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Matsuyu — YOU'VE LOST CONTROL INSIDE
Published: 2012-07-27 15:09:15 +0000 UTC; Views: 339; Favourites: 20; Downloads: 6
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OKAY GUYS, LAUGH AT ME NOW BUT I SCARED MYSELF DRAWING THIS. TRUE STORY. I SCARED MYSELF.I was so bored after I drew that picture of Dave. I wanted to draw John, but I was like meh when I heard 'Ten Black Roses' by The Rasmus on my iTunes. And so I went to their album in my playlist and started listening.
then I heard 'Lost and Lonely' ESPECIALLY AT THIS PART.
Why am I devastated
You threw it all away
Now who's the one who's lost and lonely
I gotta break away from you
Who will pay for all the things you've done
I'm not the only one
You're out of control inside
I don't need x ray vision
To see all the desperate signs
You made your heart a prison
I took it all out of fear of losing you
In the valley of deception
There is a river of tears
Why am I devastated
You threw it all away
Now who's the one who's lost and lonely
I gotta break away from you
Who will pay for all the things you've done
I'm not the only one
So many nights, so many fights
So many days, too easy to erase
Why am I devastated
You threw it all away
Now who's the one who's lost and lonely
I gotta break away from you
Who will pay for all the things you've done
I'm not the only one
so I was like holy shit... I have to draw this shit.
And when I drew this, examining it, AND THE WAY I DREW HER EYES AS IF SHE WAS LOOKING AT ME.
I honestly got really scared. laugh at me but I got scared.
oh cod what am I doing to myself...
should I put a warning on this?
no.
it doesn't scare you. I bet. but man I'm SCARED AS FUUUUCK
Naoyuki Kijou (c) Me.
KHR (c) Akira Amano
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This is do good! I love this! This is so emotional, I'd kill to draw like like this. Such gory!
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haha thank you dear! Not really emotional, rather more psychopathic who doesn't want to be blamed. She's insane anyway ^^
Ugh, I'd kill to draw worse things ; w ;
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It's so awesome. I'm begging you, please, don't delete it. It's so good, the rawness of her psycopathy is equal to Azula's in LoK. Swear, I love it. I wish I can draw Yuki as someone capable of the Rain and Cloud Flame and raw like yours.
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hehe I won't delete it 
Oh, my Naoyuki has no Rain Flames, though she is the Cloud Guardian of her family :33
You can always try to make an OC that has this sheer aura of strength and eerieness ^^
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I ended up with a blunt OC, who's boyish and bored...and out of bookish boredom, ended up mastering throwing knives - and getting hired by Reborn. But I still love her.
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That's actually interesting and amusing ^^
It's great you love her~
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Thanks. Problem is, sometimes, I have too many ideas on drawing her as a fighter.
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NOO, DON'T DELETE IT! It's so good! Scary, but good! Especially for me, since I can't draw intense stuff like this! Call me disturbing, but I love the way you drew the blood dripping - especially on the folds of her bandana. Ugh, it looks so good!!
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PSSSH SHOULD I BE HAPPY I WASN'T WATCHING SILENT HILL WHILE DRAWING THIS?
Well, it's been a few weeks since I drew anything this intense and bloody. When I was younger, I drew so many bloody things, so I have an experience with drawing blood.
It's been a while so I'm kinda freaked out.
Last time when I drew those kinds of pictures, I was 11.
Thank you though ^^
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...Silent Hill? That... would have been deeply frightening. O.o
I mainly can't do blood because I can never get it to flow right! It just looks like lame paint splatters when I do it OTL
I remember drawing one of those huge, spectral black dogs (like the Grim) when I was a little kid. And I was all, "Mommy, mommy, look what I drew in art class today!" And my mom got so scared, she threw it out and had a long talk with my art teacher about the "limits of creativity she encourages in class". Jeez Mother!
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Oh I am just happy I wasn't watching it while drawing it, dear lord.
Ugh, that's why I don't draw blood that much lol.
DUDE WTF THAT IS SO COOL DAFJAFKDGAD
I MEAN
ALL I DREW WERE FLOWERS.
and when I turned 11, bad shit came to my life...
so I drew dark things, my parents got mad at me and actually made things worse.
now, they're not my problem anymore.
other things.
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I DUNNO BUT I HAVE TO STOP READING CREEPYPASTA.
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AND I GOTTA BE A HAPPIER PERSON.
HMPH.
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HJDFAGDDA
I NEED TO BE HAPPIER.
NOT CRABBIER
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OH COD I DO FEEL HAPPIER THIS IS SO WEIRD
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YOU KNOW.
IF ONLY SOMEONE IN REAL LIFE WERE LIKE HIM.
HNNGH
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BTW I ACCIDENTALY CLOSED ONE OF OR COMMENT CONVERSATIONS, IF I DONT RESPOND TO IT IT IS BECAUSE I DIDNT HAVE THE TIME TO READ WHAT YOU ANSWERD ME TT
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HSFAHDGDA IT'S OKAY
IT HAPPENS TO ME AS WELL
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no it's fine C:
I do that a lot too
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I LOVE IRONIC PEOPLE SERIOUSLY AND I LIEK HIS HUMOUR
But irl i'll find him a bit full of himself (and feel like crap compared to this cool kid)
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I like those kind of guys, if you didn't know. ; w ;
they pretty much play off as my role models for being awesome lol
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I see xD My ex "kismesiss" (remember ?) was actually a bit like Dave (In less cool and less handsome) but he had the same humour. I think I've started to romanticly avoid these boys since I broke up with me for joking about my weight
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I see. But it's okay since we have different experiences.
As for me, the guys I hang out with, half of the number are like Dave, also less cool and pretty much ugly. most of them haha, but they are funny to hang out with.
It pretty much depends on experiences!
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That won't happen to you because you have more self confidence, well at least you sound like it x)
Now I'm attracted to clever guys. I'm the only one xD And I LOVE MEN IN SUITS SO MUCH
(When I read the first sentence again I'm starting to wonder if I'm a bit like Tavros oo)
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It's based on experience with others, as I explained ^^
YOU'RE NOT ALONE. I LOVE THEM TOO.
Well, that's just you in the internet.
Who knows what you're like in real life ^^
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OH GOOD, I FEEL LESS WEIRD XD
Haha, I'm sooo bossy at school sometimes I even find myself boring x) And I'm quite sarcastic, pervert and...I nonsense things someitmes xDD
As for the qualities I can't tell
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MANY OF MY RELATIVES LOVE THEM TOO HAHA
Oh lol, I'm exactly like that
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Absolutely.
I'm thinking of deleting this from existence, but it's my Nao bby.
I scare myself with such things. Either I'm going mental or I keep going to read Creepypasta.
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I never will ever see nao as a gangbanger, but now....
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gangbanger? //need vocabulary help// and no offense I didn't mean to draw something this disturbing.
Maybe in the end I realized I really had a lot of pent up anger, sadness and stress.
I may have scared myself with this, but I somehow felt a bit better... I guess there were things I didn't know I was mad at or frustrated about.
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No it's totally fine! XD its an american phrase
Well you know what, I am always here to walk you through it dear C: you know that
also random but i found the sexiest suits ever the thought Ferro should totally wear one [link]
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Well i searched it up and i understand < u > she isn't too violent~
Of course zia~ of course,~
OH-LEE-SEET.
DGHADHFDFGDKA
YOU ARE SO AMAZING ZIA.
SO AMAZING
I SHOULD DRAW HIM IN THOSE
ALL OF THEM.
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I know, but the look is definitely cliche to those people XD Nao don't try to look gangster youre classy the way you are<3
yaaaay i am always open to helpppp~
IKR. SEXY OUTFITS
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similar in a way, to me that is ahehe~
now that you said it, I have this funny headcanon, Nao wears those kinds of clothes when she's out to go on missions so that her more classy and stylish clothes are spared ; u ;
THOSE OUTFITS ARE SO DAFHGDSADAD HNNNGH
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Makes sense XD ana usually does the same thing XD
THEYY AREEEEE
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so yeah hehehe, guess I have a reason for making Nao look not too classy at times lol
I HAVE TO DRAW FERRO IN THOSE.
HNGH
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Well Nao's generally a class girl XD LOL
GO FOR IT. I SHALL READY YEVA'S TISSUE BOX.
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