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Samhainophilia β€” Come Back Alive

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Description "And if I'm up there in that bar and you're not--I'll be looking down. You'll never be alone."

"Never."

(for added sadness, listen to this while viewing:
[link] )

*sniffles*

ALL MY FEELS

I made myself cry when I made this. I really did. The idea came into my head and I just had to do it.

As you've already seen, Shakarian is obviously my OTP. There are about a million reasons why. I mean, their relationship is so beautiful, and to me it almost feels canon at this point. He stuck with her from the beginning, no matter what.

This whole goodbye scene just flooded me with emotions. The fact that he was the one that mentioned children said a lot to me about his character. That alone put me on the verge of tears. What really did it though was the way Shepard's voice cracks when she says, "You'll never be alone."

I cried. So hard.

I literally paused my game and was like..."JK let's run away together and fight the Reapers later!" I just sat there for like, 10 minutes.

Damn.

There's no Shepard without Vakarian.

EDIT
Went back and slightly colored his markings in.

Mass Effect 3 Screencaps googled, editing done in Adobe Photoshop CS3

Garrus Vakarian and Commander Shepard belong to Bioware

I just make silly art and take all of my own feels
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Comments: 51

Samhainophilia In reply to ??? [2012-06-01 09:08:42 +0000 UTC]

Me too!

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Shade449 In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-06-01 10:23:12 +0000 UTC]

AHH! it's so sad yet so cute!

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Samhainophilia In reply to Shade449 [2012-06-01 10:37:16 +0000 UTC]

I know, right?

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Shade449 In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-06-01 11:37:36 +0000 UTC]

Ahh! and the link to that song! lol
sorry im still geting over that part!

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Samhainophilia In reply to Shade449 [2012-06-02 11:19:22 +0000 UTC]

Aww. That song always makes me cry!

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Shade449 In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-06-02 12:46:09 +0000 UTC]

I know right! it's just so full of feelings!

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illusionsfire76 [2012-05-19 17:33:40 +0000 UTC]

Love this! It's absolutely beautiful! Wistful sigh....

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Samhainophilia In reply to illusionsfire76 [2012-06-01 09:08:50 +0000 UTC]

Aw, thank you!

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contemnosfortuna [2012-05-11 01:54:46 +0000 UTC]

Hold the line people.

Because I'll be damned if I'm gonna let it end like that. I would have been fine with Shep dying, if it weren't for this specific conversation.

Dammit Garrus, why did you have to go and say that? And Dammit Shep, why'd you have to respond like that?

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Samhainophilia In reply to contemnosfortuna [2012-06-01 09:09:53 +0000 UTC]

I was never ok with her dying. But that last conversation that they had just made it impossible for me to believe it. I mean, he was talking about the future and kids and everything...UGH. It makes me so sad.

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contemnosfortuna In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-06-04 04:36:09 +0000 UTC]

Before I played ME3, I was okay with Shepard dying.

Then I played it. And continued my romance with Garrus.

... and now Shepard CAN'T die, because that is just too cruel.

So I go with my headcannon, which says Dr. Who showed up and used his sonic screwdriver to kill the Starchild and send a virus to all the Reapers that knocked out their defenses, and the united peoples across the galaxy kicked some serious ass. Then Shepard went back to the Normandy (which hadn't, for inexplicable reasons, jumped through a mass relay and crashed in some godawful backwater place) and had fun adventures cleaning up the galaxy, married Garrus, adopted some kids (and some krogan babies) and lived happily ever after. Someplace warm and tropical. Forevah.

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Samhainophilia In reply to contemnosfortuna [2012-07-01 09:45:25 +0000 UTC]

LOL WUT

That is genius.

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akzarkun [2012-05-09 18:06:49 +0000 UTC]

Oh God... I also cried, damn, cried hard! You know, that feeling of emptiness inside your heart after this scene... I am a guy actually, and never thought that anything (smth this kind, like a movie or a game) can make me cry, but this.. so touching, so beautiful and so... gosh, i don't have enough words to describe the whole bunch of emotions. Thank you a lot for this amazing piece of art and for the explanation of your feelings, i felt the same, and still feeling it right now, but had no idea how to express it via words. Thank you...
By the way, take a look at this two little comic strips, they depict a part of these feelings: [link] and [link] (I uploaded them both to tinypic.com because i couldn't find the originals here on deviant)

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Samhainophilia In reply to akzarkun [2012-06-01 09:12:02 +0000 UTC]

LET ME LOVE YOU!

Oh gosh. Thanks so much! I'm really glad that this piece made the emotional impact that I had hoped it would. It means so much to me that you took the time to tell me this

PS: -boys have feelings too, I'm glad you can express yours-

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SciFiotica [2012-05-09 14:54:40 +0000 UTC]

They came so far together and changed each other in positive ways. Remember in ME:Garrus was a kind of a prick and Shep was an uptight... Bi_otch. Love transformed them both.

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Samhainophilia In reply to SciFiotica [2012-06-01 09:12:26 +0000 UTC]

You're absolutely right.

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ephoni [2012-04-30 01:32:48 +0000 UTC]


Can I just say that my heart has been torn from my chest, thrown under a bus and scraped up by Vorcha?
Because it has.

My otp of all otps.

;___;

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Samhainophilia In reply to ephoni [2012-04-30 08:19:21 +0000 UTC]

Aww I made myself sad when I made this. I had to watch the goodbye scene to double-check the dialogue I used in the description

UGH

So sad. Their romance is so lovely.

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ephoni In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-04-30 22:58:26 +0000 UTC]

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I have my own little Headcanon ending;
I can’t help but picture my own personal rendition of that amazing Mass Effect Comic where everyone is with Shepard in spirit helping her take down the Reapers.
In my mind, everyone is there (she can feel them but not see them) at first and with each shot one or two people fade until it’s just her and Garrus. Then she smiles and mutters, β€œYou said that you wanted to take the kill shot…” and just before pulling the trigger she sees him right beside her and feels his hand over hers on the gun. Then he whispers in her ear, β€œSee you at the bar.”

Then things go boom and everyone is dead. The End.

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Samhainophilia In reply to ephoni [2012-05-01 01:23:07 +0000 UTC]

OMG

MY FEELS

YOU JUST TOOK ALL OF THEM

akfgaksgfasgfaksfjgkaj *cries*

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ephoni In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-05-01 02:25:44 +0000 UTC]

;___; I know bro. I made myself cry when I thought of that.

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UrsulaCousland [2012-04-30 01:24:09 +0000 UTC]

I have no further words except that this is beautiful. *feels* (They're my OTP too)

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Samhainophilia In reply to UrsulaCousland [2012-04-30 08:19:50 +0000 UTC]

Aw thanks! Glad you like it

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Faceroll [2012-04-29 19:51:10 +0000 UTC]

I know that feel, Shepard. We all know.

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Samhainophilia In reply to Faceroll [2012-04-29 21:02:13 +0000 UTC]

O_O

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secondrateemily [2012-04-29 15:44:08 +0000 UTC]

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Samhainophilia In reply to secondrateemily [2012-04-29 15:45:09 +0000 UTC]

?

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secondrateemily In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-04-29 15:49:46 +0000 UTC]

That whole goodbye scene had me sobbing sooo much. Lots of

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Samhainophilia In reply to secondrateemily [2012-04-29 15:52:45 +0000 UTC]

I did exactly what I said I did in the description. I just couldn't go on because I knew that was the end of them. adhagsjhagf Going to go cry.

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secondrateemily In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-04-29 18:46:50 +0000 UTC]

Its not the end imo. My Shepard is on the crashed Normandy, in the medbay, getting patched up.

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Samhainophilia In reply to secondrateemily [2012-04-29 19:08:47 +0000 UTC]

It's not the end for me either. They can say what they want about what happens, but I know she's not dead. Nope. I'm actually working on rewriting the ending (aren't we all?) and I plan to write 2 versions: Shepard is found alive, Shepard dies.

They think they can make us all think Shepard is dead. HA! Yeah right.

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secondrateemily In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-04-29 19:45:38 +0000 UTC]

Well I deliberately chose the destroy option. My paragon Shepard...a true blue paragon except for the end decisions in all 3 games. Yeah, kill the council. Let Cerberus have the collector base. (I blame Garrus for that one, he talked me into it.)

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Samhainophilia In reply to secondrateemily [2012-04-29 21:01:51 +0000 UTC]

OMG
You picked EXACTLY what I did--minus the Collector base. I killed the Council as well. I also picked "destroy" Finally, a full paragon for all 3 games. I get shit for that all the time.

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secondrateemily In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-04-30 00:48:38 +0000 UTC]

Haha. It was just wayyyy too difficult 'cause Garrus is so persuasive.

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Samhainophilia In reply to secondrateemily [2012-04-30 15:37:50 +0000 UTC]

It's been so long since I played ME1 that I don't even remember talking to him about it

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secondrateemily In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-04-30 22:41:44 +0000 UTC]

It was from 2. I dont recall him saying anything about the council, but I have a feeling, if he had a chance, he'd have talked me into the renegade option as well.

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Samhainophilia In reply to secondrateemily [2012-05-01 00:37:45 +0000 UTC]

I hated the council and didn't really care what happened to them, even though killing them wasn't a paragon option.

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secondrateemily In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-05-01 01:00:43 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, if I recall correctly, it was presented to me like, "kill the council, possibly save thousands; save council, possibly let innocents die." So naturally I'd prefer to save the majority.

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Samhainophilia In reply to secondrateemily [2012-05-01 01:24:05 +0000 UTC]

That's how I thought of it as well. It seemed like it was to my advantage to sacrifice the Council. They were dicks anyways

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secondrateemily In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-05-01 01:55:17 +0000 UTC]

yeah.

Easy decision. Haha!

Ash/Kaiden... not so much.

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Samhainophilia In reply to secondrateemily [2012-05-01 03:35:00 +0000 UTC]

Ohh--I just hated Ashley. I really did. I shipped Shenko HARD until ME2, so I just couldn't kill Kaidan.

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secondrateemily In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-05-01 03:48:30 +0000 UTC]

I let Kaiden live since I liked him better than that gd space racist. It was hard for me because I did not want to kill off either. Thought I did something wrong. Never had to choose someone's fate like that in a game before. It became a hard decision out of many to come.

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RioCyan [2012-04-29 15:29:44 +0000 UTC]

You captured the very essence of their relationship - I cried all over again just falling into the memories it invoked.

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Samhainophilia In reply to RioCyan [2012-04-29 15:41:46 +0000 UTC]

Awww...thank you so much for your compliment Sorry I made you cry! I suppose...that was the point though. I cried when I made it!

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Ryoko5 [2012-04-29 13:18:29 +0000 UTC]

Garrus! VakarianKriosDryaded here! I LOVE THISSS!!! You are so talented. I wish i had on drop of your talent. So true, there is no Shepard without Vakarian.

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Samhainophilia In reply to Ryoko5 [2012-04-29 13:35:08 +0000 UTC]

HEYYYY GIRL! Thanks so much! I freakin made this at 5 am. I just woke up and was like, "I HAVE TO MAKE THIS OMG." So I did. Glad you like it!

Shakarian fivever.

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Ryoko5 In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-05-09 00:59:55 +0000 UTC]

Shakarian forever! You are great!

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Samhainophilia In reply to Ryoko5 [2012-05-10 01:49:37 +0000 UTC]

Dawwww thanks!

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Ryoko5 In reply to Samhainophilia [2012-05-10 20:31:23 +0000 UTC]

this is my facebook timeline picture...! that is how much i loved it!

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Samhainophilia In reply to Ryoko5 [2012-05-10 21:08:19 +0000 UTC]

fahkjhfafkj I'm glad you like it that much!!

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