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I hate the way you look at me.

Ever since I woke up on that hospital bed,
I've noticed that your gaze holds something it didn't before.
A mix of things, none of them flattering.
Pity. Disgust. Fear.

I try to talk to you about what happened,
But you turn away and leave without saying a word.

You'll go out with me, and laugh with me,
And do all of the things that made us happy before,

But if I even mention the subject,
You get cold and still.

At first I understood.
I blamed myself;
Who could love someone like me?
It has to be difficult.

But then I realized
That I wasn't to blame.
This wasn't my fault.

You promised you would help me when I needed it,
Didn't you?
But I'm hurt and I'm alone, and you're not here.

You're not here.

I need you more than ever,
And you just ignore me.

Your silence hurts worse than anything.
Like it's slashing at me again and again,
And I don't know how to stop it.
I don't know the words to make this better.

I'm standing in front of what's left of my mirror.
I pounded my fists into it until I couldn't feel my hands,
Because I wasn't sure.

I wasn't sure whether you loved me
Or my reflection.

Goddammit, I busted the mirror...
Dammit, dammit, dammit...

Please don't leave me.