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Secruffience — My Love For You was Bullet Proof...

Published: 2014-03-12 08:01:19 +0000 UTC; Views: 710; Favourites: 54; Downloads: 13
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Description ...but you're the one who shot me.

Vent.

Based off of these songs:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=gugUpI…
www.youtube.com/watch?v=cu7QvO…
www.youtube.com/watch?v=iC8tP9…
Have a listen.

Do you ever get that feeling.. like you're flying, you're soaring.. right before you hit the ground?

My guidance councilor is going to tell my mother about my cutting and I'm probably going to be put in a mental hospital so.. not because I'm wacked in the head, just because she's afraid I'm going to kill myself. She told me a few years ago that's what would happen if I started cutting and here we are.

I just wanted to say a few things. This is going to be a weird transition but whatever.

Ah fuck I'm crying.

Please, please. Anyone and everyone who is reading this. Don't let anyone of any group or clique decide who you are on the inside. You need to know that highschool or middleschool or school in general is just a blur in your life and you can't let them make your choices for you. For some of you it is easier said than done, but honestly... I have a lot of stuff I'm holding back just because I don't want to be made fun of in school, I know how you feel... but that's going to change. When March Break ends my school is starting a GSA/LGBT club, And I'm joining. I'm standing up for what I believe in and I want you guys to as well. There will be bad days, be calm. Let go. Be confident. Accept every extended hand offered to help you because life is packed filled with assholes and tough times and you will need someone to lean on. Someone who accepts you, who trusts you, who loves you.
"You voice is your weapon, your thoughts ammunition."
You are who you set out to be. You are you. Don't be afraid to let your true colors shine dispite the shadows around each corner. Your light will guide you. Love and hate are the demons of the world and the one that grows is the one that you feed. Try to be happy, that's all I'd like to see. I care about you all so much even if I don't talk alot to some of you. I care about everyone whoop.

Anyways it's 4 AM. I'm emotional and not tired at all, so I should try to sleep. I love you guys to death. I want you guys to be happy, and free and you. Night. <3
 
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Comments: 23

LuigiFan-64 [2014-03-13 15:25:22 +0000 UTC]

This is very lovely drawing

And just saying; I had this feeling like 20 minutes ago...

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Secruffience In reply to LuigiFan-64 [2014-03-13 17:20:38 +0000 UTC]

Thanks hun.
You can talk to me if you want.

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LuigiFan-64 In reply to Secruffience [2014-03-14 04:56:00 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome

and I'm doing fine now :3

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AceThePoni [2014-03-13 06:32:46 +0000 UTC]

I hope she doesn't decide to do that...

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Secruffience In reply to AceThePoni [2014-03-13 17:19:43 +0000 UTC]

..?

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AceThePoni In reply to Secruffience [2014-03-13 19:15:25 +0000 UTC]

I hope your mother doesn't put you in a mental hospital

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Secruffience In reply to AceThePoni [2014-03-13 19:18:09 +0000 UTC]

Ah, yeah me too. ;-;

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Nikaiyo [2014-03-12 23:32:30 +0000 UTC]

Oh I love that song!!! Hnnng
and the drawing too omg
<333
i love your vent

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Secruffience In reply to Nikaiyo [2014-03-13 01:28:39 +0000 UTC]

Thanks. <3

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whispxrinthxdark [2014-03-12 22:42:22 +0000 UTC]

This may sound strange from a complete stranger but I hope that all that's holding you back will go away. You sound like an amazing person, I hope life turns out for the better for you. 

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Secruffience In reply to whispxrinthxdark [2014-03-13 01:28:17 +0000 UTC]

Thanks, I'm gonna do my best. And it doesn't sound strange, I really appreciate the support. <3

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whispxrinthxdark In reply to Secruffience [2014-03-13 01:30:46 +0000 UTC]

Good to hear. Stay strong~ And of course<3

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ratsick [2014-03-12 21:47:31 +0000 UTC]

I may not know you even in the slightest bit, but you have my support for whatever troubles you.

Love this, by the way.

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Secruffience In reply to ratsick [2014-03-12 22:35:01 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.. I really appreciate it. <3

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ratsick In reply to Secruffience [2014-03-12 22:44:10 +0000 UTC]

No problem.~

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lolzcupcake [2014-03-12 17:06:25 +0000 UTC]

"My love for you was bulletproof but you're the one who shot me.
And god damn it, I can barely say your name,
so I'll try to write it and fill the pen with blood from the sink."

Gotta love PTV
I love you babe do you forget that. You are perfect to me<3 
Your my best friend foreverrrr~

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Secruffience In reply to lolzcupcake [2014-03-12 22:34:51 +0000 UTC]

<33

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scoutface [2014-03-12 15:53:03 +0000 UTC]

;n;

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Secruffience In reply to scoutface [2014-03-12 22:35:19 +0000 UTC]

<3

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scoutface In reply to Secruffience [2014-03-13 01:50:11 +0000 UTC]

<3

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Iscera [2014-03-12 08:16:23 +0000 UTC]

Ohgod.. I'm just realising how long it's been since I last cut. It's been like... a year.
I still get the urge to do it sometimes though rare, but it slowly dies away. Slowly, but it will happen. I wish you luck with your mom though, hopefully you could make her understand you aren't suicidal? I also wish you luck in quitting cutting.
I've not ever told anyone in person that I used to cut, just people online. I've admitted to a couple friends that i've been depressed, that i've starved myself, but I just.. cant bring myself to tell anyone about my cutting.

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Secruffience In reply to Iscera [2014-03-12 22:35:53 +0000 UTC]

That's really great that you've been clean that long, you should be proud. <3
If you ever feel like you wanna talk I'm here.

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Iscera In reply to Secruffience [2014-03-18 02:36:37 +0000 UTC]

I'm honestly suprised i didnt relapse. I don't think that'll end up happening again though. it's been so long that i rarely get the urges to do it anymore and it becomes easier to resist now, the longer that i go without doing it.
I just wish i never tried it in the first place.

ahh, thanks.

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