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"It's okay" she said, "Even if I'm far away, I will heal you." And then all pain is gone.

Every person, every living human (or even not a human, like me) have fallen in despair at least once.
Everyone once felt broken.
Some people get help from their friends in that moments, but some just hold it inside and fight... Survive alone.
I always was the second type, I struggled with my thoughts up alone, refusing any support from others, because that was MY fucking war with MYself, particularly I hate when somebody tries to poke at my morbid head.
But that time... That was fatal for me. The absolute despair and disappointment. That was just stunning words from a... Human I considered as a "friend". But that was like an unexpected backstab from your brother with a rusty knife. I fell to the knees writhing in pain.
I hate when this happens. The history repeated itself. And this is one of the reasons why I hate people. They can betray you easily.
The damage was near critical and I thought it will heal in many months, constantly reminding me about that stab. (though I had the event in my life when I literally almost died and that was more serious, I still remember that horrific terror) But...
The other human appeared. She also was my friend but I tried to keep a distance between us because, as I already said, I hate when somebody tries to get in my mind. But she healed me. In that moment. I felt much better and I just.. Wanted to cry of.. Uh... I don't know. There were so many feelings and... Stupid emotions.
But now I know that somebody is always ready to offer a hand to me.
And so I am ready for her.
And she's the best.

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I drew this picture in a burst of inspiration. I think you see it, 'cause it happens rarely but they turn out way more impressive than other pictures I drew for no particular reason.
This is Warrace Malicer - my fursona and one of my 'avatars'. This undead polar bear symbolizes my hatred and self-destructive addiction, also mixed with morbidity, amorality and anarchy. In short - the most terrible traits I have. But even such douchebags like him are not invincible.
So, I decided to represent the collide these two opposite sides: altruistic kindness and evil in depressive psychosis. And I hope I could express my feelings.
[link]
And please listen to this. This track inspired me to draw this pic and I was listening to it when I was drawing. And still listen.

Description
"It's okay" she said, "Even if I'm far away, I will heal you." And then all pain is gone.

Every person, every living human (or even not a human, like me) have fallen in despair at least once.
Everyone once felt broken.
Some people get help from their friends in that moments, but some just hold it inside and fight... Survive alone.
I always was the second type, I struggled with my thoughts up alone, refusing any support from others, because that was MY fucking war with MYself, particularly I hate when somebody tries to poke at my morbid head.
But that time... That was fatal for me. The absolute despair and disappointment. That was just stunning words from a... Human I considered as a "friend". But that was like an unexpected backstab from your brother with a rusty knife. I fell to the knees writhing in pain.
I hate when this happens. The history repeated itself. And this is one of the reasons why I hate people. They can betray you easily.
The damage was near critical and I thought it will heal in many months, constantly reminding me about that stab. (though I had the event in my life when I literally almost died and that was more serious, I still remember that horrific terror) But...
The other human appeared. She also was my friend but I tried to keep a distance between us because, as I already said, I hate when somebody tries to get in my mind. But she healed me. In that moment. I felt much better and I just.. Wanted to cry of.. Uh... I don't know. There were so many feelings and... Stupid emotions.
But now I know that somebody is always ready to offer a hand to me.
And so I am ready for her.
And she's the best.

-----------------

I drew this picture in a burst of inspiration. I think you see it, 'cause it happens rarely but they turn out way more impressive than other pictures I drew for no particular reason.
This is Warrace Malicer - my fursona and one of my 'avatars'. This undead polar bear symbolizes my hatred and self-destructive addiction, also mixed with morbidity, amorality and anarchy. In short - the most terrible traits I have. But even such douchebags like him are not invincible.
So, I decided to represent the collide these two opposite sides: altruistic kindness and evil in depressive psychosis. And I hope I could express my feelings.
[link]
And please listen to this. This track inspired me to draw this pic and I was listening to it when I was drawing. And still listen.