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I remember when we were kids; we'd have sleepovers and watch films curled up under the fortress all weekend. We'd sit and eat popcorn, stuff ourselves like hibernating bears. The room would be full of laughter – you used to make me laugh so much my face turned red and the sound would refuse to come out.
I remember when we moved schools, up into the big bad world where people could hurt us more than we dreamt of. I remember the cruel words, the harsh sentences and the mean comments we'd both get. I remember the heartbreak as we drifted apart, pushed away from each other by classes and friendship groups.
But we had our lunchtimes, with the conversations nobody else understood, the impossible scenarios' we'd set up for each other; argue to the death over the correct solution. They'd often end with a stony silence and a forgiving hug.
I remember the time when we never went home angry, when I could walk with a spring in my step knowing that I was not alone.
Do you remember phoning me because you were too scared to leave your room?
I remember it. We sat on the phone for hours, I desperately needed to go to the loo but I knew I couldn't let you down. The tears we shed over the years could have watered my garden for months.
Remember that day we opened our results? I was so nervous I thought I was going to dissolve into a puddle on the floor. But you kept me together, do you remember?
'It'll be okay, you'll be great' you chanted over and over to me, like a mantra. By the time we got to the front of the queue I'd forgotten what all the fuss was about.
What about the torment that plagued us as we discovered the whole new world of boys? When you went pink at the mention of a name, squirmed when he came your way, I remember that. I remember running to your house through a flood of tears, my heart snapped in two and all I wanted was my best friend.
'I don't know what I'd do without you' you used to say. I always shrugged it off at the time when what I really meant was 'I don't think I'd last a day without you'
I remember the stand off's and the arguments I'd get into when someone hurt you. The fury I felt when someone hurt my best friend, my sister.
I remember walking into your house and feeling at home, being treated like I was one of the family. You were my family when I felt like I had nobody else.

Do you remember the time I needed you most? When all hope was lost and I felt like I'd never move again? No, you won't. Because you weren't there.
What about when I needed a hug? My black clothes marked with tears and mud, my family now smaller. You weren't around that day.
All those times that I waited for you to contact me, ask if I wanted to do something because you missed me? I remember those. You don't, you were too busy pushing me out.
And now it's like I hardly know you, like you've forgotten about the times that we shared, and the laughs that we had. How much I love you.
It was the worst kind of betrayal. The one you never saw coming.

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I remember when we were kids; we'd have sleepovers and watch films curled up under the fortress all weekend. We'd sit and eat popcorn, stuff ourselves like hibernating bears. The room would be full of laughter – you used to make me laugh so much my face turned red and the sound would refuse to come out.
I remember when we moved schools, up into the big bad world where people could hurt us more than we dreamt of. I remember the cruel words, the harsh sentences and the mean comments we'd both get. I remember the heartbreak as we drifted apart, pushed away from each other by classes and friendship groups.
But we had our lunchtimes, with the conversations nobody else understood, the impossible scenarios' we'd set up for each other; argue to the death over the correct solution. They'd often end with a stony silence and a forgiving hug.
I remember the time when we never went home angry, when I could walk with a spring in my step knowing that I was not alone.
Do you remember phoning me because you were too scared to leave your room?
I remember it. We sat on the phone for hours, I desperately needed to go to the loo but I knew I couldn't let you down. The tears we shed over the years could have watered my garden for months.
Remember that day we opened our results? I was so nervous I thought I was going to dissolve into a puddle on the floor. But you kept me together, do you remember?
'It'll be okay, you'll be great' you chanted over and over to me, like a mantra. By the time we got to the front of the queue I'd forgotten what all the fuss was about.
What about the torment that plagued us as we discovered the whole new world of boys? When you went pink at the mention of a name, squirmed when he came your way, I remember that. I remember running to your house through a flood of tears, my heart snapped in two and all I wanted was my best friend.
'I don't know what I'd do without you' you used to say. I always shrugged it off at the time when what I really meant was 'I don't think I'd last a day without you'
I remember the stand off's and the arguments I'd get into when someone hurt you. The fury I felt when someone hurt my best friend, my sister.
I remember walking into your house and feeling at home, being treated like I was one of the family. You were my family when I felt like I had nobody else.

Do you remember the time I needed you most? When all hope was lost and I felt like I'd never move again? No, you won't. Because you weren't there.
What about when I needed a hug? My black clothes marked with tears and mud, my family now smaller. You weren't around that day.
All those times that I waited for you to contact me, ask if I wanted to do something because you missed me? I remember those. You don't, you were too busy pushing me out.
And now it's like I hardly know you, like you've forgotten about the times that we shared, and the laughs that we had. How much I love you.
It was the worst kind of betrayal. The one you never saw coming.