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Published: 2011-03-13 01:00:56 +0000 UTC; Views: 1307; Favourites: 20; Downloads: 9
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"a train that will take you far away. you can't be sure where it will take you. but it doesn't matter - because we'll be together."~inception
created for the loneliness contest: [link] i have no idea why i'm posting in last minute when i finished it 2 months ago D:
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i don't support suicide and i'm highly against it but i know how it feels when you think that's the only way out. when you feel so alone, so depressed, so small, so worthless and nothing can bring your head above the surface.
i've been rejected by society; just because i didn't fit in their little ideas of people. when finishing high-school i didn't see my future, just darkness. some people i loved so much died young, some left me, i hit the bottom and felt so loveless.
i thought of suicide but i was too scared to actually carry it out and now i'm grateful for that. i've met some people who changed my life. i'm in college now. when i need an escape i draw or read. i've met some new friends and did my best to bring some back.
no matter how hard it is, just keep trying and believing, it gets better
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woodland background: [link]
railway: [link]
girl: [link]
dress: [link]
train is from google D:
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Jumping in front of a train is the meanest kind of commiting suicide. Because you suffer so many other people too, and I am not talking about the relatives. Just imagine what it means for the involved railroaders! Many had to quit the job because they weren't able for it!
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Very beautiful piece you've done here
The lightings are nicely done and so as the shades. Really nice ^^
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glad you liked the atmosphere
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you're welcome hehe ^^
Indeed. It's really great
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Amazing drawing!
When I saw the quote,my thought went straight at that movie!
It's true that suicide is not the solution to life's problems,since it brings up way more problems and causes further trouble to the loved ones and to ourselves.It's something that has it's effect twice.
A lot of people heading there because they're having a hard time and can't find any other solution.But still,those who are actually commiting it are people who's mind is blurred at that time,they cannot think what they're doing,they're just doing it.It's like their brain stopped working.They're just moving themselves for this purpose.But,once their mind become clear again and start thinking,then they stop.But not all of them do it.
Great picture,I love the shading,the colouring,the girl's pose,the whole scene!I like the small rays of light that come from the train and it's the only light in the picture!Very good job~!
I wish you good luck with the contest!
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i don't judge those who did suicide 'cause i've been there myself and i know how hard it is. but i feel sorry they weren't stronger/scared more of it to choose living. they should have told someone, try to talk it out, visit a psychiatrist (no one had to know) and then they would have realised they're making a mistake.
even if you think you're alone, there's always someone who cares. there really is! maybe someone who you thought is not that close to you, maybe a stranger, family, relatives, friends... in the end, suicide is selfish 'cause you think of yourself and not of people who love you, how would they feel.
maybe it's hard, but if you keep living and trying, things will get better. they have to, you just need a little bit of optimism
i had this image for a while in head but i couldn't find anything similar so i decided to give it a try 
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LOL!I liked that too,but I felt a bit akward when his wife thought she was dreaming while she's been in reality.
I know how it feels because I remember reaching that place too.If I hadn't heard a voice asking me back then "What are you doing?",I wouldn't have thought of anything and I'm not sure if there would have been anyone to stop me or whatever.It was summer,the balcony-door was wide open,my parents were away and I had my mind blurred,I couldn't think of anything.It was completely blank.The only thing that I was doing was moving towards the balcony without knowing anything,not even bothering to think about it.When I started thinking and analysing things right after I heard that,I came back to my senses and stopped moving.I'm really glad that I didn't move on back then.This happened right after I saw the examination results,it had been only some minutes after I had come back home.Depression can blind you way too easily,especially when it has to do with something that affects you emotionally.I remember having my pride beaten and I was like dust in the wind.At that moment,I couldn't realise not even my own moves.When I thought of "where am I heading to?where am I going?Why do I do it?" I stopped.It's a matter of how clear your mind is too.
Well,deadlines are bitches sometimes,but it wouldn't be fun if they weren't.
You can edit it even now and re-upload it.But....should it be marked as "cheating"?
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if you spend so many time in dreams which are so real it's natual you'll get confused are you awake or alseep. that's why they always had those totems to check it.
i must admit, i've never been that close but i though about it, thinking what method would be the easiest which is maybe even worse 
i bet i'd get kicked out the contest the same second
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That's true.Actually,even if you have one simple dream that seems to be real,you're being confused as well!You're not sure weather you're dreaming or not!
You're lucky that you haven't been.If I wasn't lucky enough,I would have crossed the red line and I would have been a goner.It was just some split of seconds that it took me to come back to my senses and realise what was going on.It feels like you have no control of yourself.You're just acting without thinking what you're doing and why.You're like a puppet.I really wish and hope than none of my friends,family and loved ones will ever experience something like this.It's between thinking and not thinking at all.It's very weird.When the mind's been blurred,is similar and worse to being blind.Also,nobody knows what would have happened if my parents were at home or have noticed it.Things may have been the same,may have been better,may have been worse.Circumstances under which anything happens are very important too.
LOL!
You can always edit it once the contest is over!
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definitely. sometimes i'm not sure if something is a dream of real thing.
it's a really bad thing and i understand that it blacks out your mind and you can't think straight. it's a terrible thing and i hope it won't happen again neither to us or those we know and care about.
i was thinking about editing some of my old stuff but then i'd change the past and the person i was back then so i'll probably let it be and focus on new stuff
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It's true that when something like that happens it's way too difficult for anyone to go against it and stand up.Help will be needed,but the way it's going to be provided has to be the ideal one too.
I've thought about the same and I already have one pic I want to edit!
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people still fav some of my old stuff so i thought of editing them so they'd look better but i think i'll just let them be
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That's a great idea!
I'm planning to do the same whenever it comes by!
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very nice picture
oh... too bad all those things but you've managed well^^
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thank you
yeah, elementary was the worst 'cause i went in class with idiots who now pretend nothing happened...
glad you think so
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your welcome
geez, that's harsh D:
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oh, remember when i told you i wanna see "unstoppable"? well, cinestar says the premiere is at 7th of April
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i love the lighting and effecafjdskafjdkas-
i think i just exploded <3
its great XD
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hope you can regenetare soon, i'd miss you 
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