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I looked up from my slowly getting cold coffee. He sat opposite me. With a serious expression, which almost broke my heart a second time. "Why do I see you?" He looked me blankly in the eyes. "I don't know. Accept it." The clock ticked faster and faster around us. Maybe he had noticed. "I don't want to. I don't want you to be here. But I can't stand it when you're gone." He ran his fingers through his unmade hair. I hadn't noticed that they were unmade. "You bird are just lonely. Nobody wants you." I should have replied to that but I remained silent. I didn't have the strength to attack or defend myself. A spider roped down in front of me. But I only got half of that because he started talking again. "Ugh! Hell!" As soon as these words had come over his lips, his face turned green and he vomited. Small scratches began to hurt my arm, but I ignored that. "I should have done so much different. I should have done so much better." "No. I accept you as you are." The sudden smile on his lips was irritating. "You do not hate me? I could have sworn you're leaving now. Forever." "Huh? How so? No!" Tears filled my eyes. "Can't you decide or don't you want it? I need peace. I need so much rest. He leaned forward. "I'm not here for myself. That's pretty meaningful to you, right? Do you know that I used to be like that? Without self-confidence. That has changed, don't you think?" The strawberry ice cream in the coffee had melted for a long time, but I didn't taste either. I felt like vomiting too. "We talk past each other. We have always done that." A long silence. A silence that felt like it would last for almost a month. A video call came in. He hung up immediately. "Sry. I came on it." I stared at him. Unable to say something. SAG SOMETHING it screamed in my head. Say something exciting, funny, nice. ANYTHING! But no sound left my throat. My cellphone rang. The asked alarm clock. YOU HAVE TO GO! I jumped up. "I missed my train!" "Which train? Where do you want to go? " "Home. I have to go home!" And suddenly he said nothing at all. Suddenly he just stared at me. No sign of life. Til today. Until now.

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I looked up from my slowly getting cold coffee. He sat opposite me. With a serious expression, which almost broke my heart a second time. "Why do I see you?" He looked me blankly in the eyes. "I don't know. Accept it." The clock ticked faster and faster around us. Maybe he had noticed. "I don't want to. I don't want you to be here. But I can't stand it when you're gone." He ran his fingers through his unmade hair. I hadn't noticed that they were unmade. "You bird are just lonely. Nobody wants you." I should have replied to that but I remained silent. I didn't have the strength to attack or defend myself. A spider roped down in front of me. But I only got half of that because he started talking again. "Ugh! Hell!" As soon as these words had come over his lips, his face turned green and he vomited. Small scratches began to hurt my arm, but I ignored that. "I should have done so much different. I should have done so much better." "No. I accept you as you are." The sudden smile on his lips was irritating. "You do not hate me? I could have sworn you're leaving now. Forever." "Huh? How so? No!" Tears filled my eyes. "Can't you decide or don't you want it? I need peace. I need so much rest. He leaned forward. "I'm not here for myself. That's pretty meaningful to you, right? Do you know that I used to be like that? Without self-confidence. That has changed, don't you think?" The strawberry ice cream in the coffee had melted for a long time, but I didn't taste either. I felt like vomiting too. "We talk past each other. We have always done that." A long silence. A silence that felt like it would last for almost a month. A video call came in. He hung up immediately. "Sry. I came on it." I stared at him. Unable to say something. SAG SOMETHING it screamed in my head. Say something exciting, funny, nice. ANYTHING! But no sound left my throat. My cellphone rang. The asked alarm clock. YOU HAVE TO GO! I jumped up. "I missed my train!" "Which train? Where do you want to go? " "Home. I have to go home!" And suddenly he said nothing at all. Suddenly he just stared at me. No sign of life. Til today. Until now.