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*This one isn’t just for you, www.deviantart.com/zookiedrago… . This one is really meant for all of my friends, out there, nearby, anywhere… You really do have no idea how much you’ve helped me stay…*
Before I met those like the Dragons of Barrel Hill, I had no idea what it meant to truly live, love, and laugh. I just kind of ran through the motions of the game we call life. Even now, I still grapple with trying to find myself… It’s as disheartening as you think it might be… Things reached a tipping point tonight when I did something I never thought I’d do again:
I tried to leave Sparky out of shame.
I felt like I was unworthy of his affection… I felt as if I was nothing but a hindrance to the little fellow. I felt like I was too dark for his light to shine on… I didn’t want to stay knowing that I made him sad.
But that was how I saw it. That clearly wasn’t in the vision of the others.
I didn’t even bother to pack. I just tried leaving for the nearest boat I could find, but I didn’t get far when I heard my name being called.
“SHOCKO?!”
I knew who it was. I collapsed on the spot. Maybe out of shame or guilt? Maybe out of shock? Maybe all of the above? The point is… I expected to be hoisted up into an angry love embrace from Cinder, but I was not prepared for what was to come next.
I felt my limp body being picked up by the elephantified dragoness gingerly. I was too embarrassed to look up and see what her expression would be, but considering I was this far down rock bottom, I decided to do what I thought would be foolish and look up. I expected to see disappointment in her eyes… Disbelief? Disheartenment.
And she was, perhaps, disheartened by what I had tried to do. But if there was any mistake I had made in that moment, it was looking into her eyes, and seeing the forgiveness, the compassion, and the teary-eyed pity that she had.
It was an even bigger mistake to look towards Sparky…
Sparky… The fwend I had nearly betrayed again by leaving him for good. I didn’t deserve to be called his fwend. Not in my own eyes… I expected beratement to come. I was so ready for a repeat of the night where I nearly left Sparky the first time.
But instead?
“Shocko… You may think we won’t find you, but with a heart as big as yours, we always will…”
“Volty… We know you’ve been through a lot… but we also know… that you CAN… You CAN… We… We wuv u…”

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*This one isn’t just for you, www.deviantart.com/zookiedrago… . This one is really meant for all of my friends, out there, nearby, anywhere… You really do have no idea how much you’ve helped me stay…*
Before I met those like the Dragons of Barrel Hill, I had no idea what it meant to truly live, love, and laugh. I just kind of ran through the motions of the game we call life. Even now, I still grapple with trying to find myself… It’s as disheartening as you think it might be… Things reached a tipping point tonight when I did something I never thought I’d do again:
I tried to leave Sparky out of shame.
I felt like I was unworthy of his affection… I felt as if I was nothing but a hindrance to the little fellow. I felt like I was too dark for his light to shine on… I didn’t want to stay knowing that I made him sad.
But that was how I saw it. That clearly wasn’t in the vision of the others.
I didn’t even bother to pack. I just tried leaving for the nearest boat I could find, but I didn’t get far when I heard my name being called.
“SHOCKO?!”
I knew who it was. I collapsed on the spot. Maybe out of shame or guilt? Maybe out of shock? Maybe all of the above? The point is… I expected to be hoisted up into an angry love embrace from Cinder, but I was not prepared for what was to come next.
I felt my limp body being picked up by the elephantified dragoness gingerly. I was too embarrassed to look up and see what her expression would be, but considering I was this far down rock bottom, I decided to do what I thought would be foolish and look up. I expected to see disappointment in her eyes… Disbelief? Disheartenment.
And she was, perhaps, disheartened by what I had tried to do. But if there was any mistake I had made in that moment, it was looking into her eyes, and seeing the forgiveness, the compassion, and the teary-eyed pity that she had.
It was an even bigger mistake to look towards Sparky…
Sparky… The fwend I had nearly betrayed again by leaving him for good. I didn’t deserve to be called his fwend. Not in my own eyes… I expected beratement to come. I was so ready for a repeat of the night where I nearly left Sparky the first time.
But instead?
“Shocko… You may think we won’t find you, but with a heart as big as yours, we always will…”
“Volty… We know you’ve been through a lot… but we also know… that you CAN… You CAN… We… We wuv u…”