Ae-Vildstige [2019-06-14 06:09:49 +0000 UTC]
It's sad to read all the problems that plagues you.
And you have my greatest sympathy, sweety! But let's get one thing straight: Never EVER apologize for being YOU! You are one of a kind, and the only "model" built, currently operating in this world; in this entire UNIVERSE! Yes, there're billions of humans.. but none like you. Besides, in the whole endless Universe, a few billion humans is not much and nothing but a miracle, compared to the endlessly large SPACE. (How cool isn't that..?) So look how magnificent you truly are! No one can replace you, how you think, how you create, your art, the good sides of you as well as the bad sides that makes you YOU. Your thoughts, your soul is what makes you interesting.
I actually happen to like YOU. And I don't say that to many people..
For what it's worth, I can surely relate to you. I've been in a dark place too..
I don't want to get into private stuff in an open comment section such as this, but if we could ever message privately, I'd be happy to share and what has helped me.
With my horribly written text meant to uplift you, so poorly expressed on top of it, because I'm terrible at that (I might've just insulted you or you wont even read this... ):
—Don't worry about feeling like a failure (another thing I relate to). You haven't failed me, as long as you keep breathing and try to work through your problems. One step at the time!
I'd love to help you on your way with some of that and maybe share some thoughts on what has helped me, literally saved my life.
I see your pain, suffering, in your words and in your art. Hearing about your health problems... my heart goes out to you! But I believe your problems are not just physical or mental.. I think what you might need is "something higher and greater" to repair you from within and other stuff I wont get into now. You seem like you need some soul searching. It might help you too..
Lastly, don't draw for a while if it makes you happier.
Or just draw for yourself, but don't share it if that's too much. I've had periods where I don't share, uhm.. like now. I don't share any art at all.
But I draw every day, just for myself. Until I feel ready to share it with the world again..
Don't do it to try to please others.
Hope I'll talk to you soon, love.
(P.S. Nothing is perfect. You'd be surprised how many people feel horrible inside too. In a way, that's the beauty of it... Most artists knows this! But it's what drives us to create. The pain, suffering in the world drives so many creative minds.. )
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Cupcake-Samizu [2019-06-11 22:03:52 +0000 UTC]
thats so sad to hear :c im glad i went online today and saw this... man i wish you all the best and hope you get the help you need, friend! <3 i hope i can catch you on other social media to stay in touch :> and dont worry you havent let anyone down, health comes first and you're doing the one right thing <3<3 stay awesome
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