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My efforts to understand Christianity both internally and externally have continued. Understanding the external manifestations of Christianity has meant reading a number of medieval chronicles over the last half year or so. Ive read Bede's Ecclesiastical History of the English People and Gregory of Tours History of The Franks. Both of these books were amazing. They greatly expanded my mind, filled in an incredible knowledge gap regarding the centuries following the collapse of the Roman Empire, and they both traumatized and filled me with wonder. Bede, an Anglican monk, and Gregory, a Frankish Bishop, will describe whole villages wiped out by famine/plague and corresponding feats of Martyrdom and Miracles within the same chapter. Kings will flay, draw and quarter and put the pinchers to a number of their rivals, and nuns will be lifted into the sky by god upon death. Most Importantly they both give detailed overviews of the formation of early European territories and the development of the church, as different Germanic Tribes spread across the former territories of Rome. Ive also just finished a modern history of the first Crusades by Steve Runciaman and cant wait to read The Alexiad by Anna Komnene.

To study Christianity internally, Ive been begun praying everyday. To do this Ive been using the 1662 book of common prayer. Because Im in school Ive mostly gone through the Evening Song liturgy which begins with "When the wicked man hath turned away from his wickedness that he hath committed, and doth that which is lawful and right, he shall save his soul alive." Following this, a number of other bible passages are quoted, then some early Christian prayers, the lords prayer, the apostles creed, various collects, and versus asking for forgiveness. You have stop three times in the text to read psalms(about six a day), two chapters from the old testment and two from the new. It's an incredibly demanding liturgy/prayer, most fitting to the time it was written. I had an incredible mystical experience reading through it though, and I guess I'll share it. I went to my car to do the morning prayer(Matins) during work, privately behind the steering wheel. I was going through it slowly, when about a third of the way through my entire body was gripped by this surging experience of love - almost erotic. I felt like I was going to explode. It a was an extordinarliy unusual experience, that seemed to be brought about as I was going through a verse thanking god, in a soft and maybe loving voice? Anyways, if Im being totally honest, this surging erotic/love seemed to even grab my private parts! And I decided to not fight it. I put the book down just to sit with it, and when I did so, I felt this presence come up through my body and kiss my mouth. Like this spiritual force came up through the inside of me, melded with my body and kissed me! I was obviously blown away, thinking "I cant believe this is happening." When I eventually picked the book back to where I left off, I read a verse about impregnateing the barren widow, and making her give birth! Right as it was gripping my privates! Anyway I know this is oversharing to the 11th degree. Ive had several of these sort of groundbreaking, paradigm shifting experiences now, and if people are afraid to share them, the bland world of Materialist reductionism, will just continue to reign.

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www.youtube.com/watch?v=J_xICh…

My efforts to understand Christianity both internally and externally have continued. Understanding the external manifestations of Christianity has meant reading a number of medieval chronicles over the last half year or so. Ive read Bede's Ecclesiastical History of the English People and Gregory of Tours History of The Franks. Both of these books were amazing. They greatly expanded my mind, filled in an incredible knowledge gap regarding the centuries following the collapse of the Roman Empire, and they both traumatized and filled me with wonder. Bede, an Anglican monk, and Gregory, a Frankish Bishop, will describe whole villages wiped out by famine/plague and corresponding feats of Martyrdom and Miracles within the same chapter. Kings will flay, draw and quarter and put the pinchers to a number of their rivals, and nuns will be lifted into the sky by god upon death. Most Importantly they both give detailed overviews of the formation of early European territories and the development of the church, as different Germanic Tribes spread across the former territories of Rome. Ive also just finished a modern history of the first Crusades by Steve Runciaman and cant wait to read The Alexiad by Anna Komnene.

To study Christianity internally, Ive been begun praying everyday. To do this Ive been using the 1662 book of common prayer. Because Im in school Ive mostly gone through the Evening Song liturgy which begins with "When the wicked man hath turned away from his wickedness that he hath committed, and doth that which is lawful and right, he shall save his soul alive." Following this, a number of other bible passages are quoted, then some early Christian prayers, the lords prayer, the apostles creed, various collects, and versus asking for forgiveness. You have stop three times in the text to read psalms(about six a day), two chapters from the old testment and two from the new. It's an incredibly demanding liturgy/prayer, most fitting to the time it was written. I had an incredible mystical experience reading through it though, and I guess I'll share it. I went to my car to do the morning prayer(Matins) during work, privately behind the steering wheel. I was going through it slowly, when about a third of the way through my entire body was gripped by this surging experience of love - almost erotic. I felt like I was going to explode. It a was an extordinarliy unusual experience, that seemed to be brought about as I was going through a verse thanking god, in a soft and maybe loving voice? Anyways, if Im being totally honest, this surging erotic/love seemed to even grab my private parts! And I decided to not fight it. I put the book down just to sit with it, and when I did so, I felt this presence come up through my body and kiss my mouth. Like this spiritual force came up through the inside of me, melded with my body and kissed me! I was obviously blown away, thinking "I cant believe this is happening." When I eventually picked the book back to where I left off, I read a verse about impregnateing the barren widow, and making her give birth! Right as it was gripping my privates! Anyway I know this is oversharing to the 11th degree. Ive had several of these sort of groundbreaking, paradigm shifting experiences now, and if people are afraid to share them, the bland world of Materialist reductionism, will just continue to reign.