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“The doctor will see you now!”
Those are words that have had mixed results with me, if I can be perfectly honest with you. On one hand, they’re all just trying to help, and I can respect that. But there is such a thing as not lucking out and getting the wrong treatment too. I can argue that just like with physical treatment, if the wrong mental medicine is given to you, it can serve to only make things worse. And that DID happen with me. There’s no use in being so bitter about it, but I do feel as if things would be better today if I had caught onto the warning signs of the reverse treatment as I’ll call it. Because of something that none in my circle of people had yet recognised for what it actually was, it got worse and worse to the point where I genuinely felt like a monster… a freak. And what hurts is that I still do sometimes. And it’s over the slightest of things too. I feel like I have to do everything perfectly, or it’s all over. I have to have the perfect day, do 110% at work, respond to everything I am replied with on the double, or else… And worse yet is that such compulsions and self-gripes were encouraged at one point by those around me. But now, I’ve found a new doctor, and the best part is… this one lives with me. No… It’s not as weird as it is in Shrinking, let me clear that up right away. It’s… quite nice actually. Better than nice. This doctor prescribes a medicine that has no side effects: Cuddles. He listens to my deepest fears, he cries with me like the true companion he is, and he won’t stop until he knows that I’m not in danger anymore, and whenever that moment, rare as it may feel, comes, he will be there to celebrate with me. The best part is that he’ll never leave me, he’ll never make me feel like a monster, and he’s working hard to save my life even as we speak. During the toughest of days, I cling on because of him, for until I can believe in myself again, he is the one who will stop me from falling. I wuv him so much, and I hope he wuvs me back too.
And his name… His name is Sparky… Sparkysaurus the Snuggle Muffin.

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*Another thank you gift for www.deviantart.com/zookiedrago… . *
“The doctor will see you now!”
Those are words that have had mixed results with me, if I can be perfectly honest with you. On one hand, they’re all just trying to help, and I can respect that. But there is such a thing as not lucking out and getting the wrong treatment too. I can argue that just like with physical treatment, if the wrong mental medicine is given to you, it can serve to only make things worse. And that DID happen with me. There’s no use in being so bitter about it, but I do feel as if things would be better today if I had caught onto the warning signs of the reverse treatment as I’ll call it. Because of something that none in my circle of people had yet recognised for what it actually was, it got worse and worse to the point where I genuinely felt like a monster… a freak. And what hurts is that I still do sometimes. And it’s over the slightest of things too. I feel like I have to do everything perfectly, or it’s all over. I have to have the perfect day, do 110% at work, respond to everything I am replied with on the double, or else… And worse yet is that such compulsions and self-gripes were encouraged at one point by those around me. But now, I’ve found a new doctor, and the best part is… this one lives with me. No… It’s not as weird as it is in Shrinking, let me clear that up right away. It’s… quite nice actually. Better than nice. This doctor prescribes a medicine that has no side effects: Cuddles. He listens to my deepest fears, he cries with me like the true companion he is, and he won’t stop until he knows that I’m not in danger anymore, and whenever that moment, rare as it may feel, comes, he will be there to celebrate with me. The best part is that he’ll never leave me, he’ll never make me feel like a monster, and he’s working hard to save my life even as we speak. During the toughest of days, I cling on because of him, for until I can believe in myself again, he is the one who will stop me from falling. I wuv him so much, and I hope he wuvs me back too.
And his name… His name is Sparky… Sparkysaurus the Snuggle Muffin.