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I feel like I’m losing myself to myself. Slowly I am – look, I even started writing with uppercase letter words. Fuck that thing. have I been writing the ideas down? I think I have. I have to make that gay Entertainment video and start posting on uporn and other sites. catch the dick. helicopter mode. swimming in feelings until I stop hallucinating the fucking water because I’ve been staring at a bottle for the past 15 minutes. yes, that’s it. start talking about feelings then make a com- I was actually talking about my feelings you know. that was one fucking sentence. 10000 images. stop it with your fucki-well, that sentence felt empty. not even –didn’t even finish it.
everyone gone. with the wind. on the wind. no, seriously. they took a plane. college. I have to prepare everything a day before because if I don’t then I’ll have a reason, in the future, not to do that thing (I was preparing, in the past, for). yes, all the commas and explanations are totally necessary. as long as the word “totally” exists in the sentence, it’s true. I feel as if I can do everything now and I don’t need to put any effort into it for completion. Just bearly thinking about it from top to bottom, every detail down to its engine and then I feel as if it’s already there. I feel I can reach out towards it, pull it’s tail and it will shit me back my mpFUCKING3, Carl! Sorry, sorry. I thought it’d be funny. I know I’m gonna be making most of my books like this. at least the one’s that I’ll enjoy writing (precisely, the one’s where I’ll be fucking with everyone hahahah, stai mah calm. linisteste-te. asa suntem noi astia din Maramures. mai glumeti de felul nostru. (what? –did that mean? no idea. some foreign language. ain’t English, ain’t bothering.) my cigarette fals down on my lap and I grab it, confuse it for my cock and end up smoking half my fucking head until I realize it’s not the weed that’s burning. I have . va pup pe toti. oriunde sunteti, acuma, s ava mangaiati obrazul, in somn sau la un party, pe fb sau pe tumblr, sa faceti o pauza sis a va duceti laba aia de m la fata si sa simtiti o caldura mangaietoare. I am done not cleaning my own mess. so much of it I can’t make more. gotta start making some room.