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I'm brimming with possibilities.

It's funny, I hate the idea of Mondays, but I end up loving them, if just for the sake of the inherent possibility I realize after spending time basking in stimulating discussion in class, preceded in this particular case by an equally arousing conversation I had last night.  I chose to focus on these occurrences and my Monday at 12:30 p.m. has blossomed thusfar.  It's all perspective.

I'm happy.  I won't doubt myself.

I have chosen to give this meaning to this day and to the functions therein.

I love feeling wanted.  Even if just for sex by someone whose pleasure I care about.  I like to know I'm capable of satisfying some need for another person, because needs are the precursors of desire, and though this is not always the case, to satisfy a desire is to come one step closer to recognizing an underlying need.  I don't know if it is possible to want something for no deeper reason than that want.  Want is founded in unfulfilled needs, perhaps even the need to want something more to propel the act of living--to keep seeking and to avoid stagnating in apathy or complacency.

I have found a way to prove God's existence, not by definition as the "omni-God," but out of the necessity of the existence of a being "than which no greater can be conceived." (St. Anselm).  The concept of God is irrelevant as is God's essence, or essential qualities, when considering that God's nature is defined solely by the fact that God IS, because the world needs an uncaused Cause/Causation that is infinite enough to encompass all of creation and transcend it as its source and end.  God is what God is by the sheer reality of the existence of a force of life and death that is greater than humans and to which we are subject...nothing more.  One could argue for or against God as an eternal, perfect, omniscient, and omnipotent entity from here, but these qualities must not all necessarily exist together in order for God to exist.  God's supreme, initiatory, indpendent existence is enough, and what is greater than existence?  From existence comes all meaning--all essence--not the other way around.  Once we know that God exists, it is unnecessary to know anything more except that existence and the conditions of that existence in itself.

The best thoughts are not "deep," the most profound nothing but simple clarity unveiled.  The notion of a question that is difficult to answer seems to suggest an equally intricate answer, but this is never the case.  The answer itself is blinding lucidity that is only hard to come by in its intensity that is foreign to the sight of our mind.  The only complexity comes from ensuing questions that momentarily fog up the answer, replete with every consequence to its knowledge, but these questions ultimately provide even more elucidation in their answer.  Life is a cycle of inevitable questions and answers and back again to fill in the space that might have been skipped over in the process of reaching certainty.  All answers return to the source of things.  But, can you ever really be certain knowing so much ground is left to be traversed before and after the radius of light emitted by the answer?  These patches of ground between answers are like a series of checkpoints between disintegrating bridges leading to and from the answers, or bridges that have been set aflame by truth.  They represent trains of thought left unexamined in the process of seeking one answer at a time.  The immolation of these bridges upon subsequent realization of truth does not permanently destroy the significance of these questions left unanswered.  One aiming solely at truth knows well to disregard superfluous postulations that get in the way for the sake of a greater unifying truth that sheds light farther than it would otherwise.  Some questions will be left unanswered until only the essential ones remain.