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Published: 2022-11-02 15:08:41 +0000 UTC; Views: 800; Favourites: 11; Downloads: 0
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WIPS & reasons for this drawing: www.instagram.com/p/CkN45Q6BgX…//drawn with paint tool sai, tablet
...I'm sorry for making yall Cry-a-day (Kaede)- c':
Kaede is another one of my favs aaa
Ive been thinking of her a lot lately-
After watching her love hotel vid, I feel I understand her more, plus I feel more connected after indulging in irumatsu content aaa
after I watched the love hotel vid, I gathered that she wants someone to give her courage, n I thought isnt she the one who gives courage?
I realised shes the type who keeps things to herself like even when shes anxious, she puts up a front
She's passionate n determined n always doing her best, wanting ppl to smile; n being assertive n saying whatever she thinks, I connect to that
her dorky side of making piano puns too, I relate XD I love making puns n talking about my interests even if the person Im talking to doesnt know my interest haha just like Kaede making piano puns to ppl who dont understand piano-
Didn't think much about her at first while watching gameplay cuz I was more focused on the class trial, but when I think more after knowing the whole story, I realised she's a lot like me;
Thinking about her makes me sad cuz she was basically self sacrifical... she put herself on the line n wanted to help everyone else get out even if it means she wont get out...
She's so selfless, she didn't take the first blood perk that monokuma gave which would allow the person who murders someone to leave without a class trial TT she chose to stay to help everyone even if it means getting herself killed;
when she realised she didn't kill the mastermind n ended up killing one of her friends instead, she felt a lot of guilt cuz all she wanted was to end the killing game by killing the mastermind n protect everyone, but she ended up doing the opposite of that
n she basically gave up on herself when she knew full well she was going to be executed for the murder when she didnt take the first blood perk-
she gave up on herself cuz she placed everyone before herself... she wanted to save everyone even when she won't be able to save herself
"let's leave this place together"
"Im sorry that won't be the case"
she cared about everyone so much even when they arent close n that breaks my heart... Im now thinking about that scene where she blamed herself harshly when she didnt realise how everyone was tired out from continuously trying n failing to make it through the manhole...
all she wanted was to help n give everyone hope, so she encouraged them to keep trying n not give up, but it ended up backfiring...
she kept doing her best but failing n she wanted to help everyone even if they havent helped her/done the same for her-
...n no one knew how she was struggling inside cuz all they see is her exterior of optimism, determination n courage...
Not even Shuichi knew that Kaede was so desperate, desperate n anxious esp from the time limit motive where someone had to kill someone before they would all be killed-
She was so desperate n anxious that she saw no other option n decided to set up a trap to kill the mastermind;
n she kept everything to herself, feeling anxious inside for what she's doing but yet convincing everyone that everything would be okay (even when she herself isn't convinced)
She took everything herself, n wanted to be someone everyone could rely on, someone who could make everyone happy in a distressing situation but yet failing everytime to the very end...
That reminds me of me; seeming calm/confident outside but so anxious n struggling a lot inside
Suddenly thinking all this, I feel the anxiety Kaede felt when she kept everything to herself, the fact that she knew she would be killed for Rantaro's murder but yet she continued on because she had to save everyone...
It breaks my heart even more that after knowing the whole story, the truth behind Rantaro's murder was that Kaede wasn't the one who killed him cuz her shot put ball missed n Tsumugi was the one who killed Rantaro n framed Kaede for it;
so Kaede basically died for smthing she didn't do, she blamed herself n felt guilty all the way till her death about smthing she didn't do, she never got the chance to know the truth... n she was alone till the very end... (She's like the definition of having many friends but yet you feel lonely still; cause no one knows ur struggles)
n she couldn't even figure out the mastermind during the class trial before she died, something she was determined to do before she was executed... I bet Kaede must've felt utter despair then, even though she acted optimistic n told Shuichi n everyone to not give up hope n find the truth no matter what TT
The greater ur hope/optimism, the greater you fall into despair...
I couldn't get all these thoughts n feelings off my mind n I wanted to show my love for Kaede, so I drew this drawing to express it;
