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Published: 2007-12-06 13:18:53 +0000 UTC; Views: 221; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 3
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“This half was written a while ago”Today my little one was supposed to be the first day of the rest of your life,
Today my little one u were supposed to take your first breath,
Today my little one u were supposed to cry for the first time,
Today my little one u were supposed to scream for the first time,
Today my little one was the day where the doctor was suppose to ask me what shall you name him and I would answer proudly with tears of joy “Kiilani”,
Today my little one you were supposed to be on my chest for the first time,
Today my little one I was supposed to count your 10 fingers and your 10 toes,
Today my little one I was supposed to touch you, caress you and kiss you for the first time,
Today my little one I was suppose to tell you “welcome to the world my little Son, I’m your Daddy.
… But
”This half 12/06/07”
Today I will not welcome you into this world because I told you goodbye over a year ago,
Today you will not take a breath, because you stopped breathing so long ago,
You screamed your silent scream when the doctor ripped you out of her,
Today I will not cuddle you like I have dreamed of for so long,
Today I will not count your 10 fingers or toes because … you were ripped into million pieces by the doctor that day.
Today my little one I will not name you Kiilani,
Today my little one my heart will be screaming, but not for the first time, it didn’t stop since that awful day,
Today, like yesterday, like tomorrow and like forever I will cry all the tears of my soul and tell you how much I love you.
Today you will be dancing with the angels in the heavens,
Please my little one, please my Son, forgive me for what I have done to you,
I stopped living the day you went away, I beg you my little star to forgive me and ask God to forgive me so we can, one day soon I hope be together for the eternity…
I love you my Kiilani.
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This hurts. I feel pain when reading this. I'm sorry for what happened and hope your suffering eases with time.
May I ask what Kiilani means, it's a beautiful name.
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it means sent to heaven! It is pronounced Key ee lawn ee
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