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This isn't just some piece of art. I truly am, genuinely feeling depressed. Today is probably the worst day of my life.

I was mad at school, because this one friend of mine didn't even talk to me another friend of mine during Social Studies, as if we were invisible. (There was a substitute.) She was sitting with some other friends while I sat with my other good friend. Who I find a better friend than the other one because she was more of my friend than the other girl is. So today, we were whispering to each other on how our friend. (I'll just say friend 1 for the other friend, and the one I was talking to friend 2, I don't wanna say their names). So yeah, I was whispering to friend 2 on how friend 1 would only talk about her boyfriend, I mean, it's nice and all, but that's all she talks about. And friend 1 thinks the world revolves around her, and that's not right. She goes to talk to friend 2 about her dreams about some guy and stuff, and then she leaves. Like saying, "Oh, I'm done telling you, now I don't need to talk to you anymore." That got me pissed, because we're like good friends to her. And friend 2, told me that during art. Friend 2 asked Friend 1 for the sharpie, but instead, she gave it to some other guy who needed it. She was like. "Really? What the hell?" And friend 1 says. "I loooove youuu!" Which sounds SO fake coming from her mouth... I swear. Whenever she says it, I feel disgusted. It's like she doesn't even mean it! So anyway, yeah. After the period ended, both me and Friend 2 walked out as quick as we could to avoid her and all. But then, she came and was like. "Oh! (Insert Friend 2's name)! I haven't talked to you in all day."

And guess what? That's when I got REALLY pissed. This is how it went.

"That's because you chose not to." I said.

"What?" She said.

"You could've talked to her during Social Studies, but you chose not to." I said again.

"I was doing my math homework." She said.

"You still could've said Hi at least! I mean, she was RIGHT there!" I said.

"You're exploding in my face! Why are you yelling at me?" She said.

"I'm not yelling at you, you wanna hear yelling? All I'm saying is that you could've stopped what you were doing to say hi, but you didn't."

"I was busy doing my math homework." She said.

And that's where it ended. I turned away from her, and looked away from her, secretly rolling my eyes. She walked past me, and went on ahead. I knew she got angry with me. But I didn't care at the time. Because it was the truth! She could've stopped what she was doing to at least talk to friend 2. But she didn't, and that excuse that she was doing her Math Homework is BULLSHIT! Because she was talking with these other group of friends. WHILE doing her homework! That excuse didn't work for me. And she practically ruined my day, I tried to sound as nice as possible. But I guess she couldn't take the truth.

But right after I walked outside with friend 2. I was still pissed, and after I left her I said. "I hope I didn't make her cry." In a nasty way. I don't know.. I was so pissed right there. But now, a part of me regrets telling her that, and I'm afraid that our friendship is at it's border. I don't know why I'm regretting what I said. I was just telling her the truth. But... I guess the truth hurts...And now I'm really depressed and wondering what will happen on Tuesday when we come back from the three day break....I'm scared of what will happen, If I'm gonna avoid her, or if I'm going to apologize. Right now, I can't think straight and then I have finals the following week. So it can't be good. I'll be distracted during those days, and it's just horrible... I'm holding my emotions inside, and It's just so hard when I have all these feelings of loneliness building up...

I even wished I was just sitting in a corner rotting like a corpse for what I did. I'm wondering if I should apologize or not... But then again, the only reason this all started was because of her attitude, which caused my breaking point...

Any ideas anyone? I need guidance.... Please help me... I've fallen into major depression.... I just wish I could apologize... but it's just so scary.... ;__; I'm afraid of her reaction.

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This isn't just some piece of art. I truly am, genuinely feeling depressed. Today is probably the worst day of my life.

I was mad at school, because this one friend of mine didn't even talk to me another friend of mine during Social Studies, as if we were invisible. (There was a substitute.) She was sitting with some other friends while I sat with my other good friend. Who I find a better friend than the other one because she was more of my friend than the other girl is. So today, we were whispering to each other on how our friend. (I'll just say friend 1 for the other friend, and the one I was talking to friend 2, I don't wanna say their names). So yeah, I was whispering to friend 2 on how friend 1 would only talk about her boyfriend, I mean, it's nice and all, but that's all she talks about. And friend 1 thinks the world revolves around her, and that's not right. She goes to talk to friend 2 about her dreams about some guy and stuff, and then she leaves. Like saying, "Oh, I'm done telling you, now I don't need to talk to you anymore." That got me pissed, because we're like good friends to her. And friend 2, told me that during art. Friend 2 asked Friend 1 for the sharpie, but instead, she gave it to some other guy who needed it. She was like. "Really? What the hell?" And friend 1 says. "I loooove youuu!" Which sounds SO fake coming from her mouth... I swear. Whenever she says it, I feel disgusted. It's like she doesn't even mean it! So anyway, yeah. After the period ended, both me and Friend 2 walked out as quick as we could to avoid her and all. But then, she came and was like. "Oh! (Insert Friend 2's name)! I haven't talked to you in all day."

And guess what? That's when I got REALLY pissed. This is how it went.

"That's because you chose not to." I said.

"What?" She said.

"You could've talked to her during Social Studies, but you chose not to." I said again.

"I was doing my math homework." She said.

"You still could've said Hi at least! I mean, she was RIGHT there!" I said.

"You're exploding in my face! Why are you yelling at me?" She said.

"I'm not yelling at you, you wanna hear yelling? All I'm saying is that you could've stopped what you were doing to say hi, but you didn't."

"I was busy doing my math homework." She said.

And that's where it ended. I turned away from her, and looked away from her, secretly rolling my eyes. She walked past me, and went on ahead. I knew she got angry with me. But I didn't care at the time. Because it was the truth! She could've stopped what she was doing to at least talk to friend 2. But she didn't, and that excuse that she was doing her Math Homework is BULLSHIT! Because she was talking with these other group of friends. WHILE doing her homework! That excuse didn't work for me. And she practically ruined my day, I tried to sound as nice as possible. But I guess she couldn't take the truth.

But right after I walked outside with friend 2. I was still pissed, and after I left her I said. "I hope I didn't make her cry." In a nasty way. I don't know.. I was so pissed right there. But now, a part of me regrets telling her that, and I'm afraid that our friendship is at it's border. I don't know why I'm regretting what I said. I was just telling her the truth. But... I guess the truth hurts...And now I'm really depressed and wondering what will happen on Tuesday when we come back from the three day break....I'm scared of what will happen, If I'm gonna avoid her, or if I'm going to apologize. Right now, I can't think straight and then I have finals the following week. So it can't be good. I'll be distracted during those days, and it's just horrible... I'm holding my emotions inside, and It's just so hard when I have all these feelings of loneliness building up...

I even wished I was just sitting in a corner rotting like a corpse for what I did. I'm wondering if I should apologize or not... But then again, the only reason this all started was because of her attitude, which caused my breaking point...

Any ideas anyone? I need guidance.... Please help me... I've fallen into major depression.... I just wish I could apologize... but it's just so scary.... ;__; I'm afraid of her reaction.