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Tomo had just gotten back yesterday. We had somehow managed to get her back from the other Qwaser, and had brought her home safely.
I was so happy to have Tomo back! I had missed and worried about her so much, and hadn't gotten a good night's sleep since she had been taken again.
I sighed softly into my pillows, it was now the morning of the next day, and I was a bit reluctant to get up.
Because HE would be out there, and I had been so confused around him lately. He had saved and protected me countless times….and I now knew that what I was feeling now was inedible.
It was only natural that I start to feel this attraction towards him.
He was unlike any other boy I've ever know, or person, for that matter, and I wanted him to hold me and kiss while keeping me close to him….never to let me go. But that was only dream. I already know that he will reject me, and I already know what will happen when he does.
It will break me, break me in such a way that I might never be able to recover from it. Yes….this is a very complicated I don't know how to handle it on my own…which is way I was glad I had Tomo.
If I ever needed to talk to someone, she would always be there to comfort and help me.
I sighed as I looked over at Tomo's bed. She was looking right at me, with a worried face. "Mafuyu-Chan? Are you thinking about your…problem…again?"
I looked away tears started to come into my eyes. I remembered telling Tomo about my feeling last night, needing to tell SOMEONE, and all she did was give a smile and note that she would give me support.
I felt her come over to me and wrap her motherly arms around me. "It will be okay Mafuyu-Chan….I just know it will! Do you…want to come down for breakfast..or stay up here for a while?"
I sniffled, trying not to cry anymore, I didn't want Tomo to go alone without me. Especially since it was her first day back, and she needed her best friend with her. But…when I thought of HIM being down there…I just couldn't. I had finally told someone how I felt, and in doing so became more real to me.
I loved Sasha….I really loved him! Yet, I was also so afraid of him. He could hurt me in my most tender area, my heart, and leave me for dead.
"Mafuyu-Chan, if you don't want to go….it's alright. You…you must feel really vulnerable right now."
She then jumped off of the bed and started to get dressed, I looked at her with a tear stained face, "R-really Tomo…I-I'm sorry…I-I just can't…" I didn't know why this morning was so much different. I had been scared before, but now….I was terrified. I didn't even want to look at Sasha, because if I did I knew that I would cry.
Tomo looked back at me as she put her shirt on, and looked like she might cry too. "It's okay Mafuyu-Chan! You're like my sister, and I…..don't like to see you so scared. You don't have to face him right now.." She ran to me and hugged me, "I'll just tell Teresa-Chan and Sasha-Kun that you aren't feeling well, do want some breakfast to be brought up?"
I cried a few more tears as I looked down, I really didn't feel like eating this morning, in fact…I never wanted to eat again. "No thanks Tomo, you just go down and get some food, don't worry about me…..I'll be fine."
Tomo only nodded with a worried look on her face, as she went to the door, giving me one last,uneasy, smile before heading down stairs.
When she was gone, I snuggled under the covers, feeling like a kitten that had just been kicked in its poor little whiskered face. I shut me indigo eyes, as I started to go back to sleep, really starting to feel sick. My emotional out burst must have really worn me out.
I looked over at the window, feeling it's warm rays over the blankets.
I fell asleep while watching the birds outside fly about, making their morning music.
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"I think she's alright….are you sure she was sick Tomo?"
"I..I..uh…S-she said she was feeling unwell! M-maybe she's better now!"
I shifted in my sleep, wanting the voices to stop talking and just leave me be..*Slam!* "Oh…That was the front door…Sasha had to leave early this morning to talk with the father…it looks like he's home now."
I now was fully awake, but kept my eyes closed so I could stay in bed and not have to face, what would surely, be the death of me. I felt Tomo stiffen, I could tell she was trying to think of what to do.
"Oh! U-umm..Teresa-Chan? C-could you stay out there with Sasha-Kun, and let me tend to poor Mafuyu-Chan? S-she's had something like this before..a-and I'm one of the only people who know what to do."
I felt Teresa put a worried hand on my forehead, "Is she going to be alright?"
"Y-yes Teresa-Chan! It isn't serious but…I know Mafuyu-Chan the best and know what to do for her…."
I could feel Teresa lift herself off of the bed, and walk towards the door in a relieved manor. "That's good, I'll just inform Sasha and let him know to leave you two alone for today. Take care of her Tomo, and get well Mafuyf…"
The door shut and I could hear Tomo sigh while whispering, "You can open your eyes now Mafuyu-Chan…" While opening my eyes slowly, I sat up in bed ruffling my night gown a bit.
"Thanks Tomo."
She gave me a smile and laughed a little, "It was no problem Mafuyu-Chan! Hehe, but I must say that Teresa-Chan acted fast! The moment I mentioned that you were ill, she came strait up here to check on you…she really cares about all of us you know…"
I nodded my head while smiling a bit myself, "Yeah she does…it's almost like having a mother around the house!"
Tomo giggled and gave me a sly smile, "Not for long, because I'm sure in no time, that you and Sasha will play both mommy and daddy of the house hold!"
I blushed and ducked under the covers, "N-NO WAY!"
Tomo's giggle only turned into a laugh as she laid on her bed unable to breath. I sighed and hid my still red face, thinking about what I was going to do about Sasha…
"Mafuyu-Chan?"
Although my face was still red I looked at her from under the covers, "Yeah Tomo?"
"You know that..Sasha-Kun cares about you right? Your special to him in some strange way….you know he's going to come up here whether Teresa-Chan forbids him or not. It's just in his nature. He's not just going to stay down there wondering what's wrong with you, he's going to come up himself…"
I saw her face turn serious, "Mafuyu-Chan can't you see you mean something to him…why are you so afraid? C-can you not see it?"
I cast my eyes down, I knew he cared for me on some degree, but…what did he WANT from me? Did he want friendship…or…would he like to be more than that?
"I know he does Tomo…but…would he be repulsed that I…-" I gulped, "-I….love him…" Tomo looked at me amazed, amazed that I actually admitted it. I actually was too.
Then as quickly as she got that look, it turned into a sad one. "I-I guess you have a point there Mafuyu-Chan…but!-" She looked at me with determination, "-I just know that he wants you the same way…it's just! It's just…he doesn't know it yet…but somewhere in his heart, I know he cares for you."
I looked down again as I felt a new rush of tears cascade down my face, her face held so much promise of new dawn that it made me cry, She had hope that I desperately wanted to feel. But couldn't feel. I had to much doubt in my heart to feel anything but doubt itself.
I looked at Tomo, as I lightly pushed some of my dark red hair out of my face. "Y-you think so..?"
Tomo only smiled, "Yes, I truly believe that he does care!"
I smiled as I laid back down, silently deciding to stay in bed for the rest of the day. "I can't say that I truly believe…I still feel scared..but at least I know you have my back."
She smiled and laid down on the bed too, "Always and forever!"
I smiled a big grateful smile and closed my eyes, "Goodnight Tomo…."
"Goodnight Mafuyu-Chan…I'll come back and see you later kay?"
I nodded as she got off the bed and headed outside the door, where she would surely be questioned by Teresa. I lightly closed my eyes again and drifted off to sleep.
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The next time I woke up, I was surprised to see that it was already dark outside.
'How could I have slept for so long?'
I had just closed my eyes again to try to go back to sleep, when I heard the door squeak open. I thought it was Tomo, since dinner was going on about this time. But after a few moments of listening to the footsteps, I realized it was someone else.
I closed my eyes trying not to move too much, and hoping that they would go away. Maybe it was just Teresa or someone from class coming to check on her…yeah, that had to be it.
My thoughts froze though, as I felt pressure on the bed.
Who was this, and what were they doing?
I felt a warm yet somewhat cold hand touch my forehead. I froze more, if that were even possible, and my heart beat faster. It couldn't be, could it? It couldn't be! But somewhere in my mind I knew it was, his hand gave it away.
I felt the weight of the bed shift more as the said person, started to move closer to my body. "You're an idiot…."
My heart about beat out of my chest! It was him… I knew his voice just as much as I knew Tomo's! B-but why was he here!
Just then something Tomo said came back to me…"I-I guess you have a point there Mafuyu-Chan…but!-" She looked at me with determination, "-I just know that he wants you the same way…it's just! It's just…he doesn't know it yet…but somewhere in his heart, I know he cares for you."
I closed my eyes slightly tighter. This was all just too much!
"How can you go and get yourself sick.. Stupid woman."
I felt his body lay next to mine, his chest went against my back as he gently put his arms around me. I was so confused…what was going on!
"It's a good thing you're not awake…you'd probable have thrown the lamp at me by now…"
He put his arms around my waist as put his face into my neck, sighing softly. "Why is it only you I feel truly comfortable around? Why do you make me feel, when no one else can."
He brought me tighter to him, and by this time I could feel his heart-beat against my back. It was beating slow and steady, just like Sasha's personality, and I started to feel numb.
I was surprised my whole body wasn't shaking; it felt so good to have him hold me and say such meaningful things to me. 'Sasha…Sasha..' My mind went blank as only one word went through my mind over, and over, and over again.
'Sasha' that was all that was on my mind right now.
He said nothing more, just held me, and while my own little world…I accidently said his name out loud. "Sasha…."
His body went tense as he held me tighter, his heart beat increased slightly, I could feel it, the pounding in his ribs reached my back, and it was one of the most erotic things I ever felt. I wanted him to stay with me and never leave! I didn't want him to fight other Qwasers, and get himself hurt! I just wanted him to stay….
I felt his hand touch my lips slightly before slowly getting up and heading towards the door.
"Sasha, you should have listened to me." I heard Teresa's voice from the hall way, "Tomo told me not let anyone in…"
"Huh..I don't care. If that woman lives with me and is sick, I have the right to see her."
Teresa was then quiet as Sasha made his way down the hall.
While Teresa walked as well, I laid on my bed wide awake and sad. He had been so close…only to go away.
I love him…after all this time I can admit that I love him but…I can't touch him. I looked at the wall and blushed, 'But he touched me…'
I shook my head as I slipped under the covers more and tried to think of what to do. "I'll just have to make it through tomorrow, and wait to see what happens I guess.." And in the back of mind I thought….'Maybe Tomo was right…'

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RAIN

Tomo had just gotten back yesterday. We had somehow managed to get her back from the other Qwaser, and had brought her home safely.
I was so happy to have Tomo back! I had missed and worried about her so much, and hadn't gotten a good night's sleep since she had been taken again.
I sighed softly into my pillows, it was now the morning of the next day, and I was a bit reluctant to get up.
Because HE would be out there, and I had been so confused around him lately. He had saved and protected me countless times….and I now knew that what I was feeling now was inedible.
It was only natural that I start to feel this attraction towards him.
He was unlike any other boy I've ever know, or person, for that matter, and I wanted him to hold me and kiss while keeping me close to him….never to let me go. But that was only dream. I already know that he will reject me, and I already know what will happen when he does.
It will break me, break me in such a way that I might never be able to recover from it. Yes….this is a very complicated I don't know how to handle it on my own…which is way I was glad I had Tomo.
If I ever needed to talk to someone, she would always be there to comfort and help me.
I sighed as I looked over at Tomo's bed. She was looking right at me, with a worried face. "Mafuyu-Chan? Are you thinking about your…problem…again?"
I looked away tears started to come into my eyes. I remembered telling Tomo about my feeling last night, needing to tell SOMEONE, and all she did was give a smile and note that she would give me support.
I felt her come over to me and wrap her motherly arms around me. "It will be okay Mafuyu-Chan….I just know it will! Do you…want to come down for breakfast..or stay up here for a while?"
I sniffled, trying not to cry anymore, I didn't want Tomo to go alone without me. Especially since it was her first day back, and she needed her best friend with her. But…when I thought of HIM being down there…I just couldn't. I had finally told someone how I felt, and in doing so became more real to me.
I loved Sasha….I really loved him! Yet, I was also so afraid of him. He could hurt me in my most tender area, my heart, and leave me for dead.
"Mafuyu-Chan, if you don't want to go….it's alright. You…you must feel really vulnerable right now."
She then jumped off of the bed and started to get dressed, I looked at her with a tear stained face, "R-really Tomo…I-I'm sorry…I-I just can't…" I didn't know why this morning was so much different. I had been scared before, but now….I was terrified. I didn't even want to look at Sasha, because if I did I knew that I would cry.
Tomo looked back at me as she put her shirt on, and looked like she might cry too. "It's okay Mafuyu-Chan! You're like my sister, and I…..don't like to see you so scared. You don't have to face him right now.." She ran to me and hugged me, "I'll just tell Teresa-Chan and Sasha-Kun that you aren't feeling well, do want some breakfast to be brought up?"
I cried a few more tears as I looked down, I really didn't feel like eating this morning, in fact…I never wanted to eat again. "No thanks Tomo, you just go down and get some food, don't worry about me…..I'll be fine."
Tomo only nodded with a worried look on her face, as she went to the door, giving me one last,uneasy, smile before heading down stairs.
When she was gone, I snuggled under the covers, feeling like a kitten that had just been kicked in its poor little whiskered face. I shut me indigo eyes, as I started to go back to sleep, really starting to feel sick. My emotional out burst must have really worn me out.
I looked over at the window, feeling it's warm rays over the blankets.
I fell asleep while watching the birds outside fly about, making their morning music.
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"I think she's alright….are you sure she was sick Tomo?"
"I..I..uh…S-she said she was feeling unwell! M-maybe she's better now!"
I shifted in my sleep, wanting the voices to stop talking and just leave me be..*Slam!* "Oh…That was the front door…Sasha had to leave early this morning to talk with the father…it looks like he's home now."
I now was fully awake, but kept my eyes closed so I could stay in bed and not have to face, what would surely, be the death of me. I felt Tomo stiffen, I could tell she was trying to think of what to do.
"Oh! U-umm..Teresa-Chan? C-could you stay out there with Sasha-Kun, and let me tend to poor Mafuyu-Chan? S-she's had something like this before..a-and I'm one of the only people who know what to do."
I felt Teresa put a worried hand on my forehead, "Is she going to be alright?"
"Y-yes Teresa-Chan! It isn't serious but…I know Mafuyu-Chan the best and know what to do for her…."
I could feel Teresa lift herself off of the bed, and walk towards the door in a relieved manor. "That's good, I'll just inform Sasha and let him know to leave you two alone for today. Take care of her Tomo, and get well Mafuyf…"
The door shut and I could hear Tomo sigh while whispering, "You can open your eyes now Mafuyu-Chan…" While opening my eyes slowly, I sat up in bed ruffling my night gown a bit.
"Thanks Tomo."
She gave me a smile and laughed a little, "It was no problem Mafuyu-Chan! Hehe, but I must say that Teresa-Chan acted fast! The moment I mentioned that you were ill, she came strait up here to check on you…she really cares about all of us you know…"
I nodded my head while smiling a bit myself, "Yeah she does…it's almost like having a mother around the house!"
Tomo giggled and gave me a sly smile, "Not for long, because I'm sure in no time, that you and Sasha will play both mommy and daddy of the house hold!"
I blushed and ducked under the covers, "N-NO WAY!"
Tomo's giggle only turned into a laugh as she laid on her bed unable to breath. I sighed and hid my still red face, thinking about what I was going to do about Sasha…
"Mafuyu-Chan?"
Although my face was still red I looked at her from under the covers, "Yeah Tomo?"
"You know that..Sasha-Kun cares about you right? Your special to him in some strange way….you know he's going to come up here whether Teresa-Chan forbids him or not. It's just in his nature. He's not just going to stay down there wondering what's wrong with you, he's going to come up himself…"
I saw her face turn serious, "Mafuyu-Chan can't you see you mean something to him…why are you so afraid? C-can you not see it?"
I cast my eyes down, I knew he cared for me on some degree, but…what did he WANT from me? Did he want friendship…or…would he like to be more than that?
"I know he does Tomo…but…would he be repulsed that I…-" I gulped, "-I….love him…" Tomo looked at me amazed, amazed that I actually admitted it. I actually was too.
Then as quickly as she got that look, it turned into a sad one. "I-I guess you have a point there Mafuyu-Chan…but!-" She looked at me with determination, "-I just know that he wants you the same way…it's just! It's just…he doesn't know it yet…but somewhere in his heart, I know he cares for you."
I looked down again as I felt a new rush of tears cascade down my face, her face held so much promise of new dawn that it made me cry, She had hope that I desperately wanted to feel. But couldn't feel. I had to much doubt in my heart to feel anything but doubt itself.
I looked at Tomo, as I lightly pushed some of my dark red hair out of my face. "Y-you think so..?"
Tomo only smiled, "Yes, I truly believe that he does care!"
I smiled as I laid back down, silently deciding to stay in bed for the rest of the day. "I can't say that I truly believe…I still feel scared..but at least I know you have my back."
She smiled and laid down on the bed too, "Always and forever!"
I smiled a big grateful smile and closed my eyes, "Goodnight Tomo…."
"Goodnight Mafuyu-Chan…I'll come back and see you later kay?"
I nodded as she got off the bed and headed outside the door, where she would surely be questioned by Teresa. I lightly closed my eyes again and drifted off to sleep.
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The next time I woke up, I was surprised to see that it was already dark outside.
'How could I have slept for so long?'
I had just closed my eyes again to try to go back to sleep, when I heard the door squeak open. I thought it was Tomo, since dinner was going on about this time. But after a few moments of listening to the footsteps, I realized it was someone else.
I closed my eyes trying not to move too much, and hoping that they would go away. Maybe it was just Teresa or someone from class coming to check on her…yeah, that had to be it.
My thoughts froze though, as I felt pressure on the bed.
Who was this, and what were they doing?
I felt a warm yet somewhat cold hand touch my forehead. I froze more, if that were even possible, and my heart beat faster. It couldn't be, could it? It couldn't be! But somewhere in my mind I knew it was, his hand gave it away.
I felt the weight of the bed shift more as the said person, started to move closer to my body. "You're an idiot…."
My heart about beat out of my chest! It was him… I knew his voice just as much as I knew Tomo's! B-but why was he here!
Just then something Tomo said came back to me…"I-I guess you have a point there Mafuyu-Chan…but!-" She looked at me with determination, "-I just know that he wants you the same way…it's just! It's just…he doesn't know it yet…but somewhere in his heart, I know he cares for you."
I closed my eyes slightly tighter. This was all just too much!
"How can you go and get yourself sick.. Stupid woman."
I felt his body lay next to mine, his chest went against my back as he gently put his arms around me. I was so confused…what was going on!
"It's a good thing you're not awake…you'd probable have thrown the lamp at me by now…"
He put his arms around my waist as put his face into my neck, sighing softly. "Why is it only you I feel truly comfortable around? Why do you make me feel, when no one else can."
He brought me tighter to him, and by this time I could feel his heart-beat against my back. It was beating slow and steady, just like Sasha's personality, and I started to feel numb.
I was surprised my whole body wasn't shaking; it felt so good to have him hold me and say such meaningful things to me. 'Sasha…Sasha..' My mind went blank as only one word went through my mind over, and over, and over again.
'Sasha' that was all that was on my mind right now.
He said nothing more, just held me, and while my own little world…I accidently said his name out loud. "Sasha…."
His body went tense as he held me tighter, his heart beat increased slightly, I could feel it, the pounding in his ribs reached my back, and it was one of the most erotic things I ever felt. I wanted him to stay with me and never leave! I didn't want him to fight other Qwasers, and get himself hurt! I just wanted him to stay….
I felt his hand touch my lips slightly before slowly getting up and heading towards the door.
"Sasha, you should have listened to me." I heard Teresa's voice from the hall way, "Tomo told me not let anyone in…"
"Huh..I don't care. If that woman lives with me and is sick, I have the right to see her."
Teresa was then quiet as Sasha made his way down the hall.
While Teresa walked as well, I laid on my bed wide awake and sad. He had been so close…only to go away.
I love him…after all this time I can admit that I love him but…I can't touch him. I looked at the wall and blushed, 'But he touched me…'
I shook my head as I slipped under the covers more and tried to think of what to do. "I'll just have to make it through tomorrow, and wait to see what happens I guess.." And in the back of mind I thought….'Maybe Tomo was right…'