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I’ve had a really weird anxiety over making a new “persona” separate from Kito ever since fleshing her out into her own character over 5 years ago, since there’s literally so much of myself is inside her. (Link for aNYONE WONDERING WHAT THE FIRST TIME I DREW HER LOOKED LIKE )
I’ve kept calling her a ‘mascot’, so I’m not tied to her like a self insert, but I've refused to make a new 'persona’ that can just represent myself and who I am in the moment.
I’ve been so conflicted on what to call her compared to myself, OR to anyone else that’s ever asked, that I’ve tried to just avoid the question all together. In the past year though her and Goro BOTH have adopted a lot of myself into them, and since I’ve given them more freedom to grow from where they originally started- I wanna give myself the room to grow too :,>
I’ve let myself become sO anxious and stressed over drawing newer ideas for them, or I’d feel guilty about trying to draw Kito in place of myself in “draw yourself” memes that I always wanted to join in- and the stress would get to the point I’d just pass on the idea entirely.
So this is a cartoon me, and she goes by any of my me names that anyone’s ever called me.
The only canon for me is that Kito’s entire dimension exists inside me. So me and her meeting would mean that half of myself would be missing from my body and cause some sort of universal paradox. 👌👀 (Though sometimes I might draw myself with her anyway just becaUSE) 2017 update the only canon is that there is no canon I can break any rules I darn well frickin feel like
Any of my other babies I can say hi to since I also have the power of AUs and plot convenience at my side >:,)
Its just a me that I can draw if I want to make a picture of m'self reacting to a question, or FINALLY just-
interact as myself with other people in drawings :,D
Kito n’ Goro both are a huge part of who I am, I still gO by Kito as a nickname with close friends- because its a name as familiar to me as the one I was born with (and has also always felt less formal than ‘Pira’), and she’s still my space bean mascot til the day I’m dead. But, I’m probably going to let Goro join her in being my collective ‘mascot’, and try to stop letting myself feel guilty/anxious over wanting to draw my OWN self that can exist at the same time. I want to stop thinking that if I do it somehow means Kito can’t exist anymore or can’t still represent the sort of person I am. Its kinda like the lil Gera Gera Po animation I did here of me and her flipping back n’ forth, she and myself are two sides of the same weird space coin.
I’ve sat on and off with this idea for too many years.
I’d like to stand up now-
So
PS: Have some songs that made me super happy/also wanna honestly cry as I doodled this
www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPokJF…
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THEY HAVE VERY DEEP AND SYMBOLIC MEANING
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I believe you. There is nothing more deep and symbolic than a butt. our nation thrives on butts.
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Why hello there
I gotta say the color scheme for this is absolutely fantastic and it really incorporates a lot of the elements that I relate to you as well, such as the colors and the fluffy textures you use, as well as all the space themes of course. (and also the hat)
The fact that all your creations are living inside of you is a really neat touch and really drives home how close and important your characters are to you, and that's a sentiment I definitely can appreciate - growing with characters you've made for so long they become part of you as well. I'm glad you came forward and over the stress for this. I've had some awkward thoughts about personas myself, but it's really cool how you brought it all together to make this design. I look forward to seeing it a lot more in the future.
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Hi stranger how ya doin
but gooDne ss thank you so much ;0; 
Pretty much since I was a little bab and never even knew how to hold a penCIL that was how I always rationalized/imagined any characters I made up. That I don't have some actual 'brain' but rather just, a nebulous little galaxy with different planets I'm helping to check up on and visit and grow along side of And since I want my characters to always exist in a personal space separate from freelance/studio/class work, so that I always have something I can retreat to art-wise for my own sake, it was really nice to finally kinda verbalize the idea :,D
It was sorta surprising to hear so many other people also related to the awkward nature of figuring personas out :,0 But I wish aLL THE CONFIDENCE AT YOU that you'll be able to figure things out at your own pace like I eventually resolved to do >:,)
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I'm quite well fellow stranger, how are you?
Haha, no problemo man! I noticed you used colors from both of them but changed a little, just like how they art part of you but at the same time you are yourself and both parties are heavily influenced by each other. That's a wonderful way to look at your creations, and it turned out beautifully. And yeah, now that I'm looking at the comments below, it seems there's a lot of people with the same nervousness around it, which is really comforting. And aaaaa thank you :'D - I'm not exactly sure about personas in the way that I do know that I want something to represent me, but it's all just a blur. I guess it's just me being awkward about myself since I don't exactly know how to balance how I want it to come across to both me and others - I feel like while I do make my own decisions, a lot of it is influenced by others, and that's why I'm sorta just unsure about myself and how I should always come across and if I'm even doing it right 
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It was genuinely unintentional I had used both in some way- the only specific part I pulled was the 'stars' aesthetic of Kito, so all the other stuff from the colors to the swirls and the glowing being all in common with the both of them too was sheer coincidence afterthefact ;v; And I'm honestly super happy that it happened
And goodness yes I've been awkward about how to really put "myself" self out there for YEARS now, and still am as I figure this whole thing out x,D But it's a step I couldn't be happier to've finally taken so I can keep moving forward
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Hahah, and it had to be the most beautiful thing ever :')
I like it btw :U The colours are like the embodiment of childhood but from a nostalgic melancholic view, sappy and calming.. Duuuuude, and kito was like.. the in-the-moment of childhood colours. What a total representation of growing up! or some bs x)
As many others here I can relate to this persona issues too. Maybe on a bit more complex level.. Y'see I have this comic that is basically me and my friends, like some sort of Eddsworld, but online on forums. And when writing stories about OUR avatars and our personages, you have to thread very carefully :') Tragedy is the foundation of (most) comedy, so doing parodies of your best friends is a fine line between being rude and hilarious at any moment. And then I just HAD to make the most reckless and complicated relationship between the characters for dramatisation and interest in the stories.
In the end my persona is a dangerously close representation of me emotionally, but his choices should no longer represent my dated ideas. I just happen to use this persona/mascot as a face
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Ahhhhhjdflhjksdhfklj goodness that's such a weirdly sweet way of thinking about it! :,0
Just a couple days prior to this, I made the connection when walking through a Toys R Us over why Green and Yellow might be my favorite colors- on account of walking into the crafts aisle and seeing alLLLLLL the crayola products had that colorscheme .;D I'm still always a child at heart so letting Kito represent that inner feeling even more while I can exist outright as me is a really nice shift
Also I'm actually really surprised how many other folks related to this situation, but at the same time it's super relieving to hear all the different ways people have wound up relating to it ;v; So maybe in some smidge of a way, working up my own nerves to do this might help some other folks have the courage to do it for themselves too
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Okay what isn't cool about this persona. I am dead serious. The contrasting tones; the swirl asthetic; the painted quality, both in the tail shape and the color/shading; the cartoony colored eyes; the dark, twiggy, character design that speaks back to stick-figures; the cool hat; the fingerless gloves; the cute star accessory; the slight hue gradients; the minimalistic star pattern on the jacket; the cheek marks; EVEN the miniscule bags under the eyes.
Holy cow Kito, did you sneak into my brain and steal my tastes?? Hehehe. I seriously love this design and I'm glad you were able to come to one that worked for you. I can see a lot of the same elements as you used for your Meet the Artist deviation, like the hat, the star, the jacket and the shirt. Let me tell you, I think it fits, to a T. It's absolutely perfect for you, and I hope you get some good use out of it.
And I know exactly what you mean about sitting on something for so long you just feel the need to 'stand up' about it, as you say. Hopefully it wasn't too stressful for you, coming around to this. It was most definitely worth it at least.
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dlkfHSDKFjhdskjfh my goodness dude thank you so much
The gloves/wrist braces, jacket, yellow shirt, and hat w/ buttons (albeit not in the same colors) are all thingies I wear almost daily, so not stressing over making them 100% accurate to the real thing anD just drawing other cute lil design traits I liked all lumped into one entity, helped a lot with getting 'me' to a design I was kinda surprisingly ecstatic over
Sadly with how many months (or even years) I kept shoving the idea off, it's more stressful than I'd like to admit. So I'm glad that said stress can finally be over and let me move forward with things
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yyyOOO OO O O O
THIS IS SUCH A NEAT SONA!!!!!
And I get where you're coming from with being nervous about making an actual persona? I've had some of the same issues before, thouGH NOT QUITE AS MUCH BUT STILL. And I'm really glad you overcame that anxiousness to make a persona, cuz boy it came out so cute(and a persona is quite handy to have ;3)!!
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hhhHHHHHHhh thank you so much! ;___;
I'm definitely still feelin' the physical anxiety over the choice but I know that'll pass- it jus takes a while :,D And overall this whole decision I think'll seriously be for the better, with my physical n' mental health alike
and; lkfasdfhlsjkdfhSKJDfhlkj I'm super happy with how m' design came out too :,0 It's just as simple as Kito's to work with and feels familiar enough and easy to remember while being really fun at the same time ;;w;;
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aaaaa i know physic anxiety is such an icky feeling, i hope it passes soon! and i do think so too!
YEAH !!!!
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Once again, your creation of new and interesting characters (whether it be personas or OCS) never fails to amaze me.
Gotta love them thin legs and choice of clothing. The star goes quite nice on your hat.
She was fun to draw, something about hands in pockets that's so relaxing.
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Thanks dude! :,P
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I don't care what form you take - you'll always be my bestest best sockpal.~ ;;;;w;;;;
But anyways- hiya new Kati, I really want to nom that star on your hat >8)
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THE FEELING IS ALWAYS A MUTUAL ONE
Also I'm sure it'll be fine it probably tastes like vanilla and blue moon icecream I can make another
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A;JKS;JFS I really needed a sock hug right now to be honest ;v; (Send s'more good vibes my way please i have visual essay again fjsljf than k)
Mmmmmm now i want to nom it even more
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(ALL THE GOOD VIBES BE OFF TO YOUUUUUUUUU <3
I'll send you a lil wip-ly thingy I'm sketching right now that has more cute things)
and I shALL FIND SPARES >:,V CONSUME THE GOOD VIBES WITHIN U
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tHANKKKKKK <3
Also ;o; I will check Skype heheh
I SHALL >:'0 THANK U
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AW SO CUTE!!!!!! And don't let yourself feel so anxious over this, you can do whatever you want to do as long as your happy 
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It's one thing to say just not to feel anxious, but it's another to've been anxious over this for liTERAL years- both physically and mentally. It's a reaction that's just been really hard to control and come to terms with for this particular thing, so it was a genuinely frightening yet relieving step to've finally taken for myself
That is very very true though 
No more regrets man, not with my own worlds anyway
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I'm glad that you were able to take that step, it may have been scary but it is also relieving for yourself and worth it because this is just an amazingly cute design and I think it fits you so well XD
Now you can also be along side Kito and Goro (even though it's supposed to be physically impossible with Kito being half of you and the universe paradox stuff but STILL art is meant to BREAK RULEZ) and you can be in this amazing world that so many, including yourself, love so much!!
NO MORE REGRETS XD HUZZAH!!!!!!!! I'm proud of you Pira XD GLOMPS!
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I have no words..... AS TO DESCRIBE THIS NEW PIECE OF GENIUS! A being that holds all of these little worlds in balance is very clever! (Now I'm not sayin' this little one may be the God of these worlds but eh.. Who knows!) But what I do know is that this is a clever new character/persona you made kito! Good job.
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Ahhhhhhh gooDNESS thank you so much :,0
I'm definitely not any sort of a 'god' over m' little worlds of ideas.
I guess since I call my characters 'beans' a lot now cause of some friends- I'm just a lil space gardener that's planting new friendos that I can help grow
eitHER WAY I am really happy over how m' design came out, which was such a huge relief after the fact that I'm genuinely excited to work with it ;v;
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No problamo compadre!. Now I must go and think deeply about philosophy about the universe of our own that we live in the now... Eh. Nah...
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Wow this is amazing! I love it.
At one point, I wrote a script where I injected myself into the story, under the alias as the O' so clever, "The Director". Time moves on of course and I changed that script to the point where that is no longer the case, but I still have multiple characters that I use as a symbolism of myself. I find it interesting when writers find creative ways to emerge into their own story. I can't wait to see what you plan to do with this new persona.
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Thank you! ;;w;;
Yeeeees that's more or less the same situation that's happened over time with me. As m' characters grew more from myself and took on their own roles. Still helping to represent who I am and what I love- but also being free to do their own thing :,D
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Really honest 'ere, 'tis adorbs.
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Very Cool design.^_^ Hmm....since I haven't know you as long as most others here probably have, what nickname would you prefer I call you by? Don't wanna' disrespectful after all, especially considering you're one of the Incredible people that have supported and inspired me throughout my existence on DA.
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Thanks! :,D
And I genuinely don't mind Kito or Pira still, since they're what most folks use! :> Kati's my real name which I'm also okay with- but I usually feel awkward getting called it unless from a close friend or somebody I've met in person. x,D
So it's jus up to your preference for whatever you're used to seeing/writing my 'name' as
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oh it's really adorable!! so is they will be your mascot... well in my opinion is really perfect for you!!
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Kito's the one who'll still be my mascot- while thIS gets to represent my own self wherever needed
If I make a lil analogy to pokemon, Kito's like my Pikachu, while this is the pokemon trainer I'm playing as :,) Both parts are so big to the series that it couldn't be what it is if it were missing one part or the other
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By the way, I get the feeling that this is some sort of phosphorescent night sprite. Am I on the right track?
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Dude I don't know what it was when I whipped the design out but I lIKE that description for it :,D
As I drew it though I just took a lot of lil traits I already like in designs- and lumped my hat and sweater on top
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I had no idea you struggled with these sorts of internal questions. But I think I can sympathize with your concerns. And it is very exciting to see a new persona that directly represents you. Kito will always have her own time to shine. But Kati needs her's too. A piece cannot fully represent the whole.
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I think it always sort of nagged at me a bit since getting started into college and finding more of my own identy with my work- but it REALLY started to hit me in more physically anxious ways from last year's summer up to now, when I started drawing Kito n' Goro both more often, as well as got a lot of interest from friends and fans alike about their characters :,>
The way you described the last part could not've been more well said bro
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Hi!
This looks very nice, cool seeing your own persona!
I feel we will all get along just fine!
I don't even know how a "cartoon" persona of myself would look like yet.
But, nice to see this cutie for the first time anyway! XD
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Thanks so much!
And we've gotten along plenty so far, so I'm sure giving m' text a face wont be much more different
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No prob.
Yes, we have! lol
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Hey there, cutie! *winks*
Haha!
Anyway...good to see you getting over some fears of yours. I also have a few characters in mind that I'm REALLY anxious to draw out and post since so much of myself is imbedded in them. I guess my real fear is that I'll constantly want to change the design of the characters and then have them be really inconsistent.
BUT I GOTTA STOP BEING A LITTLE BITCH AND JUST DO IT LIKE YOU DID HERE! >: D
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And gooOODness yes ;o; It was in part because I was letting so much of myself be in Kito and Goro- that without some other outlet like this it started feeling more stressful trying out more ideas with them that weren't 'entirely' myself (or even in reverse- try out ideas with them that felt TOO much like myself), if that even makes any sense
YOU JUST GOTTA GRAB THE CHARACTER BULL BY THE HORNS AND GO FOR THE GOLD GAL
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No, that totally makes sense.
HELL YAA!!! WOOO!
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Hello *waves* I was wondering about Kito and her relationship to you, though I guess i'm still a bit confused XD.
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Since I have an actUAL sona now- I can say that basically Kito filled that role for the first few years she existed, cause she stemmed from a crappy attempt at drawing myself in middle school. x,D
After that point I started giving her more powers and backstory and lore and side characters and it got to the point where she was becoming her own thing that I felt waY too guilty to still call "me", but at the same time was scared to let go of.
A lot of her (and Goro's) personality and quirks mimic a lot of my own, but drawing wise they've just become a lot more than what I ever intended as a kid, and I want them to be able to keep going as their own thing that I can lead on and keep having fun with- without the confusing guilt about fleshing them out still attached x,D
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Ah, okay. Yeah I had a problem like that back in middle school where I basically had like three sonas in the same world OTL I eventually let go of one so she could vastly grow, one is sort of in limbo (don't really know what to do with her) and the last one became the designated "this is my sona" character while still allowing her to grow in that world.
So, any plans for what you'll do with Pira now? (is that okay to call her that?) Will she meet Kito and Goro?
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