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Momodeary — Redemption and Resolve

Published: 2010-04-30 21:07:49 +0000 UTC; Views: 1752; Favourites: 53; Downloads: 0
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Have you ever felt like you've said something so stupid, and so hurtful, that it seems as if you've taken out your own heart and stabbed it over and over?
I try my best to live a life without regret, but it's hard to decide if what you want to say really is what you WANT. When you keep something bottled up and let it fester, instead of letting it out early, it really confuses your interests and feelings. Especially to those around you.
I feel as if I've confused all my thoughts into one pitiful array of backlash. And I hope I can redeem myself as someone who attracted the love of another, and kept it going strong with lots of memories, laughs, accomplishments and more to follow.
I watched Pulp Fiction again recently, and there's a line in the movie where Vincent takes Mia on a date. They're at a diner and not talking, Mia says
"Don't you just hate it. Those comfortable silences you get with another person because you're just so compatible that you don't have to say shit and it feels like you know everything about each other? I hate how obvious they are."
That line made me laugh, I could totally relate to it. You don't need to bullshit on about total nonsense to be comfortable, it's just that warm feeling you get when you're near them, and it can sometimes be better than the talking.
It's also not good to think too much. When you think, you worry, and I do it too often. sometimes, it's not even my fault, someone just says something, and I can't stop thinking about it. I've decided to not do that anymore, and just tell the person to STFU. I know what's going on in my life, I don't need others to make assumptions. And alongside that, if I ever come up with my own thought, I will address the problem immediately, and not play stupid games to avoid it, and hope that they notice. I love them too much to make them suffer at my own selfish expense.
Redemption and Resolve.
The two most important words in my category right now.
They keep me from hating myself.

True life lessons sure hit you the hardest.
And some really work into you.
Learning a lot still, glad I'm not doing it alone, but with someone I love with all my heart.

(c) Momo-Deary
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Comments: 15

Istriel [2010-05-22 09:09:14 +0000 UTC]

Whooa ! This one is so gorgeous !!!!

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wolfgirl24 [2010-05-01 21:11:01 +0000 UTC]

damn! this is hella good great job!

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Momodeary In reply to wolfgirl24 [2010-05-01 21:20:48 +0000 UTC]

lol, thanks! Still have to do your b-day pic!!! I still have the image in my head

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wolfgirl24 In reply to Momodeary [2010-05-02 00:19:18 +0000 UTC]

lol I can't even imagine what your thinking of doing

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Momodeary In reply to wolfgirl24 [2010-05-03 02:25:38 +0000 UTC]

Don't worry, nothing crazy, it will be cute!

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wolfgirl24 In reply to Momodeary [2010-05-03 15:00:23 +0000 UTC]

lol i trust you, but with those three words who knows what you can come up with

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Annamari-annie [2010-05-01 01:57:24 +0000 UTC]

d'awww that was gorgeous
I loved what you wrote, I can totally relate to many thing you said, about the constant thinking, the silences.....
Also, great picture
I really enjoy this oriental style with truly beautiful warm colors
I dare say, it's superb

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Momodeary In reply to Annamari-annie [2010-05-01 03:09:19 +0000 UTC]

haha, I guess every girl goes through that, huh? It feels good to realize it though!
Thanks hun!
lol, omg, haven't gotten far in that meme yet, been super busy! D:

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LolitaNekoDanii [2010-05-01 00:58:45 +0000 UTC]

Soo beautiful!

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Momodeary In reply to LolitaNekoDanii [2010-05-01 03:09:44 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!

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LolitaNekoDanii In reply to Momodeary [2010-05-01 03:10:38 +0000 UTC]

Welcomes! Your art is so pretty!

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Momodeary In reply to LolitaNekoDanii [2010-05-01 03:15:04 +0000 UTC]

awwww~ you're too sweet!

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LolitaNekoDanii In reply to Momodeary [2010-05-01 04:00:17 +0000 UTC]

Aww thankies~ BUT I DO LOVE YOUR ART!

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rmm-uchihalover [2010-04-30 23:36:18 +0000 UTC]

Wow, that was beautiful : ) The picture and what you wrote.

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Momodeary In reply to rmm-uchihalover [2010-05-01 00:05:40 +0000 UTC]

Haha, I was worried people would think what I wrote was weird! D: I really needed to get it off my chest though, thanks!

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