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Published: 2017-01-19 01:31:42 +0000 UTC; Views: 695; Favourites: 69; Downloads: 5
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It has begun. It attacked me once again, around the same time it does every damn year: the fear. The fear that originates from my desperate love for winter, for darkness, for the muted hues -- and losing them. I know, summer is not even near really, but it will come. It always does, at first in the form of nightmares, then in the form of rising temperatures and that god damned sunlight. It gets me anxiously aggravated to even think it, it sends me towards panic attack once again.And then there is the question...
When will it take me, when will I lose this damned battle I already feel too tired to fight?
I know I will survive in the end, I always do, but it doesn't really ease these feelings. I'd like just to skip that damn season of sunshine and that damn blessed joyousness of others that just makes me sick with jealousness, because I can't take part in it. I can't when my mind is playing tricks, my body is shutting down and my eyes ache like hell.
...
so yeah, a vent. Pardon me being a little dramatic here, but I assure you, I'm not fooling around when I say summer is just suffering for me; suffering and longing for the darkness and colder temperatures. And I need to get it out. I need to get it out.
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Samoin minulla. Kevät tuo tullessaan vain ikävää aina. Pidän enemmän syksystä ja talvesta. En minäkään pidä valosta ja kuumuudesta.
Mutta jälleen kerran työsi näyttää todella hyvältä. Ensin tosin olin vähällä katsoa että koiralla olisi monta jalkaa, heh. Sinun tyylisi on kyllä upea. Käpälät näyttävät jälleen niin ihanan käpäliltä kuin olla ja voi. Olisin halunnut, että ehkä sinä piirtäisit minun Lobotomian kun kuvasi ja ideasi ovat niin hienoja, mutta... ei sillä taida olla enää väliä koska...
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Oonpas myöhänen vastaaja hupss.
Mut oho, on aina jotenki tosi kiva kuulla, et muillaki on samoja tuntoja kevättä ja kesää kohtaan, ku se yleinen konsensus tuntuu olevan et niistä kuuluu tykätä. Ja paskat.
Haha, no mut Surku kyl onki semmonen vekaraväkkärä et ei olis sikäli yhtään ihme jos se kasvattais muutaman lisäraajan ja rupeis joksku kakkos-Xsyamoraksi! Surku on vähän hämmentävä jalkoinensa kaikkinensa, ku se on kans tommonen kunnon koipeliini ja sen jaloilla on mittaa ties kuin paljon.
Hmm-m, kerropa kuule sit vaan lisää millasia juttuja aattelit Lobotomialle, jos se hahmo ny kaikesta huolimatta tulee ajankohtaiseksi joskus jossain. o/
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i never really liked summer. it is way too hot, even thought it would be close to 10 degrees, it is still too hot. and yes, the sunlight, it hurts :^((
hopefully this year the cold weathers will come earlier.
anyway, awesome art again
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Ohhh what a late reply. >8O I'm no good boy agender.
Ahh, I know right? +10 is tolerable, but not too pleasant, while +15 starts to be intolerable really. We have the same wishes, I see.
And thank you lots for this comment and so!
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Sorry to hear that, i am almost just the opposite. Unfortunately due to a possible illness neither the sun nor the cold of winter do me much good, the winter especially hurts my joints and is just all around a miserable time. Then again, it could be my area. We don't have snowfall for long, it turns to slush quick and on average my state gets 70 days of sun per year, so the overcast that overhangs the sky for months is tiresome. Even in spring its just murk and rain. Summer sucks because you'll have like 10 good days of enjoying the shade and a good breeze by the pool, but the rest is either so blistering you feel sick, or so humid and stormy you stick to everything (although i adore the storms), only thing good about summer is boating (then theres the sunburn to counter that) and summer nights with campfires and stars. Fall is my favorite for these reasons. You get those nice sunny days, but they aren't so hot and long you feel like death, the storms still roll in and when it is sunny the leaves are all so lovely, and night is still rather comfortable.
So, yeah. Unfortunately I cannot fully relate to your situation even if i am a bit empathetic, but i do wish for you the best.
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