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"sometimes i forget that youre a robot.""whaddya mean?"
"every time we talk and you mention things like 'gears' or 'metal', the realization hits me that youre not actually made of flesh and blood. im just not used to this. before i met you, the only exposure i had to robots were science fiction movies."
"i get that a lot actually. dont know what to make of that tho. is it a good or a bad thing?"
"im not sure. but if i didnt know you were a robot, i never would have guessed. i remember when honoka and the others first met you and she thought you were just a guy dressed in a mascot costume, hehe..."
"mascot for what? greenpeace? a manifestation of the dying forest? a guy posing as a tree whos actually made of metal and wires? reminds me of the mother 3 logo actually lol."
"whaaat? haha, no. i thought of something like a super market or a football team. i could picture you holding up a sign for a sale in the produce section, hihihi..."
"now that you mention football, reminds me of the time our dad forced us to play football against the light bots. shit was wild."
"i wonder, what were you originally build to do? before we all met."
"uuuhhh... destroying megaman. dont laugh, but im actually a killing machine."
"you- what? are you serious?"
"yeah dude. im dangerous."
"do i have to remind you of the time you tried to fight me back when we were still enemies?"
"it wasnt that bad."
"you lost an arm when you tried to land a punch on me. i didnt even have to do anything. you quite literally destroyed yourself right in front of me."
"i was just going easy on you dude. smh."
"of course you did."
"even tho, to be honest, when my arm went flying i was actually concerned for a second. i hate looking at my insides. seeing all those wires and tubes makes me feel like my thoughts dont belong to my body. like theyre too human to belong to a machine. idk man its kind of hard to explain."
"like your thoughts dont belong to your body?"
"yknow, i used to look different. since all of this shit with the channel went down, i sometimes feel like ive become an entirely different person. or robot, rather. i still have the memories from when i was built, when i fought megaman, the time i spent with my brothers... but all of it feels kind of disconnected from me, as if they were actually someone elses memories, not mine."
"maybe this has something to do with all the dimension traveling youve been doing?"
"maybe. hell if i know man. i remember back when i was still working with the voice, he once told me to my face that my existence was an accident. back then i just didnt care about it. i just said 'nice', like i usually do and moved on with my life. but the more i think about it now, the more sense it makes. am i even who i claim to be? or am i just some fucked up glitch that stole some poor robots identity and memories? i feel like i dont belong when im with my bros, like im just an imposter who acts like their real brother. lol yknow like in that game."
"woah woah woah! youre getting a little too existential there for my taste! of course youre the real you, who else would you be? youre talking to me right now, arent you? your not 'some fucked up glitch' and youre definitely not an accident either. youre my friend. and i cant believe he said something like that to you..."
"thanks. i guess i really needed to hear that right now."
"of course. thats what friends are for, arent they? grounding you when you start to question your own existence."
"i guess. lol."
"that reminds me, you keep mentioning your brothers. are they at all similar to you?"
"heh. no, theyre nothing like me. theyre all fucking lunatics. but the lovable kind. they dont even know what i get up to behind their backs. feels bad lying to them this much all the time."
"they dont know?"
"dude what do you expect me to tell them? 'yeah listen im actually a dimension traveller, i manage a music channel in my free time and also all of you are fictional characters from some video game lol' i think you and me having existential dread over that fact is enough. no reason to make them worry about that stuff for no reason. that wouldnt be nice at all."
"well, youre right about that. i... try not to think about it. its kind of a scary thought. being the product of someones imagination."
"yeah, not thinking about it might be for the best."
