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lydia-san — Trapping One's Inner Voice
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Published: 2015-07-05 17:23:24 +0000 UTC; Views: 2757; Favourites: 39; Downloads: 2
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In this world, there are so many bad things. When I was little, whenever I saw a bad guy suffered, I felt pity. I didn't judge him for what he's done, I wasn't angry, I knew everyone got a second chance. All I had was mercy.As I grew up, that inner voice faded, being pushed away by this evil world. Reality came in, the bad guys got what they deserve. They did bad things, and when I saw them suffer, I would say, "no wonder".
One day... when I was down, and all I did is stayed in my room... contemplating... A familiar voice was again heard--the sound of my heart. She came back in my solitude, and I was listening.
This girl in the picture symbolizes my inner voice, the purest part of my soul, being chained and gagged so that she cannot speak to bring my sanity back. I've thrown her away to the deepest part of my heart, ignoring her, becoming more like the evil world. But one time of solitude brought her back. She is speaking. I am listening.
This is my entry for 's contest: What makes you sad?
Well, what makes me sad is losing my inner voice, trapping her to the deepest part of my heart.
Link to the contest journal: another-art-group.deviantart.c…
I also did this for 100 themes challenge #96: Trapped
Link to 100 themes fehnwrites.deviantart.com/art/…
And the group for it
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Comments: 56
Oh, thank you. It's nice to know that someone actually understands your feelings.
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Yep! We're in the same padded room!
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I don't think thats a good idea.
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Harlot: Guess we're going to be together... for a loooong time.
Better start digging at the walls with your fingers...
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Oh no... hahahahhahahaha *starts digging*
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Hahahahahahahahahaha...
*Pounces*
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Again I love this but I'm not quite sure how to put across my feelings from it into words. It's like when you see or watch something that makes you feel reflective about yourself, you feel it as a feeling more-so than in words you can tell to someone else if that makes sense, yet you can also feel empathy towards the person you're seeing going through what they're going through too.
But on a lighter note, as a compliment to your inner voice as symbolized here, she kinda looks like Lady Gaga to me
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Ah thank you so much for your deep interpretation 
Seriously?? *browse for Lady Gaga* Ooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
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You're very much welcome, and you're really good at this too
Um... That's not a bad thing, is it? At least I don't think so
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No,, of course that's not a bad thing!! 
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Oh good 
Aw, and thank you ^_^ You too.
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That's a very nice point, and a great drawing. I remember recently, when the final verdict for Dzhokhar Tsarnaev (the boston bomber) was announced and it was decided that he would get the death penalty, everyone was celebrating and laughing at him for his fate. It just broke my heart. He's my age, and I know he did something absolutely awful, but I don't think his death should be celebrated.
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Feehhnn thank you so much
Ah.. yeah that was really sad T_T actually, no one's death is to be celebrated. They need more help I guess T_T
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Omg Lydia you're making me so saaad ;n;
But in all seriousness... I try to hang on to my innocence as long as I can. I don't hold grudges against others... I try my hardest not to. If someone has done something wrong in their lives, I try to understand their point of view... instead of lash out at them. It gets hard though... because that voice that told me "They're just misunderstood, hurt and unacknowledged" has become slightly more judgmental and vain with time, as if society was sucking out the pure innocence of my heart. I want to be child-like for life... I don't want to let go of the thing that makes me, me! I just want to be a kind, compassionate person... and help other people. Why should I let go of this feeling? ._.
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Nooo don't be sad vivi
Me too, I want to grow old without growing up. I wanna keep the pure heart, but sometimes it's just too hard. Especially when we are too busy and tired to stop for a second and contemplate. I guess all this time the most important method to keep this inner voice is contemplating every once in a while. Have I been good? Or am I becoming like them?
But the "time" is getting harder and harder to find. And somehow I would get to the point where I feel so lost... and frustrated.
It's too hard to keep a single candle lighting while the whole world consists of dark winds that try to blow the fire away
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You will keep your pure heart, I know it Lydia 
I always try to feel that inner little voice inside of me... everyday, it nags me: it warns me to be careful. I get these feelings to do the right thing... all the time. I can't quite explain it. It sounds a little crazy, but it's true. I always feel like there's still that piece of innocence in my life watching over me... and it nags me. It's a presence that never quite leaves me, and I'm thankful when it's there. It helps me avoid a dangerous path, and helps me find success. I always listen to it... because it's right. Maybe my inner voice is still there... nagging my heart... preventing myself from making mistakes... and as long as I get those feelings to do the right thing, I can still live my life with peace...
I honestly think everyone has this voice in their head, that never completely leaves or fades... and is always there, but must be brought to the surface. Because everyone has a beautiful soul to start out with in this world, but when corruption hits them: they lose touch of their inner beauty, and what makes them so beautiful as people... but despite that, that little voice might always still be there, nagging them... telling them to change what's in their hearts.
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I hope you're right Vivi. I hope we both will always keep our inner voice no matter what happens
I also believe it's one of the God's way to tell us the right path.
Anyway... now that I'm thinking about it... it would be a lot easier to do in groups... for example if you have a family or a group of friend who aim for the same goal... or sth like that. Would be great
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I hope I'm right as well...
And I believe that too c: That's why I think it'll always be around. Because God simply just doesn't "disappear." Once he's there, he stays no matter what.
That would be awesome <333 I'd like to see something like that happen.
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I used to have a group like that. But we doesn't talk much lately... Everyone's just busy. But I hope we could be there for each other in difficult times
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It's good that you have one at least
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Aahhh yess I hope so
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Hopefully one day, that will be the case c: I at least have a few friends who do.
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They are good friends, after all c:
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This is so relatable ;-; <3 Great work as always
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Amazing image...It's creepy, yet beautiful...You did a great job <3
As for the description...I know how you feel... I'm still young and learning, but I'm starting to lose my inner voice...That's why I love writing. I have the ability to write from the perspective of the "bad guys" and realize what they're doing and why. It lets me stop for a moment and think about how there is evil in this world, but more than that, there is gray. Very rarely do you find pure good or pure evil...And that's why second chances and forgiveness is important <3
Sorry for the little rant ^.^' What you wrote just really touched me, and made me think about one of the reasons I want to become an author: To show this world and the people in it aren't just good and bad, but gray.
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Aaah thank you so much!!!
Noooo don't lose it!! When I was younger and had more free time, I used to write a diary about my feelings. Every once in a while I read them, and that's how I usually got my inner voice back. It was like, "OMG I was really kind and genuine back then. How could I be so cruel now?"
Indeed the forgiveness is the most important thing. But sometimes we are weak and give in to anger. There are just a lot of guys doing crazy stuffs out there, and I couldn't seem to get into their minds... Probably it just take a pure heart to forgive. Understanding is not the most important thing anyway, since we cannot always understand people who are different from us.
And it's totally okay to rant, we share the same problem and I'm glad to know your perspective
thank you for sharing this.
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You're welcome <3
I'm really trying not to...That's actually a good idea, I might try it sometime and see if I can stop my inner voice from being lost. I also pray when I'm lost and unsure of where it's gone, so perhaps I should try to pray more than I do now...
I guess you have a point...I can understand my "villains" because they usually aren't afraid to reveal to me their motives being characters in my book, or I can at least get them to with time, but most real people living in this world I just don't get and have trouble becoming or don't even want to become close to. And obviously, most people won't tell you what's on their mind unless they trust you and even then only about certain things, and certainly not the darker ones...The main thing about writing, however, that helps me with forgiveness is that I'm given the chance to write characters who can either decide to forgive or decide to kill the "villains." I'm sorry, I'm a very big writer and I try to stick towards gray characters in my stories, and I also often use forgiveness rather than, "let's kill all the villains" in the minds of a few of the protagonists ^.^' It's hard for me to explain, and I don't want to go into a huge rant, but often writing about forgiveness helps me to learn to be a bit more forgiving in the real world, even if I can't understand people's reasons in this world and still don't trust the majority of people...
I don't really know what to do, so I've decided I'm just gonna try not to hate a person or hold a grudge on them for what they've done. Maybe I can't always find the strength to forgive them right away, but I'll try to not feel anger directed towards them all the time and work little by little...And hopefully others will try to do the same, though I have no control over them, and they have to think for themselves.
It was nice talking to you about this, and I agree <3 No problem at all, thanks for listening to me
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Aaahh no problem
Thank you for sharing your thoughts too. It's really nice to hear feedback from others... I could learn a lot of things
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No problem! I agree with you! I love hearing others' thoughts and opinions, it opens you up to a whole new point of view
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oooooo, this is so cool!
Second... I totally relate to this. I often wish we could live in a more understanding and open society. A lot of the bad things that happen wouldn't even happen in the first place if we did, as most people that do bad things are just messed up and sad... Our society isn't exactly easy to live in, especially if you don't fit the mold that only 1% of us can truly fit in to. I wish we could see that even most of the "bad" people... are not really bad... it's or society that is the culprit in most cases.
Your image and words are really moving, you did a wonderful job getting your point across!
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Oooooh thank you so much
And the glowing green = poison is just... perfect. Tbh I didn't think about it, I just put green to create more creepy appearance, but poison suits more perfectly
Yes I believe so. Nothing is totally right and wrong. Even bad people have their own story
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Oh cool, I'm glad you don't mind that I saw it that way~
Totally! I wish for a more understanding world~ I understand keeping people away from others when they have hurt others, but we wouldn't have to do it as often if they didn't feel so alienated in the first place~
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Aahh yeah it's like a vicious cycle here... and it's still going on T_T
But I do believe that just a little bit of kindness can make this world a better place
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I wonder why so many people have such a hard time seeing this? It's true, just by being kind we each can change the world a little, kindness is contagious~
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At the turn of each moment, I have found a person who is an artist, a comedian, a sweetie, a healer and most of all a human being. Not an avatar but a three dimensional person and Lydia we are all the richer for knowing you.
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Aaahhh thank you so much Cat
Yes I'm totally a human being, with all the weaknesses.
And thank you, I'm definitely much richer knowing you
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It's so much more epic and sad when you read it out loud - I always read stuff out loud when I can - not only because I'm always improving my pronounciation but also it helps me immerse into the world and feel what the author does. This time it really greatened the impact - I found your little confession touching.
Great job on the picture, too!
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Aaah thank you so much
It hurt a lot when I realized this. And it's also sad that lots of people haven't realized this yet
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