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In the end, I had Nico leave her hair loose. Thanks to all the reblog suggestions in the tags and messages, basically, all the thoughts! I appreciate them and will go about drawing some 30 year-old Nico-chan pictures featuring differing hairstyles.

Soon.

Ish.

Until then, here’s an accompanying fic, please do not bleed out from scratching your eyes too much:

「こくはく」

Series: Love Live!
Pairing: NicoMaki
Words: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Safe?: Of course! I don’t do s-smu-sm- shameless things!

“I love you.”

The words escaped Maki’s lips with a strange ease that puzzled even herself. Perhaps it was cherry blossoms, having bloomed and were now gently falling to the ground, creating a gentle and romantic feeling. Perhaps it was the quiet reminder they gave, that things would eventually pass on quietly without you realizing that gave her strength. Perhaps it was the way Nico looked amidst the petals, with a content yet distant and sad smile on her face, the strange feeling that Nico would disappear that stirred her to finally say what she felt.

Perhaps it was all of them.

Whatever it was, Maki felt it strangely natural, necessary even, to tell Nico the feelings she had been harbouring in her heart for the past twelve years. Nico turned to look at her, her soft pink lips parted ever so slightly. She closed her mouth and eyes, looking a little thoughtful and pained, in Maki’s opinion, before giving Maki a cheery smile.

“You’re drunk, Maki-chan.”

With that, Nico turned around and continued walking down the street, humming a tune. Maki blinked a few times before realizing that Nico had simply brushed her confession off. It wasn’t a rejection, it was completely pushed aside. She didn’t like that. She knew when Nico gave the cheery smile she saw it meant that her petite senior wanted to avoid things and run away.

Maki didn’t like that one bit.

She walked quickly forward, catching up with Nico before holding the smaller woman in a tight embrace.

“I love you.”

“… You’re drunk Maki-chan, you don’t know what you’re saying.”

“I’m not drunk and you know it.”

“Hah, why else would you be confessing to me?”

“Because I love you.”

“Maki-chan…” groaned Nico as she tried to break free of the redhead’s embrace.

“I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you,” repeated Maki, over and over again as she breathed Nico in, felt the older woman’s petite frame squirm against her. She could feel her face flush, her cheeks burn but she went on.

“Stop it. Stop it Maki-chan.”

She stopped and parted her arms, allowing Nico free. Nico took a step forward and turned around, a tired look in her eyes.

“When? When did you first-” Nico waved a hand in the air trying to find the right words to say.

”I… E-Ever since high school.”

Nico ran her fingers through her hair, pushing aside her bangs, ignoring how adorable Maki was when she was flustered.

“Yet you dated Rin and Umi in the next two years.”

“I… I made mistakes. I wanted to forget my feelings for you and things just… kinda happened.”

“That’s a terrible reason Maki-chan. What will you do if Rin-chan and Umi-chan found out? What will you do if you feel that I’m not the one you want? That it isn’t like whatever you dream it to be? Can you guarantee me that you’d stay by my side? You know I’m a selfish woman. If, and that’s a huge if, we got together, I’d want you to be mine and only mine. Can you really promise me that you’d be mine for the rest of your life?”

“Yes.”

Confidence oozed from Maki when she answered Nico. Nico, on the other hand, was exasperated. The one time she should be hesitating she doesn’t. Straight up, point blank, a shameless and straightforward “yes”.

Ugh, Maki-chan!

“How can you be so damn confident?!”

“Because I love you. I’ve loved you for the past twelve years and I’ll keep loving you,” said Maki, her voice rising

“T-this isn’t like you at all Maki-chan. You’re supposed to be flustered at the idea of love and dating, proud and dense to the point of being damn near stupid.”

“It’s kinda hard for me too right now okay? But-” she looked away with a shy and angry expression, “I-I want to be honest with you.” Her voice gradually softened near the end.

Silence fell between them. Maki twirled the ends of her hair nervously, waiting for Nico’s reply. They weren’t the most honest of people, but she could tell when Nico was being very serious. And Nico, despite acting selfish, was one of the more considerate people she knew, especially so since the incident.

“I can’t Maki-chan.”

“Why not?”

“Because I’m not cut out for happiness. Because you deserve someone better, someone able to make you happy, to love you as you deserve to be loved, someone wh-”

“And why can’t that be you?”

“Because I’m selfish and too proud. I’m not talented like you Maki and I don’t come from a rich family. I’m a terrible person, lacking in every way.” At this she pointed at her chest with a wry grin. “No matter how I think about it, I’m just… I’m just not worthy alright? I used to… I loved you you know? Back when things were simpler, easier but now? How can I say that I love you when I don’t even love myself?”

“Nico-chan, it wasn’t your fa-”

“Yes it was. I could have, no, should have done so much more to help her.”

“She wouldn’t have wanted it. She wanted you to chase your dreams.”

“Every parent would want that for their child, but it doesn’t mean that I should have.”

“Stop being so harsh on yourself Nico-chan.”

“I’m being honest with myself.”

Maki bit her lip as tears began streaming down Nico’s cheeks. The redhead stepped forward and reached out for Nico’s hands. When she did, the petite woman pulled back her arms, only to have Maki grab one by the wrist.

“Let go Maki-chan! Let go!” she said while beating Maki’s chest weakly.

“No. I won’t let go.”

She held Nico’s chin up.

“I love you Nico-chan. I love you so much, for who you are, for all you’ve done. And I’ll make you happy, so happy you’ll learn to love yourself, love life again. So please, tell me you love me too.”

There was a conviction in her voice that struck at Nico, making her want to believe that maybe she too deserved a chance to love, to be loved.

“I- Maki-chan, you’re so unfair.”

“Well? Do you love me?”

“I love you. I love you Maki-chan,” she answered, her voice as quiet as a whisper as Maki leaned forward to kiss her as a gentle breeze blew.

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Sometimes I forget that DA exists. I'm so sorry, I just haven't been on in so long. So instead, follow me on tumblr @ noelclover89.tumblr.com/ or pixiv @ www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=54… where I am quite a bit more active.

Description
In the end, I had Nico leave her hair loose. Thanks to all the reblog suggestions in the tags and messages, basically, all the thoughts! I appreciate them and will go about drawing some 30 year-old Nico-chan pictures featuring differing hairstyles.

Soon.

Ish.

Until then, here’s an accompanying fic, please do not bleed out from scratching your eyes too much:

「こくはく」

Series: Love Live!
Pairing: NicoMaki
Words: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Safe?: Of course! I don’t do s-smu-sm- shameless things!

“I love you.”

The words escaped Maki’s lips with a strange ease that puzzled even herself. Perhaps it was cherry blossoms, having bloomed and were now gently falling to the ground, creating a gentle and romantic feeling. Perhaps it was the quiet reminder they gave, that things would eventually pass on quietly without you realizing that gave her strength. Perhaps it was the way Nico looked amidst the petals, with a content yet distant and sad smile on her face, the strange feeling that Nico would disappear that stirred her to finally say what she felt.

Perhaps it was all of them.

Whatever it was, Maki felt it strangely natural, necessary even, to tell Nico the feelings she had been harbouring in her heart for the past twelve years. Nico turned to look at her, her soft pink lips parted ever so slightly. She closed her mouth and eyes, looking a little thoughtful and pained, in Maki’s opinion, before giving Maki a cheery smile.

“You’re drunk, Maki-chan.”

With that, Nico turned around and continued walking down the street, humming a tune. Maki blinked a few times before realizing that Nico had simply brushed her confession off. It wasn’t a rejection, it was completely pushed aside. She didn’t like that. She knew when Nico gave the cheery smile she saw it meant that her petite senior wanted to avoid things and run away.

Maki didn’t like that one bit.

She walked quickly forward, catching up with Nico before holding the smaller woman in a tight embrace.

“I love you.”

“… You’re drunk Maki-chan, you don’t know what you’re saying.”

“I’m not drunk and you know it.”

“Hah, why else would you be confessing to me?”

“Because I love you.”

“Maki-chan…” groaned Nico as she tried to break free of the redhead’s embrace.

“I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you,” repeated Maki, over and over again as she breathed Nico in, felt the older woman’s petite frame squirm against her. She could feel her face flush, her cheeks burn but she went on.

“Stop it. Stop it Maki-chan.”

She stopped and parted her arms, allowing Nico free. Nico took a step forward and turned around, a tired look in her eyes.

“When? When did you first-” Nico waved a hand in the air trying to find the right words to say.

”I… E-Ever since high school.”

Nico ran her fingers through her hair, pushing aside her bangs, ignoring how adorable Maki was when she was flustered.

“Yet you dated Rin and Umi in the next two years.”

“I… I made mistakes. I wanted to forget my feelings for you and things just… kinda happened.”

“That’s a terrible reason Maki-chan. What will you do if Rin-chan and Umi-chan found out? What will you do if you feel that I’m not the one you want? That it isn’t like whatever you dream it to be? Can you guarantee me that you’d stay by my side? You know I’m a selfish woman. If, and that’s a huge if, we got together, I’d want you to be mine and only mine. Can you really promise me that you’d be mine for the rest of your life?”

“Yes.”

Confidence oozed from Maki when she answered Nico. Nico, on the other hand, was exasperated. The one time she should be hesitating she doesn’t. Straight up, point blank, a shameless and straightforward “yes”.

Ugh, Maki-chan!

“How can you be so damn confident?!”

“Because I love you. I’ve loved you for the past twelve years and I’ll keep loving you,” said Maki, her voice rising

“T-this isn’t like you at all Maki-chan. You’re supposed to be flustered at the idea of love and dating, proud and dense to the point of being damn near stupid.”

“It’s kinda hard for me too right now okay? But-” she looked away with a shy and angry expression, “I-I want to be honest with you.” Her voice gradually softened near the end.

Silence fell between them. Maki twirled the ends of her hair nervously, waiting for Nico’s reply. They weren’t the most honest of people, but she could tell when Nico was being very serious. And Nico, despite acting selfish, was one of the more considerate people she knew, especially so since the incident.

“I can’t Maki-chan.”

“Why not?”

“Because I’m not cut out for happiness. Because you deserve someone better, someone able to make you happy, to love you as you deserve to be loved, someone wh-”

“And why can’t that be you?”

“Because I’m selfish and too proud. I’m not talented like you Maki and I don’t come from a rich family. I’m a terrible person, lacking in every way.” At this she pointed at her chest with a wry grin. “No matter how I think about it, I’m just… I’m just not worthy alright? I used to… I loved you you know? Back when things were simpler, easier but now? How can I say that I love you when I don’t even love myself?”

“Nico-chan, it wasn’t your fa-”

“Yes it was. I could have, no, should have done so much more to help her.”

“She wouldn’t have wanted it. She wanted you to chase your dreams.”

“Every parent would want that for their child, but it doesn’t mean that I should have.”

“Stop being so harsh on yourself Nico-chan.”

“I’m being honest with myself.”

Maki bit her lip as tears began streaming down Nico’s cheeks. The redhead stepped forward and reached out for Nico’s hands. When she did, the petite woman pulled back her arms, only to have Maki grab one by the wrist.

“Let go Maki-chan! Let go!” she said while beating Maki’s chest weakly.

“No. I won’t let go.”

She held Nico’s chin up.

“I love you Nico-chan. I love you so much, for who you are, for all you’ve done. And I’ll make you happy, so happy you’ll learn to love yourself, love life again. So please, tell me you love me too.”

There was a conviction in her voice that struck at Nico, making her want to believe that maybe she too deserved a chance to love, to be loved.

“I- Maki-chan, you’re so unfair.”

“Well? Do you love me?”

“I love you. I love you Maki-chan,” she answered, her voice as quiet as a whisper as Maki leaned forward to kiss her as a gentle breeze blew.

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Sometimes I forget that DA exists. I'm so sorry, I just haven't been on in so long. So instead, follow me on tumblr @ noelclover89.tumblr.com/ or pixiv @ www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=54… where I am quite a bit more active.