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She had planned it for months. The one day to celebrate and love herself, all while surrounded by the people she cared most about. She began preparing weeks before, decorated days before, made food hours before... but the doors remained closed. She sat there, waiting, alone in the room she'd spent weeks making perfect, wondering why. Why didn't they remember her? Why would they not come? Had they forgotten her? Did they hate her? Or did they simply care more about the other, more grand, more populated, more interesting party going on at the same time?
As the minutes ticked onwards, the thoughts began to consume her. Thoughts of inadequacy filled the room as the choking despair from her friend's absences became almost tangible. The thoughts, the cries, the muffled sobs of despair pounded inside of her heart. Her soul knew nothing but misery. But she used all the strength she had to push it away. She pushed the choking despair from her throat, the pained screams from her ears, the abundant misery from her heart. The small sliver of hope that her friends were just late, that they were just being held back and that they didn't despise her was all she could hold onto. Yet she held onto it as if her life depended on it, which she soon learned it had.
The sliver of light soon expanded into a vast ocean of bliss. One soul had come, but as she soon realized, it was not one of the friends she had long waited for. It was another, slightly odd creature with whom she occasionally spoke to. The creature at the door ran to her side, crying, expressing the immense relief she felt at her being there. Her not letting go. Her clutching onto the sliver of hope and holding it tight. The creature had been worried she'd let go, she'd fallen into the pit of despair, too far gone to return.
The creature told of the absences of those she had wished came sooner. They had been travelling to her to experience the wondrous event she'd worked tirelessly on for months. They were ready to celebrate her, to honor her and to let her know she was appreciated. But news came of a great loss. Family members gone, into the sky, chasing the stars, never to return. They had been unable to feel happiness, only the bitter numbness that comes with loss. They had sent the creature to check on her, to let her know how much they loved and cared for her.
The despair she had felt seemed like the silly thoughts of a child too young to know better. Of course her friends did not hate her. Of course her friends would never choose another event over the one she had worked so hard to prepare. They had shown her nothing but support and love as long as they had known one another. Instead, the feeling of dread crept up her body. Tingling emptiness with sparks of agony filled her legs, then her abdomen, then her torso. They couldn't be gone. She had known them for so long. She had spent so much of her life with her friend's kindred, they were like a second family, which was more whole and complete than the one she had ever known. They couldn't be gone, not without a goodbye.
The creature took her by the arm and helped her out of the room. The room she'd spent so long working on what now seemed like a previous lifetime's silly dreams; nothing in her life would ever be the same. The creature took her to the sides of her beloved friends, who she held so dear in her heart. Tears stained the crystal eyes of her friends, whose life had changed more than any of them could have known. The despair was more solid than it had ever been. But it did not consume her. She embraced the bodies of those who meant the world to her and comforted them through pained sobs. She would never leave their side, just as they had never truly left hers. They would hold each other through all the agony and pain flooding through them for as long as it remained. They would help one another grow stronger than ever before. But until then, they would share the tears of loss.

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She had planned it for months. The one day to celebrate and love herself, all while surrounded by the people she cared most about. She began preparing weeks before, decorated days before, made food hours before... but the doors remained closed. She sat there, waiting, alone in the room she'd spent weeks making perfect, wondering why. Why didn't they remember her? Why would they not come? Had they forgotten her? Did they hate her? Or did they simply care more about the other, more grand, more populated, more interesting party going on at the same time?
As the minutes ticked onwards, the thoughts began to consume her. Thoughts of inadequacy filled the room as the choking despair from her friend's absences became almost tangible. The thoughts, the cries, the muffled sobs of despair pounded inside of her heart. Her soul knew nothing but misery. But she used all the strength she had to push it away. She pushed the choking despair from her throat, the pained screams from her ears, the abundant misery from her heart. The small sliver of hope that her friends were just late, that they were just being held back and that they didn't despise her was all she could hold onto. Yet she held onto it as if her life depended on it, which she soon learned it had.
The sliver of light soon expanded into a vast ocean of bliss. One soul had come, but as she soon realized, it was not one of the friends she had long waited for. It was another, slightly odd creature with whom she occasionally spoke to. The creature at the door ran to her side, crying, expressing the immense relief she felt at her being there. Her not letting go. Her clutching onto the sliver of hope and holding it tight. The creature had been worried she'd let go, she'd fallen into the pit of despair, too far gone to return.
The creature told of the absences of those she had wished came sooner. They had been travelling to her to experience the wondrous event she'd worked tirelessly on for months. They were ready to celebrate her, to honor her and to let her know she was appreciated. But news came of a great loss. Family members gone, into the sky, chasing the stars, never to return. They had been unable to feel happiness, only the bitter numbness that comes with loss. They had sent the creature to check on her, to let her know how much they loved and cared for her.
The despair she had felt seemed like the silly thoughts of a child too young to know better. Of course her friends did not hate her. Of course her friends would never choose another event over the one she had worked so hard to prepare. They had shown her nothing but support and love as long as they had known one another. Instead, the feeling of dread crept up her body. Tingling emptiness with sparks of agony filled her legs, then her abdomen, then her torso. They couldn't be gone. She had known them for so long. She had spent so much of her life with her friend's kindred, they were like a second family, which was more whole and complete than the one she had ever known. They couldn't be gone, not without a goodbye.
The creature took her by the arm and helped her out of the room. The room she'd spent so long working on what now seemed like a previous lifetime's silly dreams; nothing in her life would ever be the same. The creature took her to the sides of her beloved friends, who she held so dear in her heart. Tears stained the crystal eyes of her friends, whose life had changed more than any of them could have known. The despair was more solid than it had ever been. But it did not consume her. She embraced the bodies of those who meant the world to her and comforted them through pained sobs. She would never leave their side, just as they had never truly left hers. They would hold each other through all the agony and pain flooding through them for as long as it remained. They would help one another grow stronger than ever before. But until then, they would share the tears of loss.