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GR3YWOLFE [2020-02-17 03:50:42 +0000 UTC]
I really wanna try this now-
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noctis-crow In reply to GR3YWOLFE [2020-02-17 03:55:17 +0000 UTC]
dude its a trip
u rlly should
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Chaiiskies [2020-02-16 19:11:09 +0000 UTC]
Dudedudedue
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Raphaelion In reply to Chaiiskies [2020-02-18 18:08:07 +0000 UTC]
ITS HIM
u should give him a name lol :0
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noctis-crow In reply to Chaiiskies [2020-02-16 22:13:16 +0000 UTC]
lmao u want the basic version or the giant ass text xD
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Chaiiskies In reply to noctis-crow [2020-02-17 00:51:05 +0000 UTC]
Uhh maybe a summary? Sorry my brain is a banana pie
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noctis-crow In reply to Chaiiskies [2020-02-17 01:28:36 +0000 UTC]
ah ok so yE
so I was this dude living in what I think is a mid-size city in New England, idk exactly where- I lived in a crummy studio apartment, barely had any furniture (I slept on a black leather couch with a bunch of blankets and crap wadded up and shoved on it) and the place was a mess; like I had clothes, blankets, cds, magazines, papers, etc stuff just strewn about the place, i think i was depressed though because i gave literally zero fucks about this. on the walls were posters of bands like Nirvana, Foo Fighters, Rush, Wallflowers, etc. so I must've liked music (note that I don't listen to those bands irl, this struck me as totally random)
i found a calendar, and the date was august 18, 1999. i had a feeling i was 24
i went to my place of work, which was a car repair garage or something, I fixed the tire axel on a white car, and I saw my co-worker who I remember looking up to like a dad figure and getting along with, he had a really infectious smile and i remember feeling rare happiness seeing him
went to my childhood home, which was a brick ranch with green siding, it had arborvitae lining the boundary of the yard and a ceramic goose on the front steps- I went inside and saw my grandparents, who raised me. my grandfather was a kind older man, balding, with a broad face; my grandmother was somewhat tall, yet stocky, her hair short and curled, and she was cooking
i saw my worst memory- at the beach with my friends, I'd called 911 because my best friend had dived off a boat dock and not come back up, and we couldn't find him. emergency services came and searched the water. I remember standing by the police cars, looking over at my other friends, the shock and horror on their faces. i remember what they looked like. and i remember feeling numb with denial, even after they carried my friend's body out of the water
then i saw my happiest memory- i was five years old in my grandparents living room , and it was my birthday! i got a brand new bike, and my mom was there- i think that's why it was so happy because I never saw my mom, and she was in a really good mood that day and picked me up and hugged me
that's all i know though so i have a lot of questions.. still no idea how I died, what the deal with my home life situation was, etc. i think i was depressed, maybe my mom was too and couldn't take care of me, because i remember being really surprised and joyful that she was happy that day?... i also think maybe August 18, 1999 was my death day but i dont know for certain. also dont know what my name was
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Chaiiskies In reply to noctis-crow [2020-02-17 01:32:59 +0000 UTC]
dude.... thats fucking awesome..... :00000
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noctis-crow In reply to Chaiiskies [2020-02-17 02:04:36 +0000 UTC]
ikr man
i wonder what you'd get if you did it :0
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Chaiiskies In reply to noctis-crow [2020-02-17 02:05:17 +0000 UTC]
that a whole ton of information right there, do you plan on trying again?
Sadly we will never know
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noctis-crow In reply to Chaiiskies [2020-02-17 02:06:13 +0000 UTC]
i kind of want to, i wanna see if I get a name and such :0 hard part is finding the time when ill be left alone enough to focus
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Chaiiskies In reply to noctis-crow [2020-02-17 02:10:55 +0000 UTC]
thats why I'll never do it
always something going on
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