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Description
To be a mother
No, your mother
You need guidance
So don’t yell at me

You, on the other hand
Don’t know what’s wrong
So you scream at me
And I shout back

Why am I yelling back?
I’ll just let you know
I’m not mad with you
I’m frustrated with this

Can’t choose a side
No one can
I’m one of them
Who stands alone here

Crying with my fingers
Threaded through my hair
Tears falling upon my cheeks
Lining them gruesomely

Still hiding my feelings

If only I could be held
I don’t want the luxury of your help
No one can save me
Not even you

I have an explanation
A definition, a short line
That describes everything
About each and every one of you

So tell me, can you define
“Me”
And who I am to you

You call me ‘mom’
Don’t call me that
I’m supposed to be ‘sis’
A kid sister

Or a best friend to you
Not the enemy just because
I’m trying to control the situation
But now I’m just ‘mom’ to you

You call me
A ‘bitch’
Am I that for not taking your side
Or just because you can yell at me

I’m still unbothered

You, however,
You call me ‘love’
You say you care
I don’t need your adoration

Not now, it’ll make me sob
Because I’m close enough
For you to break me

FW: Row, Chas, ‘Chell

That’s why I’m distant
That’s the answer
To all of your questions
But, please, I beg

Let go of me
So I can stand farther away
But you hold me tightly
Say again, ‘it’s okay’

To watch over you
Wait for you to fly
‘Get off my case’
You sound like a moody teen

And I could just laugh at you
Your stupidity

You give me the finger
I’m not shocked
I gave you an order
And you just ignored

My advice,
Useless
Unheard
Shards of glass

I could yell at you
But stop, I’m hesitant
‘Find out what’s wrong!’
No, you just walk away

Look back once more
Maybe, but that’s all

No, you’re not here to comfort me
So I break and take one more try
At pain, anger… Death so sweet
Stress it’s still controlling me

Attacking my sanity

But you’re not going to know
I’m such a coward
I won’t say a word
And you’ll stare happily

At my face emotionless
Like always

I’m about to break
If I haven’t already broken
Under pressure, can I just explode?
No, I’ll leave everything untold

You’re depressed
And still smiling at me
Yeah, I can’t return it
Not completely at least

You’re still telling me
Of the idiotic things
You’ve done today
And you tell me of your friends

I just nod, listen
I cannot become a part of this

And you, you’re not here

But yet here I am
Studying the three of you
Each of whom I have no trust in
But do you study me

Because here’s a quick overlook of all of us
Let’s see if I’m right

Without purpose

I’m in the middle of this mess…

You’re confused…

You’re ignorant…

You’re masked…

Description
To be a mother
No, your mother
You need guidance
So don’t yell at me

You, on the other hand
Don’t know what’s wrong
So you scream at me
And I shout back

Why am I yelling back?
I’ll just let you know
I’m not mad with you
I’m frustrated with this

Can’t choose a side
No one can
I’m one of them
Who stands alone here

Crying with my fingers
Threaded through my hair
Tears falling upon my cheeks
Lining them gruesomely

Still hiding my feelings

If only I could be held
I don’t want the luxury of your help
No one can save me
Not even you

I have an explanation
A definition, a short line
That describes everything
About each and every one of you

So tell me, can you define
“Me”
And who I am to you

You call me ‘mom’
Don’t call me that
I’m supposed to be ‘sis’
A kid sister

Or a best friend to you
Not the enemy just because
I’m trying to control the situation
But now I’m just ‘mom’ to you

You call me
A ‘bitch’
Am I that for not taking your side
Or just because you can yell at me

I’m still unbothered

You, however,
You call me ‘love’
You say you care
I don’t need your adoration

Not now, it’ll make me sob
Because I’m close enough
For you to break me

FW: Row, Chas, ‘Chell

That’s why I’m distant
That’s the answer
To all of your questions
But, please, I beg

Let go of me
So I can stand farther away
But you hold me tightly
Say again, ‘it’s okay’

To watch over you
Wait for you to fly
‘Get off my case’
You sound like a moody teen

And I could just laugh at you
Your stupidity

You give me the finger
I’m not shocked
I gave you an order
And you just ignored

My advice,
Useless
Unheard
Shards of glass

I could yell at you
But stop, I’m hesitant
‘Find out what’s wrong!’
No, you just walk away

Look back once more
Maybe, but that’s all

No, you’re not here to comfort me
So I break and take one more try
At pain, anger… Death so sweet
Stress it’s still controlling me

Attacking my sanity

But you’re not going to know
I’m such a coward
I won’t say a word
And you’ll stare happily

At my face emotionless
Like always

I’m about to break
If I haven’t already broken
Under pressure, can I just explode?
No, I’ll leave everything untold

You’re depressed
And still smiling at me
Yeah, I can’t return it
Not completely at least

You’re still telling me
Of the idiotic things
You’ve done today
And you tell me of your friends

I just nod, listen
I cannot become a part of this

And you, you’re not here

But yet here I am
Studying the three of you
Each of whom I have no trust in
But do you study me

Because here’s a quick overlook of all of us
Let’s see if I’m right

Without purpose

I’m in the middle of this mess…

You’re confused…

You’re ignorant…

You’re masked…