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As an individual progresses through their life they sometimes encounter a special someone that eventually makes an impact on them helping them to better understand who they are. My special someone was named Jackie.
I've always been insecure about relationships; it's just the way I am. One can say I am wrong for longing for the touch of another even while already in a relationship, but another can say that monogamy doesn't work. One thing is for certain though, too much or too little time with another can affect a relationship. I unfortunately, didn't get to spend enough time with the one I loved.
It was summer 2009, I had been texting with my friend Jacqueline, whom I referred to as Jackie. She was the girl of my dreams and had been since we met back in December 2007. We had been socializing for quite a while now and it wasn't too long before we realized we were falling for each other again. We had previously tried to stay in a relationship but because we rarely got to see each other, we failed to stay committed. This time though, we had hope because it was summer break, the feelings were mutual and all we had was time.
Our first date took place at a park. She had been accompanied by her friend Alma so that her parents would feel more comfortable letting her out. I had brought them presents to break the ice. A stuffed penguin for Jackie and a stuffed dolphin for Alma. Not too long after they receive their gifts we find ourselves conversing with each other, sharing laughs and enjoying the view. Of course Alma, being the third wheel, felt like she didn't belong so she hid behind a tree leaving Jackie and I alone on the grass.
I couldn't stand letting her do this to herself even though I understood why she thought it was the right thing to do. She was a friend of Jackie's and I wanted to show her that I cared for those around her as well. So I invited Alma back and tried to make her feel more comfortable with us by focusing on her. Pretty soon she came out of her shell and started talking again. It made me feel accomplished and good about myself especially since Jackie took notice of what a nice guy I was. And at the end of the day, I got a hug from both Alma and Jackie but I hugged Jackie last because I told her I wanted her to be the last person I embraced in my arms.
On our second date, we met up at a local photo sticker shop. Jackie came with Alma once again but it wasn't a problem since we had all gotten to know each other a little better. We inserted money into the machine, took pictures and then added designs to make them look less mundane. We then cut the pictures to distribute them to one another and all have memories to look back on. After that we sat down on the curb and socialized until I had to leave. The girls had been poking fun at my dimples since they were so big and deep. It was this day that I grew an attachment for Jackie's touch. Every time she poked me I felt a burst of happiness inside of me that caused me to smile like the Pillsbury Doughboy.
It was a shame I had to leave so soon. I wanted to spend more time with Jackie and feel this joy inside of me for a while longer but I had to be elsewhere with my family. So I hugged Alma first, and when I hugged Jackie, I lifted her up to show her I was already missing her. After we departed and I got in the car, I took out the pictures I kept and stared at them for a while. I couldn't help but get lost in Jackie's eyes and think about how lucky I felt to be dating a girl as beautiful as her. It was something I dreamed about for the longest time and it was finally coming true.
When the third date came, I did something Jackie had always asked for: to get a haircut so that she could see a more attractive side of me. So I got a faux hawk and when she, along with Alma, saw me at the movies, they were flabbergasted. I felt attractive for once because of Jackie since my self esteem was never too great. After we had finished talking about my hair, we paid for our tickets and watched the movie "Jennifer's Body".
The movie wasn't that great but the date was. I got to hold her hand for the first time during the movie which brought back the butterfly feeling she gave me when she poked my dimples. As soon as the movie was over though, we let go of each others hands and went outside to hang out. Alma was feeling like a third wheel again so I brought her into our conversations and this made her feel like she mattered. We ended up having a group hug and laughed about the awkward silence after. Before the date was over, I gave Alma her hug and Jackie's as well. As I was about to let her go though, I brought her closer, looked into her eyes and kissed her. What seemed like a simple kiss, turned out to be an explosion of warm sensations on my lips.
I never saw her again until after I graduated. The reason being was that I made the mistake of confessing to her that I was afraid of cheating on her since I never got to see her anymore. The thought of her made me emotionally unstable, wishing she could be next to me; unfortunately I lost her trust. And ever since she left me, I remained stuck in my head playing the day we kissed over and over again like a movie. The numbers 9, 1, 8, 0, 9 had even been given meaning, for when organized as a date, 9/18/09, it represents the happiest day of my life.
Over time though, what started out as a memory evolved into a fantasy, which later evolved into a story, of which I created myself. It was something I did in order to show Jackie how much she meant to me. However, I also dream of sharing it with the world one day so that it may inspire them just like Jackie inspires me in my artwork.
Not every person one meets will matter in their life, but the one's that do are the usually the one's that have influenced them in a way no other has. It is these people that help an individual find their identity, the one thing everyone seeks for to stand out above the rest.

Description
As an individual progresses through their life they sometimes encounter a special someone that eventually makes an impact on them helping them to better understand who they are. My special someone was named Jackie.
I've always been insecure about relationships; it's just the way I am. One can say I am wrong for longing for the touch of another even while already in a relationship, but another can say that monogamy doesn't work. One thing is for certain though, too much or too little time with another can affect a relationship. I unfortunately, didn't get to spend enough time with the one I loved.
It was summer 2009, I had been texting with my friend Jacqueline, whom I referred to as Jackie. She was the girl of my dreams and had been since we met back in December 2007. We had been socializing for quite a while now and it wasn't too long before we realized we were falling for each other again. We had previously tried to stay in a relationship but because we rarely got to see each other, we failed to stay committed. This time though, we had hope because it was summer break, the feelings were mutual and all we had was time.
Our first date took place at a park. She had been accompanied by her friend Alma so that her parents would feel more comfortable letting her out. I had brought them presents to break the ice. A stuffed penguin for Jackie and a stuffed dolphin for Alma. Not too long after they receive their gifts we find ourselves conversing with each other, sharing laughs and enjoying the view. Of course Alma, being the third wheel, felt like she didn't belong so she hid behind a tree leaving Jackie and I alone on the grass.
I couldn't stand letting her do this to herself even though I understood why she thought it was the right thing to do. She was a friend of Jackie's and I wanted to show her that I cared for those around her as well. So I invited Alma back and tried to make her feel more comfortable with us by focusing on her. Pretty soon she came out of her shell and started talking again. It made me feel accomplished and good about myself especially since Jackie took notice of what a nice guy I was. And at the end of the day, I got a hug from both Alma and Jackie but I hugged Jackie last because I told her I wanted her to be the last person I embraced in my arms.
On our second date, we met up at a local photo sticker shop. Jackie came with Alma once again but it wasn't a problem since we had all gotten to know each other a little better. We inserted money into the machine, took pictures and then added designs to make them look less mundane. We then cut the pictures to distribute them to one another and all have memories to look back on. After that we sat down on the curb and socialized until I had to leave. The girls had been poking fun at my dimples since they were so big and deep. It was this day that I grew an attachment for Jackie's touch. Every time she poked me I felt a burst of happiness inside of me that caused me to smile like the Pillsbury Doughboy.
It was a shame I had to leave so soon. I wanted to spend more time with Jackie and feel this joy inside of me for a while longer but I had to be elsewhere with my family. So I hugged Alma first, and when I hugged Jackie, I lifted her up to show her I was already missing her. After we departed and I got in the car, I took out the pictures I kept and stared at them for a while. I couldn't help but get lost in Jackie's eyes and think about how lucky I felt to be dating a girl as beautiful as her. It was something I dreamed about for the longest time and it was finally coming true.
When the third date came, I did something Jackie had always asked for: to get a haircut so that she could see a more attractive side of me. So I got a faux hawk and when she, along with Alma, saw me at the movies, they were flabbergasted. I felt attractive for once because of Jackie since my self esteem was never too great. After we had finished talking about my hair, we paid for our tickets and watched the movie "Jennifer's Body".
The movie wasn't that great but the date was. I got to hold her hand for the first time during the movie which brought back the butterfly feeling she gave me when she poked my dimples. As soon as the movie was over though, we let go of each others hands and went outside to hang out. Alma was feeling like a third wheel again so I brought her into our conversations and this made her feel like she mattered. We ended up having a group hug and laughed about the awkward silence after. Before the date was over, I gave Alma her hug and Jackie's as well. As I was about to let her go though, I brought her closer, looked into her eyes and kissed her. What seemed like a simple kiss, turned out to be an explosion of warm sensations on my lips.
I never saw her again until after I graduated. The reason being was that I made the mistake of confessing to her that I was afraid of cheating on her since I never got to see her anymore. The thought of her made me emotionally unstable, wishing she could be next to me; unfortunately I lost her trust. And ever since she left me, I remained stuck in my head playing the day we kissed over and over again like a movie. The numbers 9, 1, 8, 0, 9 had even been given meaning, for when organized as a date, 9/18/09, it represents the happiest day of my life.
Over time though, what started out as a memory evolved into a fantasy, which later evolved into a story, of which I created myself. It was something I did in order to show Jackie how much she meant to me. However, I also dream of sharing it with the world one day so that it may inspire them just like Jackie inspires me in my artwork.
Not every person one meets will matter in their life, but the one's that do are the usually the one's that have influenced them in a way no other has. It is these people that help an individual find their identity, the one thing everyone seeks for to stand out above the rest.