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"Again?" What is my failure, what is my worth? What does remain for a girl that finds nothing in this life and only wants one thing but yet stills is deprived of her only wish? Can any one give me what I want; even I cannot fulfill what I need. Just offer and you shall see what a girl, hidden within the shadows appears,. The blood is only what marks her trail. Follow it an you shall see where she resides, a hell, well in truth no more than the earth in its current state. What has happened does anyone know, or it that no one cares? Well for those who even stand to read the words of a dying girl take it to more than just the heart. With what its worth just stand and watch, with nothing more than pity, well not for me, but for yourselves. What has been within your eyes for so long? Can't you see, or is it that you don't truly care? Tell me the words I want to here, not the lies that you only know. I refuse to believe I never will, you always are the one that dies away to lies forth then. My words are gone but this scene is here......
Morning brought nothing more, just another day for me to mourn, once again i curse this time. I lost it once and had the chance to earn it back. I mark it now and forever see what I have done. Now that time has wasted away forth again it is time....time again and again, but tonight I wish for it to be. I wish not, but yet I still hope that the feeling in my heart is what I see. I can no longer count how many times I have won, for once I wish on one thing and no more. I want, no I need to feel the loss at this game...I wish to know what it is like to be one of the very few that have been the ones to lose at this game. Please for once let this be my time, let this be my day to be the one so forgotten, yet burned into the memory of time, that person be me. I ask of you, I demand only one thing from you this is the first that I have ever asked you for anything more than to have another day. But my request has merged with more than just emotion, I want to change the side in which that once stood. Like the fading colors of the sky I bleed away the time, like light to the dark it is all the same. Now it begins...
This sounds again I hear...the silent click, the low whispers that I never quite knew where mine until I had the time to stand and listen more to look at myself at this time. It is now that I can stand aside and watch myself, I only see the pity within my eyes and the pain that I have endured for way too long to be more than just accidental. You have purposely damned me to live this very life.. WHY?
Again the ever so familiar presence of the cold heartless steel against this body, it is like no other this world of its. It cannot tell the happy from the depressed, it do not car eon who it takes, it only is there to serve itself. I am only singly outcasted by this world, but they fear it, but why is that so? This thing that they have become to fear is not even able to walk among us, but yet it brings many others to move on command. Is it fear? Is it respect? Or is just that they see it for something that it is not? For I only see it as and end, a friend. Though some times I could live like nothing else, so free, like no other...dead. The draw, the failure, a scream of pain and despair. Why do I always find that I win at a gamer that I wish to not? I look at myself in what is now a mirror, holding out what was my friend, my shadow. "I'm sorry my shadow, I cannot join you." My shadow a dying twin of mine, only holding to life by my heels. Though it is just as a shamed as everyone else, they do not know what it is like to be me... I no longer can take this any more, I will find and aid more than just what I have forever known. A metal sin, a metallic end, I have found you. You know have met what shall quench your thirst. Do not fail me like all the rest. Goodbye now to all that regret, though I see not how they will notice something they have never seen.

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"Again?" What is my failure, what is my worth? What does remain for a girl that finds nothing in this life and only wants one thing but yet stills is deprived of her only wish? Can any one give me what I want; even I cannot fulfill what I need. Just offer and you shall see what a girl, hidden within the shadows appears,. The blood is only what marks her trail. Follow it an you shall see where she resides, a hell, well in truth no more than the earth in its current state. What has happened does anyone know, or it that no one cares? Well for those who even stand to read the words of a dying girl take it to more than just the heart. With what its worth just stand and watch, with nothing more than pity, well not for me, but for yourselves. What has been within your eyes for so long? Can't you see, or is it that you don't truly care? Tell me the words I want to here, not the lies that you only know. I refuse to believe I never will, you always are the one that dies away to lies forth then. My words are gone but this scene is here......
Morning brought nothing more, just another day for me to mourn, once again i curse this time. I lost it once and had the chance to earn it back. I mark it now and forever see what I have done. Now that time has wasted away forth again it is time....time again and again, but tonight I wish for it to be. I wish not, but yet I still hope that the feeling in my heart is what I see. I can no longer count how many times I have won, for once I wish on one thing and no more. I want, no I need to feel the loss at this game...I wish to know what it is like to be one of the very few that have been the ones to lose at this game. Please for once let this be my time, let this be my day to be the one so forgotten, yet burned into the memory of time, that person be me. I ask of you, I demand only one thing from you this is the first that I have ever asked you for anything more than to have another day. But my request has merged with more than just emotion, I want to change the side in which that once stood. Like the fading colors of the sky I bleed away the time, like light to the dark it is all the same. Now it begins...
This sounds again I hear...the silent click, the low whispers that I never quite knew where mine until I had the time to stand and listen more to look at myself at this time. It is now that I can stand aside and watch myself, I only see the pity within my eyes and the pain that I have endured for way too long to be more than just accidental. You have purposely damned me to live this very life.. WHY?
Again the ever so familiar presence of the cold heartless steel against this body, it is like no other this world of its. It cannot tell the happy from the depressed, it do not car eon who it takes, it only is there to serve itself. I am only singly outcasted by this world, but they fear it, but why is that so? This thing that they have become to fear is not even able to walk among us, but yet it brings many others to move on command. Is it fear? Is it respect? Or is just that they see it for something that it is not? For I only see it as and end, a friend. Though some times I could live like nothing else, so free, like no other...dead. The draw, the failure, a scream of pain and despair. Why do I always find that I win at a gamer that I wish to not? I look at myself in what is now a mirror, holding out what was my friend, my shadow. "I'm sorry my shadow, I cannot join you." My shadow a dying twin of mine, only holding to life by my heels. Though it is just as a shamed as everyone else, they do not know what it is like to be me... I no longer can take this any more, I will find and aid more than just what I have forever known. A metal sin, a metallic end, I have found you. You know have met what shall quench your thirst. Do not fail me like all the rest. Goodbye now to all that regret, though I see not how they will notice something they have never seen.