time!
In any case, thank you dear!

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