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ShadowRaindrop — Sequel to Hate Me
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Published: 2006-11-20 02:46:35 +0000 UTC; Views: 408; Favourites: 3; Downloads: 4
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Forget meErase me
Hate me
I don't care how or what you have to do
As long as you do either of those three things
The reason why is
Cuz I'm a liar
I cheat
I decieve
I betray
I break my promises
I'm weak
I'm nothing
I'm useless
I'm worthless
I'm scum
I've no use
Cuz I deserve to die
I don't derserve to be a friend
A younger sister
An aqquntice
A role model
Anything that I mean to anyone
I don't deserve to be
Cuz what I really am
Is something so disgusting/disgraceful
You'll never want to see/hear from me again
Honestly what I am is:
a low/dirty/lying/cheating/betraying/decieving/hateful/stupid piece of scum
whose useless/worthless/nothing
So hate me
Erase me
Forget me
That way I can let go of everything/everyone more easily
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Comments: 25
Amaya, listen, I don't know what's going on in your life to make you feel this way, I'm sorry. I should be trying more to help you feel better. You are a good person, you're just in a slump, I was in one to, and no one suspected that I hurt myself. After all, it's easy to laugh and smile when you're talking to your friends, but they don't really know. I hope I can help you out of your hard time. If you need anything, ask, I owe it to you.
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thanks Jen. though I don't know how owe you, but thanks anyway. And I'm really truly sorry abou wat happened 
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i promise i'll never do it again. but in case i do commit suicide or something happens to me
:i-conAngelofNothingness: will probably post it in her journal if that ever happens.
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NOOOOOOOOOOO SUICIDE!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i'm not going to do suicide
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Okay ^^ that's a good thing!
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I wont hate you, i wont forget you, but i will erase you till im ready to come back because, i will not lie, steal, or cheat, nor will i condone those who do... your my friend and i will not forget you, just dont do any thing rash, k.
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so you're going to erase me? k then and don't worry about me at all. i'm not worth the time
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Look, i Care but i kn ow what you did... or said, whatever, it really doesnt matter, i care about you flaws and all...just please dont play me im kind of touchy on that ive been hurt to many times. just it takes time to get along with others, just wait a while, it will get better.
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I can't do this. Why do you want to think these things of yourself, while you aren't? I know low selfesteem is a bitch and life is a bitch as well, but it is too easy to walk out on it. If you stil don't feel fine, that means we haven't done enough to help you properly, neither of us, so the blame is on us, not you. I will help you, so will all your friends. I didn't know you were this torn apart, I should have seen it coming much earlier.
Let me help, please. Send me a comment or a note or an email to tell my why and what's wrong, so I can start with that first. It shames me that I didn't help you enough to be happy, just as I did with Nothingness...
And you do deserve to be my little sister. I love you, and nothingness loves you too. You love usand you are a sweet, loving girl so you have all the right to be our sister and you deserve it. I couldn't wish for any better sisters then you two....
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no stop this. no stop it. you're making me cry as i type this y'know. it hurts so much. to hear words of kindness and to see that offer of help. it's too much for me.
i can't do this. i can't allow myself to be helped by others. cuz if i do, i'll just end up taking advantage of you and i don't want to...
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you don't take advantage of me, because I want to give my help to you, its not like you are realy forcing it out of me. So let me help, please. I know it must hurt but you can't do this. It isn't fair to yourself or others that love you, like me.
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how can't it be fair to the people that love me? is it causing them that great of a pain?
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yes it is. don't you realise that? We love you! If we lose you, we lose someone we love. And I don't want to lose you.
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i do, but then i want to ignore it at times. yet i still keep on living cuz the fact of making u and my ane-san and all the ppl who care/love me sad
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and maybe that is a good thing. but you should not ignore these things. I'll tell you something now I never ever told anyone (not the whole story anyways)
When I was eleven years old, so two years younger then you are now, I was really fed up with constantly being bullied or ignored by all the people around me, except my family. So on a day when my dad and mom and sis were gone, I took a knife out of a drawer and put it on my wrist. But at the last moment, I couldn't do it, because of my parents and sister. So I put the knife away again, and that was a really hard thing to do. But I couldn't leave them behind all by themselves.
And after that, my life started to change a lot. So maybe us keeping you alive now is what will make your life beautiful afterwards. Who knows?
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wow....i have actually done the same thing as you have, but i kept thinking about you, ane-san, Mechanical-mayhem, and my other friends, and also some of my family members. yet still at times i go to the kitchen and take out a kitchen knife and think about whether or not i should commit suicide.
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you think I never did that after it? I had a lot of moments where I wanted to do just that, but didn't eventually. So it wasn't meant to be. And if you still think you shouldn't or art least put the knife away again, it isn't your time to go, but your time to stay here and solve your problems and be happy.
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I can't do that either. I will never understand why you continue to lie to yourself. You have never lied to me, so why lie to yourself about all these things and call yourself names you know aren't true. Giving yourself disgraceful titles like that doesn't drive me away, you know. It only means I still have a lot of work to do if I want to help you to become happy, and means I have to work harder at it. I do regret one thing though. And that is that I've failed you thus far. I thought you were doing fine because you weren't posting anything new. I can see now that I was wrong. I'll just have to try harder now. I'll start by asking you to please send me a note as to why you want to commit suicide so badly. Please allow me to help you deviate from this path. There is happiness out there just for you, you just have to live and look hard for it, and it will be worth it in the end.
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will it really be or will it all be just a waste of time? happiness never existed to me. it never did and never will. so what's there for me to look for?
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